# 566

Holiday mood is over!!

Had a great time in Langkawi from 09/10-12/10/09...certainly will come back cos the island is so huge to cover all within 4 days.

We went at the right time, cable car station was re-opened to public 2 days before we reached. Had a fantastic time up there..ehhe!

Tiger Airways is so so...my first time boarding a budget airline..and it had to delay flight schedule due to technical problem..duh!

#565

I've submitted my topic for the team's project. I hope my team leader will not make me re-do my research.....i just hate to do such things!!

I'm so disappointed with one of the team members.
I didnt realised he is such a politician.
Sweet talked me into helping him in return to help out in my research.
Almost to the due date, no action from him, in fact he did not even bother to check his inbox. Which sets me to think that those words of "helping each other" is just N-A-T-O = no action talk only.

If he's the responsible type, why aint him be responding without being asked to?
If he's sincere in "helping one another", where are all his research on our topic?
If he's so serious on his OWN topic, why aint he checking his inbox after seriously asking me to tighten everything up?

Didnt expect a bootlicker to be so close yet so far away...i've alerted A so that he will not be the next victim. told him not to do extra work to help others on their research when he is all alone to do his...I've told him to concentrate to do only his part. Hopefully he will take my words to be careful of the bad wolf hidden underneath the chicken's feathers.....

I will try to complete whatever important tasks before the trip. I wanna enjoy myself fully there without having to worry. Its not easy to have such quality time with my family eversince I've started the bachelor progamme.

Im so looking forward to it, at the same time im so worried for not having the good plan to revise CFA!!! Exams will be in 2 months time....i almost forgotten what i had learnt last month.

HRE mid exams is due on Nov, 7th - the day i had to attend the company's training. As if to apply leave on your off day is not heartbreaking enough, I was made to report to work after the exams. SM is really getting to my nerves, it seems she aint so glad that im upgrading myself....make things difficult for me in every possible ways. I like to think that it's just my feelings but each time i evaluate the situation, the closer it is to prove she is being nasty!

#564

I cant seem to twit. it always hang!

First class of HRE module today - I was sceptical at first, began to have doubts that I may had made the wrong choice of my elective. The sight of the lecturer scared me, he looked stern and unfriendly.

Oh boy, I was so wrong! I had the best laughter and time seemed to pass so fast...3 hours was like 30 minutes....even the lecturer was asking me why I giggled so much!

Other great thing was he would focus more on exams, making sure we excel by focusing more on the mid test and final exams strategy. Unlike my other core modules, where we were left on our own to find ways to attempt the examinations. He mentioned that this module had the highest passing rate and he'll make sure our batch to excel like wise.

CFA's team work is facing crisis...4 out of 6 are working so hard while the 2 are no where to be found....all they did - ordering us around....my! so unfair!

#563 Salam Lebaran

Its the 3rd day of Eid.
Whats so special about this year? Well, cousins who have shunned us for almost a decade humbled themselves to our home yesterday. Ironically after their mum had gone to be with HIM, they've decided to step their feet into our home.

Ego aside, I think my late aunt would be very glad had they decided not to ignore us when she was still around. To make story short, they've realised its pointless to dwell into things which will not benefit all of us.

Mak was surprised that they came but the effect of so many years of absence made her feel uncomfortable to mingle around. Being the thick skinned i entertained and attended to them like those days.

But yeah, it will never be the same. The wound had healed but scar remained - ya know what i meant.

#562

So soon Ramadhan is leaving us. I must admit there isnt any great achievement for my ibadah.Class started and ended in the Ramadhan. I was very much occupied with that.

I managed to complete the financial statement. I was not sure if I would be able to complete within the time frame, was given a week shorter than usual. Alhamdulilah, thanks to ALLAH s.w.t, everything went smoothly, even SM was in good mood, she wanted me to clear the unrecorded leave given by the company before the Eid, so I will be on leave tomorrow. I'll accompany mak for marketing and off to buy the necessary items for the household.

Im putting off the research till after celebration, informed the gang that i'll be busy with the preparations. I need a break.

In 3 weeks time, 5 of us will be leaving for our short trip to Langkawi. Thanks to Mimi for her wedding invitation.

# 561

If others work hard, I have to work triple harder to be as good as what they had achieved.

I studied and revised for exams but I scored lower than those who never attended class!!

Understanding is the key word here. Study smart not hard.

Im trying ways to improve my grades for the rest of the modules...Im so clueless!!!

I almost broke down in front of everyone in the team just now...i cant even get the easiest question right...stupid or what!!

i need strategy to buck up!

#560

Had our 2nd class test today. I really hate MCQ! One word makes alot of difference and a whole different meaning to the statement. I scored 10 out of 24. Currently revising for our final class test tomorrow. Must improve.

The bond in the team is getting better except for 2 of them. I'm really glad to get to know them - not sure why but my buddy at school seem to be the minority, first it was K and now A!

I've decided to take up company law in the new trimester nxt year. A was assuring me that the paper isnt as bad as it seems. I thought of taking auditing, even Eddris becomes my consultant in giving me the advice of how to manage my study better. He encourages me to go for tougher paper in January cos its beginning of the year...i really dont see the connection leh..hahah!

I've been testing the market by sending few resumes, this time I'm applying for the analysis jobscope. So far only one company had replied, still it was a confirmation of going for the final review -> not even shortlisted.

Im looking forward to attend Mimi's wedding in Kedah in October, but I may have to miss it altogether since Mak is not keen to tag along, she insisted for me and eddris to go ahead but we used to be going out together, at least the 5 of us...Eddris was not that keen either if it falls during the examination period for Ezzaty.

Hope to be there and experience the different wedding atmosphere. and yeah, i was thinking of taking a flight but someone is keen to travel by land - its 10 hr journey! God, backside sure ache!!!!

#559

results of d final exams r out this morning.tks to ivy who alerted me. Alhamdulilah i manage 2 clear both papers but alittle let down by Tap's score. I was 2 marks away fm distinction.damn,he wld not give it 2 me. Cf is a manageable (dat killer mcq) though i was not really expecting a borderline.well,all in all i thanked Allah that i can move on 2 d other modules. My next 2 modules had started last wk, everythg is ok except 4 d teamwork,there'll bound 2b cönflicts n frictions.cant stand how youngsters work..

558

Kovy n dolly are in Dublin right now 4 their convocation this wkend.i wld be joining them if i did not change my course,no regrets though,it's just that mayb i wasnt wif them that i felt the time pass so fast 2 complete their studies,ending their challenging jourhney. Endurance is my greatest task right now,not only fm d coursewrk itself but the pressure fm my peers n some of d sarcasm i've gotten fm my colleagues.well,say what u want 2 say,it mayb hurtful,but at d end of d day, im not d öne who lose...at least ive tried,u? Talk n complain but no action is done,blah!

#557

Been very busy - exams preparations, revisions, notes, practical, tutorials etc..that i didnt realised that this blog has been neglected almost to a month.
Had a fair of bad and good news. I passed my CF midtest - got a credit, seriously the lecturer is being lenient, and now im preparing for the final exam which will be 7 more hoursfrom now.

I had done what i should - consistently revising and practising the questions though there were times i was away from my notes for awhile and yes almost give up, I've compensated with staying up late..I seriously want to pass through this CF paper.....does not matter anymore if im not getting distinction. just beyond my capability.

