#526 - some pictures to cheer me up

Photos of my youngest niece, Nadye on CNY.
Isnt she adorable? and that cheeks...oooh..feel like pinching them.
And not forgetting some acts captured pose by bro Naj...cycling happily in the kitchen!

We didnt get to go out much during the long stretch of holidays.
Edd was working on alternate shifts and I am still not legally able to move the wheels...not yet but soon, I assure.
Went to Mustaffa Centre on 1st dy of CNY to purhase recorder for our Tilawah Class.
2nd CNY-a family outing to Geylang, had our lunch at Galaxy cafe....hmmm.....
i wont go there again. not bad for the price but not to what we expected. i'd rather go to Adam road and eat the nasi lemak...

On a better note, I've completed the Iqra lessons, promoted to Tilawah one...will be getting our cert on the graduation ceremony soon. yep!

#525

It was traumatising!....
cant breathe, cant think straight and im totally out of control. started off bad and ended bad as well....

it'll take quite sometimes to be composed once again, i know.
im consoling myself...i cant be supertitious....

i just have to be strong, be calm and never give up!!!
yeah!! Go Ana....u r not a loser!

524

im getting nervous.tried not 2 think so much but cant help it.i guess many wld agree with me that TP test is more nerve wrecking than any written tests. In fact,my weekly tests 4 d 7 modules is much easier 2 pass through than this. Oh well,i just have 2 pray 4 göod weather n good tester who is on good mood. Im typing this via my nokia n85. Advance technology indeed! Updating my blog n facebook is a breeze.

#523

Im having 2 weeks break from lessons, lectures, classes...a good break, sure to enjoy the CNY but im dreading 29 JAN..
at the same time cant wait to get it done and over with....yeah, im having cold feets.

Since Friday, sis Alia and family slept over and the presence of my niece and nephew brought the house down.
Every other hour, I would hear screams, wailings and fights! They had left hours ago, now i missing those chaotic moments....!
Kids sure make a whole lot of difference in your life...

Thanks Alia, we had an advance mini birthday bash for me and Ani...She & Mun travelled to NP to get us a yummy chocolate cake and pies!

Its so different compared to last year, when Ani wasnt here to be with us....this year is much better!

I've got a handphone (my dream phone, must take care - cos i've lost N5310 twice but lucky to get it returned!..)...
and a hobo bag (I really like the design) from Ed!

Thanks so much everyone!
As much as i dreaded to get a year older, i definitely look forward to all these surprises!
muka tak tau malu....!

#522

1st module started and ended well. In fact, after 3 sessions of lecture, i will be sitting for the exam today @ 7pm.
I thought I will not be able to enjoy the module because this isnt the first time I study POM. In fact, barely a year ago, I've completed the module for the diploma programme.

The lecturer had done his job well by imparting tacit knowlege which cannot be found in any textbook. Most of the time, he would ask me if i felt left out mainly his jokes were in hokkien and mandarin...Told him its fine with me....in fact i understand some of it...dont even need a translator...he insisted me asking my other coursemates...which is so unnecessary...funny guy!

At times, i could sense he stop himself from making racist jokes because I was there....Im grateful for that.

I get to know the others, I was not the only one who ever took POM, in fact more than 5.
E & A are very approachable, we exchanged numbers and will definitely meet again for the other modules, POA, Econ & stats.

Im certainly the only one married with kids.
Most of them are graduates from the poly and majority are young chaps below 25! for this, i should be feeling so out of place...

#521

Najmi isnt well today, and was awarded mc. so I'm at home on child sick leave.
I'm starting school today, so leaving from home will not get me so tense...I will have ample time to board the train and reach the campus on time....

Alhamdulilah, due to no class on the CNY week, the week, Im sitting for TP will not be so packed.
Allah S.W.T definitely has better plan for me....my worries are unfounded.

Our 1st gathering of EX-PHS malay students on 28 Dec 2008 was a success, and so we are planning for a 2nd one in March..yippe!!

Thanks to FB, we are reunited for good, im sure this bonding will last till the end of time..with the help of technology, getting connected is a breeze via sms, email...etc!

And Im so amazed seeing former mates getting their degree and master on top of their career and family...
get me all geared up to complete this programme.....that's why im looking forward to the start of this lesson...not that Im the studious type but I wanna get it done and over with soonest possible..before Najmi starts his P1!

I think I'll be the last one to complete since my peers are in the mid of their final year....well, better be late than never!