Today I am on urgent leave that i had not planned, well thanks to the staff dinner last night at Hyatt. I thought i could skip, SM was just being difficult!
Not my type of thing if the mgmt would like to award us..the ones having it all out are the managers themselves. WHy cant they give us the staff incentive in monetary value?

On 8.8.09, I received a bad news that a cousin passed on unexpectedly. The 3rd death news that I've gotten while I was in class. Though we seldom talk and in fact, we werent that close, to have a lesser members in the family is a sad thing.

The day before on 07.08.09, the much awaited reunion turned out great. Initially it was only me and Su who came in, I was so sure the rest will not turn up after receiving calls and sms that unexpected events popped up at the last minute. Glad that they made effort to turn up though much latter....

We had so much fun recalling those memories that I'll make sure the next reunion I would not highlight so much..i would not want to scare them off with what i know. I just happen to remember, but sounded so provokingly a stalker hahah..we had the time to ourselves minus the partners and children..even staying up till midnight !

okay gtg...im reading up my notes for the last time....Allah please enlighten my burden Amin:))))

#556

I'm typing this entry from my very own personalised netbook.
Been toying with the idea to purchase one for tutorial, Mac is just too bulky and not so user friendly (no windows installed, difficult to do assignments, had to do it from mun's laptop).

I've got a special deal purchasing this one. It has everything i want - light, ruby red, small and windows XP! Thanks to Azahar.

I no longer have to share with anyone - well, except for ED.

I've finalised the monthly report today, much earlier than the norm obviously due to the external audit. and of course, time like this, many entries had to be posted, many adjustment had to be passed and many silly requests from the boss had to be entertained. Just like today, asking me to alert the staff on cheques which had not been presented. Duh! There were all past the 6 months grace period, it'll be rejected by the bank anyway! Got the cheek to say im not knowledgeable, a kettle calling the pot black, afterall.

Sometimes I feel she is out to make my life difficult here. Too many occasions she did on purpose to get me back on personal grounds. sickening!!

#555

2 days ago, spent 5 hours at McDonald's to revise for the mid term test that i took at night. Though it allocates only 35% marks, I'm determined to obtain as many mark as possible. I hope to clear this paper - one of the toughest module. I could not imagine having to fork out another 2K re-sitting for the exams. MCQ is a killer! and the problem sums, the ones i had the easiest way out to solve, i could not even score full for them! formulae! and yep, im not studying anymore in any mcdonald's outlet. damn distracting.

With the virus, i find myself falling ill easily nowadays. Najmi has been ill for a week and the signs of recovery is at its slowest rate. He had stomach flu and will not be getting any better with no medicine. He just hates medicine....tried so many ways unsuccessfully.

Ezzaty did something bad today. She'll be barred from using the internet for as long as the ban is not lifted. I have confiscated her handphone and her ezlink card is no longer in her possession. Its partly not her fault but it takes 2 hands to clap right? I cant blame her classmate totally. Im thankful that her classmate's mom is very cooperative on this matter. She was not even defending her child like any parent would be when I called to clarify the matter. I have to be neutral, my child may be at fault. cant take her word without valid evidence. Its not me to reprimand somebody's child blindly. ( I was accused like that when i was in P1. so i know how it'll affect our self esteem and morale.)

In fact, the classmate's mom asked her child to return my call to apologise after interrogating her for the truth. and she wanted me to speak to her personally and made her promise not to do that again..she was sobbing saying her sorry. children nowadays...! we have to go around one big jungle ...sigh!

Final exams has been scheduled a few days before the ramadhan...
I was in the midst of planning my time for revision for the two papers...my diary is full of colours..yellow, red and green to highlight the days which I have to reserve for studying and practising the problems calculation.

I seek HIM to guide me the easy path to gain this knowledge, its tougher than i thought..but if many can succeed, i dont see why i cant....!!

Never gives up before even trying.
Those who gives up easily is Satan's best friend.
I do not wish to be even his pen pal....Allah forbids!

#554

Its been a trying week for me.
I got rid of J, and for now my school life is back TO normal (NORMAL = peaceful) thankfully. I feel awkward when we bump into each other, not sure how to react, but nevertheless, i feel at ease. i just have to pretend not knowing him. It sounds cruel but that's life. one cannot be selfish and think of oneself only, this is what u get. people will shun you!

Not enough with the trouble I had with this J, another J from the workplace gave me a big headache. I shall not mentioned what it was, I was as surprised to learn her true colour and yes, I have no faith in her. No trust. Not ever. Though she had apologised umpteen times. A promise made is a promise to be kept. In fact, she made me look bad getting involved in her game. Enough said, I'll be a fool if ever to be part of her plot again.

CF module is tough, so tough that I am clueless as what is expected from me.
I've been going through the texts, notes and still i do not know what is CF all about. Die, how to pass like that? I dreaded to attempt the tutorial questions. The last one I did, I gotten half of it correct and worse, cant even get the first 3 right.(veryone said these were the easiest! duH!)...
How could I overlook that formula? I totally cant recall....

After the first class, I was so stressed up that I could not breathe. My chest was so tight up that I thought my time is up. It was a traumatizing moment!
How to sleep when your mind is so full of numbers, theory, graphs and formulae!! and i cant afford to FAIL.

I was full of worries, uncertaintites and fears!!

I had a good talk with I-vy. She's already half through the programme and will be graduating in 4 months time. Was telling me many who had taken up the FInance modules could not pass through and advised me to drop doing double major.

Accounting is already so hard, what with doing the double major with FInance...yep, terribly difficult. I've acquired the electives that I-vy did, and after considering the modules - I will be registering close to hers. Its not easy but at least manageable compare to the Finance modules which require more of my analytical skill and principle based learning.

Looking back, I should've stick to my initial plan of doing single major and 4 elective modules when i signed up for the course in April :(

but its not too late, many had changed their minors along the way..they had tried to find some modules interest them though they had never thought of learning. Others are like myself.now i understand the system here of flexibility.........

I know the consultant meant well when he encouraged me to do the double major, but I guess he was not aware that its easier said than done. Yes, it will look good on your certificate but with what im going through, it just not worth the pain.

I've called the consultant in the morning, the fees shall remain the same, no change since for accounting undergraduate we are still required to complete 12 modules, either you are doing double or single major.

So I'll be majoring in accouting with management as my minor subjects. (this is final)

Im feeling better having thought of the lesser burden after dropping Finance modules altogether. Securites & investment are not meant for me. Its for the future records. Im more to the historical records and that's what accounting is all about.

#553

I was very disturbed the past 2 days.
I dont know, just so many unhappy incidents happened.

#552

Told ya that I will blow my top soon.
I think I've been kind and nice enough to be used.
I never expect anything in return but please do not take advantage of my kindness.

I had enough when J called and so called ordered me to ask the lecturer about the assignment for him!! I have not even touch those assignments myself - with all the problems surfacing during the upload. I had my share of problems, never once I smsed, emailed and pestered him like what he did to me.
Its been 2 months. enough is enough. I raised my voice, telling him to ask the lecturer himself, and he did not talk to me for the entire lesson but still got the cheek to ask me if his result was a borderline. I felt like screaming at him!
instead i pressed hard MY calculator and showed him the marks and gave aloud "aiyah" what a pest!

Ya know what, he pestered S & P too...! but not worse off than what he did to me.now he's moving on to 2 male classmates, it wont be long, just wait.

Gotten the mid semester exam result, sigh sigh sigh...careless mistakes!
I will be very careful, those 2 marks are precious...wasted just like that. Should have read the question over again.

I've done one exercise for the final exams, took me almost an hour. I'm just not familiar of how to tackle the question. I just hate the feeling of uncertainty and waste the time thinking where, how and what to do!

#551

Look at the damages she had done!
I know that we cannot allow anyone to rule us but yeah she did.
The slightest mention of her name made me fume mad! real mad that some of my colleagues here gotten burnt by the heat.

I want nothing to do with her unless its work related!
Why do we have to accomodate to her blardy mood?

enough said....im trying hard to stay sane.

Last night, sat for the mid semester exam, i think i did not do so badly.
I could answer most except for 2 with confidence. Didnt expect theory question will be out, i've applied whatever knowledge i had..some are quite close to the MCQ options.

J is getting to my nerve yet again, i try to be nice to him as best as i could. But i know it will not be too long he'll get it from me. he'd rather ask me than the lecturer who could explain to him better, its okay to ask but not during lesson!! How am i to concentrate? another thing, he is so pessimistic! such a wet blanket.!

Hahah.....sorry buddy, u r just too much ok. i've tried to assist u the best i could, but if you are so stressed out for nothing, it'll affect all of us. In fact some of us had already shunned you...i'll be next if i could no longer tolerate ur nonsense.

Btw, i've got hold of the past year papers, it was from 2005, the latest i could get.
I've planned out to complete the assignment by tonight and revised whatever i could for the final year. good luck!

#550

Received sms from SMS last night to conduct an orientation for a new staff today.
Its becoming part of my job already. Shared with sis Z of what been troubling me lately, though it will not change things around, at least my heart is much lighter to have shared with someone and most importantly who understand better my position.

She's been around long enough to know what kind of head my SM is. Like I've said, many wonder how do i survive day by day facing her and enduring her terrible mood swings. What do you expect, if others who are not under her who only gets to see her only once in the blue moon already cannot stand the sight of her, imagine my situation.

Speaking about double standard! She had mentioned what and how I should behaved as her assistant because whatever I will be projecting will reflect on her as my superior. So I was reminded to be mindful of what I was going to say, to react and so on..its like a protocol. (a stupid one!))

I just do not get her point. If we have a standard to adhere for certain levels in the management, why have i always been excluded in events that involved the management, most of it were the expensive offshore seminars, trainings and what have you which only the managers will have to attend? Am i not one of your managers? Then why do I have to undertake the managers' task but not being able to enjoy the perks and benefits of being one????

I was asked to discuss this matter to the boss. After been reminded that I was not been encouraged to say my views because that is not what AM should be doing, I will just have to shut my mouth.

I can only see to observe.

After conducting the orientation, I took half day Childcare Leave, used up all the 6 days for this year. I care less to save for rainy days. I will not be compensated for not using them, I'd rather use it now during our off peak period and enjoy the day without having to face that blardy superior.

Sorry for being too cranky and whiny :(((

#549

I guess we were not meant to be communicating with each other for the past weeks.
I could not put my thoughts on her chat box (there were always errors appearing on my pc) and even overlooked that she had left her comments on mine.

I didnt get to receive the news of her demise on the actual day, I just did not feel like logging on to the pc. Terrible headache came again and this time it caused my BP to hit the 169 mark. The medication made me weak and too drowsy to do anything.

Thank goodness, I was feeling better this morning and decided to browse through my facebook for updates. I was in disbelief reading Su's status that her dearest sis Sulas whom i've been connecting through our journals had passed away :(((

I am still very remorseful for not making much efforts to meet up when she was still around. I thought visiting her blog and FB is good enough to show what this friendship meant to all of us.

I had heard the sayings that "Allah S.W.T loves him/her more than anybody else when HE decided that its time for him/her to go".

She is in a better place than us. She's with the Creator. For someone who has always brought light to someone else's life with her gentle words of console, her warm love and sincere thoughts, she definitely deserves the best and that best has to come from HIM.

I think I have not said enough that I am so grateful to have met Su again after all these years. Reuniting with her is the start of a beautiful friendship with someone whom i may not get to know in any possible ways. Its a miracle how our paths had crossed.

Untuk Almarhummah Sulastri,
Kehadiranmu bagaikan bintang yg bersinar terang
Persahabatan tulusmu akan tetap ku kenang
Ketiaadanmu akan dirasai
Pergimu tiada ada yang ganti
Doaku semoga kau tenang disana
Kirimanku hanyalah redha, pasrah dan Al-Fateha.

Untuk Su sekeluarga,
Allah lebih menyayanginya lebih daripada kita kasihkan dia.
Ada hikmah disana buatnya, kebahagiaan abadi menantinya
Redhakanlah permergiaannya walaupun sukar untuk dipercaya
Agar rohnya tenang dan dicucuri rahmatNYA - Amin.

Salam Ikhlas,
Sahabatmu yg jauh dimata dekat dihati. Ana :(((

#548

How infuritating!
I am still feeling sore about what SM had said.
I guess its true after all that its meaningless to be frank...she'll use that to hit me back.

Urgh!

#547

Its been a busy & hectic week, nevertheless, I've enjoyed the time spent with my loved ones.
The short getaway to yet again KL and Melaka was great, our roadtrip even extended to Nilai...and yep we've made it to Genting Highlands by cable car. I drove from Pagoh to err..almost Ayer Keroh..thrilling at least for me, to exceed the 100km/hr...nevermind if i didnt get to drive around Kl, ..the GPS is not helping at all...

Ezzaty's schedule was filled with excursions - crocodile farm, Mini olf, picnic at EC and pizza hut kitchen tour. She barely had time for herself except for facebooking...im glad that her time is well spend, she made new friends and explore new things, something that she will not be able to attain in her school.

I was feeling all stressed up receiving email from the school at this such short notice that I have to bring my own lappie for the TAP! Why didnt they tell me earlier, i could not possibly bring my Macbook since the software to install requires Windows Vista or at least 2000.....Mac is not compatible at all for the QB software....oh dear!

Here I am trying to calm myself, while at the other end, been getting emails from J who keeps telling me that and this modules are difficult!!
Oh GOD! when will he stop...such a demoraliser..(is there such a word, but yeah, he's something like that)

Oh well, work is fine, im just going with the flow...it doesnt matter anymore who is right or wrong.

#546 -090609

It was a small family affair celebrating Ezzaty's 9th birthday.
We had to postpone celebrating it on Sunday because Edd was on afternoon shift after the wedding reception.
To avoid the rush, all of us agreed to do it on her birthday itself though it was a short one.

Earlier, Ezzaty participated the amazing race organized by the tuition centre. Her team didnt win, I was glad SM was not her facilitator....!

#545

Last week, Ed decided to make a pair of transistion though he has perfect eyesight as a bithday gift from me. He was impressed on how this glasses works.
He would want to wear it while at work and forgo the hassle of putting on shades
(he really look awkward initially)



Im really gonna sounds like a small girl getting her favourite lollipops!

Each time going to this optician, im tempted to make a pair of glasses.
But never did I want to check my eyesight because for once, i thought my degree will not change, even if it did, it'll be very slight.

oh well, I decided to check though my initial intention was to accompany Edd to make his. (actually ive already eyeing on one!)

The current one is almost 2 years (excuses) and also this optician is very good in "encouraging" me to change ( a fact)....he would display all the latest ones..and nice ones too...especially the range from Monalisa..urgh!

yep, my eyesights had improved significantly...the right one by 75 and the left one by 25....I thought it was due to the UV protection which i gotten from the transition, had asked a colleague who put on transition glasses as well if her eyesights had improved, hers unfortunately had increased. so my conclusion would be the Brand's Berry essence which I have been religiously taking....

i never thought it works wonder. So now i've got a valid reason to make a pair..

cool eh. my Monalisa glasses...

#544

I'm thinking to move on...but not sure when is the right time.
Yes, im tired of not being in a job longer.
Earning a degree to stick here is just out of the question....

#543

Its been a challenging week.
The kids are taking turns to fall ill, recuperate and recover.
The flu bug is working hard attacking all of us at home.

I've collected the text from K only to find its a different edition.
I went down again to the campus to purchase hoping not to meet J, and what do you know, he was there!
I pretended to be very pleased to see him and giving lame excuses for my presence.LOL!

Meetup with former mates from N-i-C was cancelled at the last minute, M's relative passed away.
I could not find any other day to squeeze in for our future date though i sounds excited. Class to start very and i've got other important stuff to settle before hitting back to the classroom.

what else...? oh yeah, im trying the supplements sold by S to boost my energy and memory capacity.
I hope the softgels work wonder!

#542

On and off I've been going to the campus to finalise the enrolment, purchase books,etc.
Im quite comfortable with the modules I had chosen. The consultant is very helpful on this.
In fact from the beginning of this whole thing, i've been very independent. im happy with the whole process until I got to know J, the very kiasu coursemate. He's been emphasizing on how difficult the next module that i will be taking and ask me to reconsider my choice and join him. I was thinking well, every module has its fair share of strenghts and weaknesses...thats what learning is all about....he's been saying that on few occasions till I had to tell him off. What he thought may not be all accurate in fact, the killer modules were in 4th & 5th trimster....what made him think CFA is the one...he is definitely clueless on this. ( tell me about it since he has never take up accounting before)

Eversince that episode, I try not discuss any school issue with him, agreeing with whatever he had to say and very firm with my decision at the same time. no point arguing, it'll get me to nowhere.
why would i change just because one Tom says so....whatever he says has no effect on me.

The four of us sent mak for her treatment today, was so relieved that her illness was not that serious. Was prescribed few dosaes of medicine and will have to follow up next month. I was thinking to seek treatment for my recurring flu and bad memory.

P/s: Thanks Sulas for your doa. I cant seem to update my chatbox with the constant brickerings between Ez & Az. sigh sigh sigh!

#541

I WAS supposed to consult doctor for medical certificate today.
Procrastinating, taking few naps here and there and bingo it was already 6!
I guess I had to take urgent leave as a substitute. But I still have not recovered from the ache.
The Sunday function was getting on me, my immunisation system is really low!

Received emails from the school for the remaining modules' results.
Alhamdulilah, I made it through. So Im heading straight to the 2nd year in June09.

I still have to go down to submit my order form for TAP modules. What a hassle!

Cant get to sleep, im taking painkiller to heal the ache!
Its normal for me to get flu every now and then but not at this time...people would shun me when i mentioned I had flu.
sigh!

#540

Finally, I manage to finalize the days for our short getaway. It'll be from 14/6 to 17/6/09. Thanks to the company function on 13 June, I had to waste the weekend just like that.

I could not get Ivy to reply with regards to her used textbooks for the technology process module. she must be busy revising for her exams.
I guess I have to purchase. Thankfully Kovy had assured to pass all his textbooks (for the similar modules we are taking) for me to choose. I may not be able to save on all but at least some of the modules' textbooks costs.

Collected the blossom cakes from Kak L, this time I was more confident to drive but of course the parking still my worst. No major hiccup except for one 'kind' motorist who refused to give way, horned at me instead. sigh!

This time Najmi & Twinny accompanied me. I was very careful and alert, I do not wish to harm my loved ones. In fact, I have always strived to be a safe driver just like what R had taught me, its only that at times, I have to go with the flow. It never hurt to be safety and cautious but not all motorists think likewise. I'm not gonna compromise with anything else. No matter how E had been mentioning that at times we cannot be so strict with rules, I TRY not to break it. Insya-Allah!

I'm waiting for Alia and family to arrive....its such a nice holiday mood to gather around your family members!

#539

Drove Ezz to the tuition centre aka my office. all by myself. (at last)
I insisted not to go by the highway. Reached earlier than I thought via the longer route. I was quite familiar with the neighbourhood, so going by not Eddris' way was much easier. (He refreshed so many times on how to go about via the expressway, that i was so sure im not going through there...just hate the heavy traffic).

Alhamdulilah. reached the centre safe and sound and early, in fact we managed to get Ezz her favourite iceblended strawberry drink. Its too humid and hot that we cant resist cold drink at this time of the day..it was only 9am!

When comes to parking...yeah, terrible but manageable.
Since its the weekend, the MCP is free so i didnt think twice about parking the car there. Dont feel quite right about parking at the reserved season lots, so aftrer consulting F, I drove up to the 3rd level...haha..
i was so relieved instantly after done that, not having to worry about being fined..LOL!

Will be here till 1130am...i was not thinking about office matter...all can wait till monday!! yup yuo yup!

#538

In the office right now.
Enjoying my ice blended moccha oreo flavour while waiting for Ezz's lesson.
Thought of settling some office task but i was far ahead of the deadline. so whats the rush. I'll settle them next week..yup!!

Im done and over with the re-enrolment.
Everything is settled. All I have to do is to focus and excel.
Results will be reflected on my transcript. Im aiming for the best, its possible but its not easy. Modules are getting tougher...

Some of the books, I've decided to purchase used ones from I.
She'll be completing her degree soon.
Thank Allah, I get to know her during the bridging. I'll need her help on some matters.

As for now I shall enjoy my long break...i'll be hitting the books from 27 June.
Aiya! I've to reschedule our family getaway...AGAIN.

#537

Its been awhile. The month long break is over too soon. Back to school on the 2nd April and was over with the IT paper on last wednesday, which was a disappointment. My mind was totally blank during exams...have never encountered such thing before. I got mixed up with the terms, definitions, even the characteristics. To think i had spent 2 days revising, not to mention to fall ill because of all the memorisings...just not worth it. oh well, it shows how i was not into IT except for stuff like facebook, blogspot..etcs...or else IT is just not my subject. hope i manage to pass just like i did for econs.

Its April already and soon in 4 months to come, the external audit is here. oh well, i hope i dont to have to face it.LOL!
Thanks to FB, reunited with my gangs from NIC..we were planning to meet up, but not sure when since M is away now in states. she's enjoying life..can see from all the photos she posted...she's practically travelling.

Speaking of travelling, i have to put on hold all plans for holidays far far away...yep, as for now, we could only plan to go to the neighbouring countries...err..country which is malaysia..LOL!
not till ive completed my study which had used up most of our funds...both me and edd. who wouldnt want to see the world?? Patience pays, i hope.

I finally had the courage to drive without Edd. On Good Friday, drove to sembawang with twinny and safely back home,not without funny incidents. Drove with both the aircons on and the rear windows were down..no wonder the sounds of other vehicles were so clear and both of us were complaining that the aircon wasnt working..and I drove many miles longer just because I didnt like to change lane! ....LOL!!

#536

I dont like the new FB format.
It didnt keep me posted on friends' updates like it used to.
So many things shunned me...like i only realise that an ex-colleague had deleted me from her list.
both me and A....her former friends @ work. we cant find the reason for her action....well, be it.

received a shocking news that a colleague from the other centre was terminated.
im saddened to learn of her desperation. its sad she had to sought this way.
i really hope she can handle the situation well..what with her troubled domestic affairs.

completed 2 internal audits..leaving one for the coming Monday.
Deadlines was met on time...im glad.

I passed the dreaded econs paper...im surprised but deligted.
did quite well for the company law, scored high distinction.
2 more modules in April. 2nd year semester to commerce in May09.

Will not be jogging this Sat. Ezzaty will be perfoming...im giving her my moral support.
she'll be the narrator for the puppet show...im thrill to watch it.

#535

Many friends @ work would critise me if I were to update my status in FB as " bla bla is feeling less tenseful w/o boss and colleague around". So I kept mum about me being alone in the office instead highlighting to the world across that Im " trying my best to meet the dateline earlier than scheduled" which I honestly trying..oh well, multi-tasking as usual as well here.

The aches from the race are slowly going away not w/o consulting the doctor. I was given a day mc with another one KIV in case im not getting better. Im getting weaker, easily get tired...i guess I have to take things easy.

Im enjoying the 3 weeks long break from studies. Time are spent with the family more than for myself these days. I seldom watch TV, read books or even magazines which used to be my favourite pastimes. Other than logging into the lappie to update FB or Blogspot, time seems to pass so fast that after a while, its time to sleep for a new day.

I was quite mad to find out that the previous learning centre which i took the FM diploma offers a similar degree course. If it had came out with this new programme earlier, I would not have switch to the current centre and save $4K altogether! On a better note, I am quite doubtful about the awarding Uni..never heard of it before though it's from Australia and the modules are the same except that it does not offer minor, only major.

#534

Oh yes, our Vios had an interior facelift. I ordered coverseats online and 4 days later, L came down to deliver and install....
hmm....im happy with my choice. :-)

Now looking into accessories...too bad the coverseats didnt come with the matching seatbelts pads, wheel cover and neckrest...

here's the new look..



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14/03/09- We Won
Its amazing how we could have won the A-m-a-z-i-n-g R.a.c.e yesterday.
Being the indoor type, I participated because I had to and not so much to win but one thing for sure I have to try my best.
In fact everyone in the team was surprised to be the first to reach the last station. Good work!! Hard work came in with very hard pains and aches all over. urghhh.....

#533

Its been more than a week...hmmm...hello!

Im still in the office, multi-tasking obviously.
Boss will be on long leave next week, so she wants some of the stuff to be done earlier - much earlier than scheduled...
shall not complain...HAVE to see it in the positive way....
i'll just need to switch certain tasks.....executing the important ones first.

Its been a week since the day i could drive legally.
On Sat I drove from Tampines to home after the tahlil and on Sun drove from home to woodlands and back....both with Eddris next to me..so far so good, the only setback is and still I HATE to change lane and please fellow motorists
"Cant u see my P plate?"..Be patient and stop horning...aiyah!!"

Mak still does not allow me to drive without supervision..at least for these few months.

#532

In a week, I didnt expect lots of things to happen, what more the bad ones.

On 27/2/09, I started on the Econs tutorial only to find the lecturer sucked big time. I endured 14 hours of lecture, only to be disappointed by the minutes of his nonsensical preaches. Nothing valuable got into my head, what a waste of time!!
I dont feel good about this paper unlike the previous 4 -I could hardly know how and where to start to study!

Celebrated Najmi's 3rd bithday on 28/02/09. Had ordered a 1kg Laugh A Lot Carebear cake, bought pizzas and some snacks for the family mini celebration. I have not bought him yet what I thought I would....this weeked maybe, sorry dear, Ibu is so busy, hope u dont mind the belated gift. Somehow he received gifts from Nenek, Ummi, Ayi & bibik with that kinda of expression "uhh...ohh...thank you" no surprise look either....kids will always be kids...too young to understand the meaning of appreciation.

Come to the saddest news...on 27 Feb, I decided to apply for urgent leave to visit a very ill aunt in CGH. I thought why dont i visited her now, instead of Sunday, I dont feel like working since all the urgency @ work had been resolved. Told Mak that I could not wait till Sunday to see this aunt, she's been in the hospital for almost 2 weeks, why wait any longer. I was so relieved to see her so cheerful and healthy, she didnt look at all like what i heard from others. Deep inside, I was so glad that she was all so well despite the complications she had faced earlier, better still she was waiting for the children to pick her up. she was officially discharged on 27/02/09 after on antibiotic drip for a week.

You could sensed her high spirit as she went around the ward, saying her goodbye to her other mates, consoling them that soon it'll be their turns.

While waiting for my cousin from the pharmacy, I took the chance to give her some token, after much hesitation, she finally accepted it (very rare, often she'll reject) and was asking me if there was anything that I would like her to pray for. Told her she already did for me for so many occasions and even told her that I passed my TP. (she was the one who always pressured me to take up driving)

Told me jokingly, since I had passed, then its time for her to buy a Mercedez for me, reminded her to think twice of what she wished for cos I might want her to do just that. She smiled sheepishly and then looked down as if in her deepest thought. She was not interested either on what shoes to choose when my cousin was eagerly looking out one for her. Her mind was still on her daughter in law, she was deeply hurt by her actions. She was full of worries. As we departed, Im not sure what came over me, i kissed her hand but something was stopping me from hugging her, as if I will GET to do that some other time......

Eversince that day, there will be no other time.
I was glad to follow my heart not to wait for sunday....
On 1st March, while I was in class, cousin N called to inform she had left us all.
In moment of disbelief, I left class immediately.

She was admitted to A & E after emergency aids from the paramadic failed.
A post mortem autopsy was scheduled since her departure was a sudden one and the cause of her death had no relation to what she had been diagnosed. It shocked us all terribly.

And I was so mad that I had followed what my heart said that I cant describe how remorseful I was...
I will never see and hug her alive again.

This is the 2nd time. 1st time I failed to visit my first aunt when she was dying and now, I didnt manage to hug my 2nd aunt when she was there alive infront of me simply i THOUGHT i'll see her again :(

I gave my last respect yesterday for the burial ceremony...I've decided not to kiss her for the last time cos I was so painfully sad not doing so when I saw her 2 days ago. I hate myself for that!! Im living life full of regrets now.

She will always stay in our hearts as someone so cheerful, happy and strong-willed.
Mak had lost her soulmate, the one she confided in.

Her nephews and nieces had lost a great aunt with the biggest and warmest heart.

I lost both an aunt and a mom altogether.
Seriously, though I was hurt by her actions sometimes ago, I know it was of no fault of hers. She was a victim of the circumstances then. I had forgiven her long time ago though I may not had said it out right.

Rest in Peace Obek.
May your soul be placed amongst the righteous.
May Allah bless you. Ameen.

#531

Today is my lucky day and the heavy downpour brought blessing for my traffic police test @ 250pm.
I made it and got my license. After 5 months of sweats, anxiety and kanchiongness, my efforts finally paid off.
This time people @ work except for Lynn were not aware and so i guess it gave me less pressure.
Shoud have done that on the first attempt but never mind, importantly im officially done and over with this burden.

I can be legally behind the wheels as from today.
SMSed all those who had gave their support, encouragement and doa....ALHAMDULILAH!!

Gave Rohani and Ani a treat...both came all the way to give me moral support for the 2 attempts...i didnt disappoint them this time. Hubby and Mak didnt believe that I've made it...had to tell them twice.LOL!!

Im so glad its O-V-E-R!!

#530

Yesterday, I left for my revision 20 minutes earlier cos I didnt want to be late for the POA paper. The journey took almost 11/2 hr! Yeah, u can say i rugi 20 minutes of expensive lesson but never mind.

POA paper was manageable, though I skipped few theory questions. Wrote what I knew, not so much what I had learnt by hard. Left the hall an hour earlier cos I've completed all 4 questions. sitting there to pass time will only make matter worse. I will be so itching to make adjustment.

I've switched places again with A. He gets irritated everytime i need to take the files from the cupboard behind....but this time i kinda like my place.
so far what I like about my job is my workstation...small yet cosy!

I hope we are not affected by the economic crisis.
2 of my former colleagues were retrenched on Tuesday morning. I was both shocked and saddened by the news. Cos one of them was just promoted last year. Both had served the company for more than 10 years.

But funny thing, one colleague was saddened that she was not one of those being asked to leave. reason being, her best friend had to go, so it would be good to leave the place together plus the package of golden handshake this time is much better than the previous execise which took place almost 5 years ago.

sigh!...she should not think this way...
maybe she does not have that MUCH commitment that she prefers to be jobless with the package that im not sure how long it can lasts.........

I'd rather be employed cos u never know when u will get your first paycheck.
U may not be getting close to what u r getting now....
everyone is tightening their belts...same goes to companies, they will hire for the lowest for highest productivity.

529

Im done with 2 papers,one almst n 2 on d way.by early march,i can take things easy n life will not b dis hectic. Raz has safely delivered her twinnies on Thursday, bg d elder via normal delivery n d younger by emergency c-sect. Age gap was by 2 hours! I can imagine d pain Raz had endured. She's one strong mummy. Congrats also 2 another former csps mate,DZAR who delivered her precious princess recently after almst 9 yrs of wait. Miracle do happen and yes good things happen 2 those who never gives up and 2 those who r willing 2 wait. I've asked a small favour fm Raz to pray 4 my success. I desperately want 2 make it this time. Ameen!

#528

Not sure if I ever deserved to be laughed at when all I need is support.
Maybe I have erred in the past, hurt others' feelings unknowingly that when I was in my lowest, all I get was to be sneered at.
sigh....that's so cruel.

I was thinking if all these did not happen, I wouldn't see the true colours of those so called friends.

Gotten my POM result, did well enough to earn distinction. Alhamdulilah.
Attended statistic class, boy! It was so rush and very draining. Will be sitting for the exam paper on this coming wednesday,
Oh yes, I've decided to apply half day leaves on every wednesday for I have to sit for exam for the next 3 consecutive weeks.

February shall be a much tougher and tiring month to pass through.
I hope Allah will give me the much needed strength, patience and highest level of endurance to help me pull through this challeging period.

oh yes! All the stuff for people at Ached are almost here, waiting for the right time to deliver to Mr RS. Thanks to those who had contributed....Allah Bless u all!

#527

i heed lyn's advice n kept mum bt my next date. I was already so disappointed in myself,yet Sm had 2 rub on my wound! I was so right not 2 let it out initially but was deceived by d so called support.i've realised who r my true friends.blessing in disguise indeed.

#526 - some pictures to cheer me up

Photos of my youngest niece, Nadye on CNY.
Isnt she adorable? and that cheeks...oooh..feel like pinching them.
And not forgetting some acts captured pose by bro Naj...cycling happily in the kitchen!

We didnt get to go out much during the long stretch of holidays.
Edd was working on alternate shifts and I am still not legally able to move the wheels...not yet but soon, I assure.
Went to Mustaffa Centre on 1st dy of CNY to purhase recorder for our Tilawah Class.
2nd CNY-a family outing to Geylang, had our lunch at Galaxy cafe....hmmm.....
i wont go there again. not bad for the price but not to what we expected. i'd rather go to Adam road and eat the nasi lemak...

On a better note, I've completed the Iqra lessons, promoted to Tilawah one...will be getting our cert on the graduation ceremony soon. yep!

#525

It was traumatising!....
cant breathe, cant think straight and im totally out of control. started off bad and ended bad as well....

it'll take quite sometimes to be composed once again, i know.
im consoling myself...i cant be supertitious....

i just have to be strong, be calm and never give up!!!
yeah!! Go Ana....u r not a loser!

524

im getting nervous.tried not 2 think so much but cant help it.i guess many wld agree with me that TP test is more nerve wrecking than any written tests. In fact,my weekly tests 4 d 7 modules is much easier 2 pass through than this. Oh well,i just have 2 pray 4 göod weather n good tester who is on good mood. Im typing this via my nokia n85. Advance technology indeed! Updating my blog n facebook is a breeze.

#523

Im having 2 weeks break from lessons, lectures, classes...a good break, sure to enjoy the CNY but im dreading 29 JAN..
at the same time cant wait to get it done and over with....yeah, im having cold feets.

Since Friday, sis Alia and family slept over and the presence of my niece and nephew brought the house down.
Every other hour, I would hear screams, wailings and fights! They had left hours ago, now i missing those chaotic moments....!
Kids sure make a whole lot of difference in your life...

Thanks Alia, we had an advance mini birthday bash for me and Ani...She & Mun travelled to NP to get us a yummy chocolate cake and pies!

Its so different compared to last year, when Ani wasnt here to be with us....this year is much better!

I've got a handphone (my dream phone, must take care - cos i've lost N5310 twice but lucky to get it returned!..)...
and a hobo bag (I really like the design) from Ed!

Thanks so much everyone!
As much as i dreaded to get a year older, i definitely look forward to all these surprises!
muka tak tau malu....!

#522

1st module started and ended well. In fact, after 3 sessions of lecture, i will be sitting for the exam today @ 7pm.
I thought I will not be able to enjoy the module because this isnt the first time I study POM. In fact, barely a year ago, I've completed the module for the diploma programme.

The lecturer had done his job well by imparting tacit knowlege which cannot be found in any textbook. Most of the time, he would ask me if i felt left out mainly his jokes were in hokkien and mandarin...Told him its fine with me....in fact i understand some of it...dont even need a translator...he insisted me asking my other coursemates...which is so unnecessary...funny guy!

At times, i could sense he stop himself from making racist jokes because I was there....Im grateful for that.

I get to know the others, I was not the only one who ever took POM, in fact more than 5.
E & A are very approachable, we exchanged numbers and will definitely meet again for the other modules, POA, Econ & stats.

Im certainly the only one married with kids.
Most of them are graduates from the poly and majority are young chaps below 25! for this, i should be feeling so out of place...

#521

Najmi isnt well today, and was awarded mc. so I'm at home on child sick leave.
I'm starting school today, so leaving from home will not get me so tense...I will have ample time to board the train and reach the campus on time....

Alhamdulilah, due to no class on the CNY week, the week, Im sitting for TP will not be so packed.
Allah S.W.T definitely has better plan for me....my worries are unfounded.

Our 1st gathering of EX-PHS malay students on 28 Dec 2008 was a success, and so we are planning for a 2nd one in March..yippe!!

Thanks to FB, we are reunited for good, im sure this bonding will last till the end of time..with the help of technology, getting connected is a breeze via sms, email...etc!

And Im so amazed seeing former mates getting their degree and master on top of their career and family...
get me all geared up to complete this programme.....that's why im looking forward to the start of this lesson...not that Im the studious type but I wanna get it done and over with soonest possible..before Najmi starts his P1!

I think I'll be the last one to complete since my peers are in the mid of their final year....well, better be late than never!

#520 - SR (perempuan gila di FB)

Funny how it could end this way..

Having a account with F-A-C-e book enables you to reconnect with lost friends, make new ones and keeping touch with current ones. It does not seem to happen likewise to Eddris...

His once shorterm gf-during his secondary days found him and boy! was she so excited.

She sent personal messages twice (hows marriage, where r u working, hows life) but was not reciprocated, simply both of us did not log in to that account for quite sometimes. and went on giving preaches that being a muslim, one should not break the ties and gave her mobile number to be contacted...

Thinking that Eddris rejected to add her in his friend list, she complained to our mutual friend and that friend ask the darn question of "why are u not acknowledging her" on the wall post..(for the whole world to read)!

Adding her finally...she made repeated comments on Eddris physical changes which any sane human would not want to respond. What is there to say...yeah, he's expanded almost twice since the last time you guys met...so?

And her madness went overboard, updating her status calling us stone age people and ya know what, another asshole from their batch even mentioned "pity 2 their partner to have such thinking" - whatever they tried to put it, I have guessed as much she was frustrated that Eddris decided not wanting 2 know anything more about her - be it the past, present or future.

Well, it boils down to her eagerness to share her success - being a financial controller, drives 2 cars and raised wonderful angels who excel in sport, bla bla bla.....hoping by passing all those comments, she would want people to ask back "hows things wih you,.and so it will break the ice to her life story especially when the schoolmates have not met for 17 years....

and i thought when finally eddris updated his status - "thanks all for the comments posted, its the truth and that's why i have nothing to say" would answer her doubts....she went on to remark - thats not the Eddris we knew!
and guess what, she was even mad when I told her that my husband prefers not to say anything...- updated her status "SR does not understand why facebook user need a secretary"! such a b***tch!

cant she accept that people move on and change for the better...
and that the person she used to know is not the same person he is now....
and he does not want to recall all those memories and let alone to be your friend again.....u r just not one of his friends he wants to keep....

and so to stop all the unnecessary uhappiness being a facebook user - we decided to block her, her best friend (another b**tch who shows off her ability to use ambigous words) and an a%&hole who has nothing better to do but goes around gossiping - and he's a man, for goodness!

peace at last - what a way to end 2008!
meeting up with pyscho in less than 10 days...yes, that was how short they became facebook pal...!

2wards the end of 2008

random pics taken during the holiday....

#518

Im looking forward to 2009.
Moving on to a better tomorrow since confirmed plans have already been lined up for the first half of 2009.

Jan - It will be a busier year since im resuming studies on the 8th and of course, my TP test.
I'll have to reorganise my schedule - no more religion class on weekend for the time being.
I have to start looking for one in the evening....any day except for Monday and Thursday.

Mar - The household will be getting a new domestic helper since yati will be going back to her homeland - its been 2 years already and neither of us wants to prolong this contract. I hope we will be getting if not better, at least someone like her. Thank Allah, Im free for the whole Mar, I'll help Mak since the new helper would be generally new about everything concerning the chores.

May - End of year 1, i'll be proceeding to year 2 & 3 of the bachelor programme for 12 more modules.

Now, I hope I will have time to sew..the curtains!!


Oh yes, Kak N get on to my nerves yet again.
Must she said those things?
Obviously someone is the type who gloats over ones' misfortunes....#@$%!

#517

On leave today to meet up with the consultant.
Yup! Im starting my bachelor course in Jan08, exactly a month from today.
I've decided to major in professional accounting instead of finance. closer to what im doing right now.

It shall be a packed and busy January for me, lessons every thurs, sat & sun and test practically every week.
The good news is I will be totally free for the whole month of March...great, can plan for short trip with the family.

Alhamdulilah, my iqra class will not be affected, at least for Jan to April09.

#516

I have no mood to work.
Looking forward to a laidback weekend.

Im helping Mak with the Eid's mini celebration by baking banana cake right after morning lesson tomorrow....another day around AMK.

Im glad i dont have the cold feet behind the wheels...
BUT I've yet to overcome the fear of heavy traffic flow..ai!

#515

I've completed all 30 lessons last friday. Next week onwards will be revisions and revisions till the test date.
Not indicating here when will be the date cos it will add more pressure to my already pressured self...hah!

I've improved by 50% on my last assessment, will try to minimise on unnecessary mistakes and perform my best, AMeen!

AR spent most of the time brushing up on my vertical parking which was not taught earlier by him...what to do, i could not get his slot then! My parallel parking was better, obviously cos he taught me, that's what i told him....tengoklah saper yg ajar! and ya know wat he said...tak nak takabur lah...hahah!

During the 2 slots = 4 hours of driving, we talked anything under the sun from health issue to the group TOTO....
He was trying to recall on the tune 'I'll be over you" when I hit the curb...hahaahha!!

I've baked the cookies which I I had promised AA...
I shall bring the 2 containers of cookies tomorrow to office....mission accomplised!

#514

Had my teeth polished and filled and was told that I brushed my teeth too hard and way too much - 5 times a day.
Twice a day should suffice. No brushing after meals....floss and mouthwash are good enough.

I guess I'm too particular about my smile that brushing with so much strength was a norm.
Time to change that method and habit before it will be way too late.

Had my mock test yesterday.
My assessment on driving was far from good.
Revision time this coming Friday. Hope AR is well, he cant walk properly due to his ghout.SIGH!

#513

I thought so that I have more leave days and sure enough SM made a mistake.
I braced myself up to ask her if I was entitled half of the year leaves due to my half year probation.
She said no but i guess she was feeling uneasy - unsure of the HRM policy, she asked the big boss and whaddaya know!
I received her sms just then, her apology and the numbers of leaves I have to clear before 2009....

Now, I've got leaves to take up the weekdays slots but AR is not available..SIGH!

#512

Currently enjoying my friday working phase, no boss to boss me around and partner on leave, its heaven!!

Im listening to my favourite songs while updating the financial statement, its definitely a breeze.

The PSLE result proves that not being in the secular stream, does not mean u cannot excel.

Way to go Al-IRsyad!!
Im sure in years to come, more good results..AMEEN!

I've promised AA that I'll be baking chocolate cookies for him for Raya Haji...
kesian gitu tgk dia......

#511

Got the same instructor for vertical parking lesson today. Yeah,it was not that tense.
It was not that hard but not that easy either.
Need lots of practice before the test date. He reassured me that sufficient assistance will be rendered in time to come, Thank Allah.

Saw a glance of my fixed instructor AR while I was driving around the bend. Not sure if he saw me. While waiting at the training center, i saw his car, it was stationary but no glimpse of him yet. His other fixed trainee got I'm faster than me. sigh!

I've got the rest of the month and the whole of DEC to be his fixed trainee.
So going for 2-3 lessons under other instructors should be okay though I must admit I feel quite uneasy driving with someone else.

#510

SILLY MISTAKES ALL THE TIME!!
WHEN WILL I LEARN MY LESSON!!! URGH!

I was assessed for the stage 2 before proceeding to the next stage....
BOLEH TAHAN TERUKNYA!!!

My fixed instructor will KILL me if he knew of those things i did...
he's been reminding me over and over again....ALLAH!!
camne boleh tak ingat nie!!

Felt like banging my head against the wall. period.

#509

I'm getting weaker. Not even a week of recovery, I'm down with the flu bug again.
Cough is getting irritatingly bad,I'm so worried about tomorrow practical lessons... 6 hours mind you. Imagine with the coughing, sneezing and nose blowing,how to concentrate on the road?

I don't understand the way i did the booking, why then I didn't book for 2 slots in a day instead of one for each day? What was I thinking of? urgh!!

And the online booking system has been down since morning!! damn it.

#508

Its friday and for the first time i shall exclaimed "SO SOON"!
why not, with 2 days mc, the weekdays are shorter..yippee!

Weekends shall be packed with pratical lessons in the 2 mornings, afternoon class, visiting after that and a wedding on Sunday.
and yeah, hubby's family day organised by the workplace....hmmm...hope we can make it.

Things have been doing well but still i have not given up hope and effort for a change (yet again, i know)

Emloyment market will hit its lowest with the recent recession but im not taking that as an excuse to be complacent with my current employment, im not afraid to move on again...till i find one with the job satisfactory.

Im not sure where i will be in one year's time....its still too early to say but not too soon to figure it out.

sigh!...im still waiting for the application status from Murdoch....why cant it be sooner?

#507

Do I enjoy the leadership programme?
Yes, I had fun (except for one silly incident) but nope it was not beneficial for me.
I'd rather spend the 2 days baking, sewing and doing things with my children.
I get the message conveyed - to be an effective leader, to share the common values with subordinate, bla bla bla.....i could literally spill it out, since it was said numerous times already.

p/s: I get to make friends from the other centres and those who i had already known- i understand them better - that's the consolation.

Im looking forward to practical lesson tomorrow morning.
Fortunate to get a slot after giving up the weekends ones for the training.
Im so glad AR will be on duty. save the trouble of going through another introduction.

hmm....no government today, boss on MC....tell me about staying healty.

#506

I had fried rice and hot Milo for lunch just then.
Now Im feeling SUPER sleepy in front of the PC.
My eyes are just too comfy to shut.

Not much stuff to clear, month end rush had passed quite smoothly this time, faster than norm. Alhamdulilah.

I'm not looking forward to the weekend this time. Had to atttend 2 days (there goes my weekeds) workshop in the East. Im so not into this. Others would find joy in such game-gather-fun thingy. Im just the homely type....

Facebook has been a great help connecting me with long lost friends.
Becoming friends to those whom I have not get the chance to do so during those years.
I had fun looking through old pictures uploaded by dear friends.
Oh, Im so into FB nowadays....

YEs, I met by chance a friend from primary school. Was talking about him
in FB with his sis, and whaddaya, he was there when I visited a colleague's mum. how timely! sure hope he will sign up in FB soon....

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Im so determined to complete practical lessons by Dec, therefore I will be attending lessons twice a week, and even thrice on some week..The longer i drag the slots, the further would be the test date. Been logging into the website like madcow...Manage to book for my instructor for most lessons.

heart pain seeing the transaction history...have paid so much!

oh yeah, I've forgotten to ask about my instructor's health, if he is suffering from any heart problem.

I've booked for him for more than 15 lessons...i dont wish to see him having heart attack while guiding me for that many lessons hhehehehh!

Must be very focus. It's frustrating to repeat same mistakes over and over again..darn!

#505

well hello!

im just too lazy to update, what with the lessons slots, been logging to the website, cancelling and rebooking...sigh!
im really behind time...

I had the same instructor today, it's been 2 weeks and im glad he still remembers me.
funny how, i could drive better with him next to me compare when i was with my fixed instructor AR..
maybe i was not being nagged to the max.

So far, alhamdulilah, all instructors are awesome....ya know what, im beginning to look forward to attend lessons!

#504

Im doing my best to give my best during lesson.
I've always been a little slower in catching up, Im not those lucky chaps.
I've always learnt through the hard way. Things dont come easy and most of the time not cheap.

I've been concerned about my eyesight especially at night, what more now, I have practical lesson to be held at 8pm onwards.
So I didnt think twice on purchasing another pair of glasses for the purpose....

I hope my effort pays off...pal R had gotten her licence, Im so determined to complete my lessons fast...

#503

I've checked through the list of booking and cancellation of lessons, only to realise that I've wasted few slots simply due to my oversight. what a bummer!
As a result, I had to book one night session in order to complete the required sessions before I am able to book for the test date. Thank Goodness, it is my instructor's shift. I have the confidence to drive at night since he will be the one coaching me.

Received a mail from a headhunter, the positions listed are simply irresistible.
Lets not be too hopeful. But i do pray to be called up and try my luck.

Its that time of the year when we have to be prudent on our spendings....hopefully it will not be as bad as it was 10 years ago. Especially now that I have a family of my own, 2 growing kids and a course pending for a huge sum to kick off.

Lets not think so much on this....it's making me all so weak and helpless.

#502

End of stage 1. Proceeding to stage 2 from next week onwards.
Im grateful to have been matched so far with friendly and patient instructors.
Im determined to get my licence before my PDL expires again!!!!

I tried if possible to fix an instructor but due to his alternate shift, I was not able to. I find him to be meticulous and he is willing to impart as much knowledge and shares his own experiences to boost my confidence. He said that Im the timid type..well yeah quite true.

I made an abrupt brake while driving (Im fond of this, urgh) and lost my mobile. (my handbag fell and everything poured out). No confirmation if I had left it underneath the backseat and so had to terminate my line temporarily, in case it was elsewhere adn someone took the chance to make long distance call.

This is my 1st time to have lost my phone in 8 years. and here I am thinking which Nokia model to purchase.....

#501

Its been ages. Can you feel the dust covering this blog of mine....
been away for so long, i ran out of idea what to blog about.
Anyway, Selamat Aidilfitri to all Muslims out there.
Here's a peek of the 1st day of Eid.

#500

So far driving lessons have been good.
Im grateful that the assigned instructors were kind souls.
I pray all the good ones will be the one teaching me till I pass.
I hope I pick up fast. Must focus and be alert ALWAYS.

Last week I was already practising on the road. Kinda fast. it was only my 2nd lesson.
I guess my previous 10 lessons with the private instructor did not go wasted.

I really want to pass before my pdl expires in March.
Another lesson tomorrow, oh Allah, im having the jitter again.