#520 - SR (perempuan gila di FB)

Funny how it could end this way..

Having a account with F-A-C-e book enables you to reconnect with lost friends, make new ones and keeping touch with current ones. It does not seem to happen likewise to Eddris...

His once shorterm gf-during his secondary days found him and boy! was she so excited.

She sent personal messages twice (hows marriage, where r u working, hows life) but was not reciprocated, simply both of us did not log in to that account for quite sometimes. and went on giving preaches that being a muslim, one should not break the ties and gave her mobile number to be contacted...

Thinking that Eddris rejected to add her in his friend list, she complained to our mutual friend and that friend ask the darn question of "why are u not acknowledging her" on the wall post..(for the whole world to read)!

Adding her finally...she made repeated comments on Eddris physical changes which any sane human would not want to respond. What is there to say...yeah, he's expanded almost twice since the last time you guys met...so?

And her madness went overboard, updating her status calling us stone age people and ya know what, another asshole from their batch even mentioned "pity 2 their partner to have such thinking" - whatever they tried to put it, I have guessed as much she was frustrated that Eddris decided not wanting 2 know anything more about her - be it the past, present or future.

Well, it boils down to her eagerness to share her success - being a financial controller, drives 2 cars and raised wonderful angels who excel in sport, bla bla bla.....hoping by passing all those comments, she would want people to ask back "hows things wih you,.and so it will break the ice to her life story especially when the schoolmates have not met for 17 years....

and i thought when finally eddris updated his status - "thanks all for the comments posted, its the truth and that's why i have nothing to say" would answer her doubts....she went on to remark - thats not the Eddris we knew!
and guess what, she was even mad when I told her that my husband prefers not to say anything...- updated her status "SR does not understand why facebook user need a secretary"! such a b***tch!

cant she accept that people move on and change for the better...
and that the person she used to know is not the same person he is now....
and he does not want to recall all those memories and let alone to be your friend again.....u r just not one of his friends he wants to keep....

and so to stop all the unnecessary uhappiness being a facebook user - we decided to block her, her best friend (another b**tch who shows off her ability to use ambigous words) and an a%&hole who has nothing better to do but goes around gossiping - and he's a man, for goodness!

peace at last - what a way to end 2008!
meeting up with pyscho in less than 10 days...yes, that was how short they became facebook pal...!

2wards the end of 2008

random pics taken during the holiday....

#518

Im looking forward to 2009.
Moving on to a better tomorrow since confirmed plans have already been lined up for the first half of 2009.

Jan - It will be a busier year since im resuming studies on the 8th and of course, my TP test.
I'll have to reorganise my schedule - no more religion class on weekend for the time being.
I have to start looking for one in the evening....any day except for Monday and Thursday.

Mar - The household will be getting a new domestic helper since yati will be going back to her homeland - its been 2 years already and neither of us wants to prolong this contract. I hope we will be getting if not better, at least someone like her. Thank Allah, Im free for the whole Mar, I'll help Mak since the new helper would be generally new about everything concerning the chores.

May - End of year 1, i'll be proceeding to year 2 & 3 of the bachelor programme for 12 more modules.

Now, I hope I will have time to sew..the curtains!!


Oh yes, Kak N get on to my nerves yet again.
Must she said those things?
Obviously someone is the type who gloats over ones' misfortunes....#@$%!

#517

On leave today to meet up with the consultant.
Yup! Im starting my bachelor course in Jan08, exactly a month from today.
I've decided to major in professional accounting instead of finance. closer to what im doing right now.

It shall be a packed and busy January for me, lessons every thurs, sat & sun and test practically every week.
The good news is I will be totally free for the whole month of March...great, can plan for short trip with the family.

Alhamdulilah, my iqra class will not be affected, at least for Jan to April09.

#516

I have no mood to work.
Looking forward to a laidback weekend.

Im helping Mak with the Eid's mini celebration by baking banana cake right after morning lesson tomorrow....another day around AMK.

Im glad i dont have the cold feet behind the wheels...
BUT I've yet to overcome the fear of heavy traffic flow..ai!

#515

I've completed all 30 lessons last friday. Next week onwards will be revisions and revisions till the test date.
Not indicating here when will be the date cos it will add more pressure to my already pressured self...hah!

I've improved by 50% on my last assessment, will try to minimise on unnecessary mistakes and perform my best, AMeen!

AR spent most of the time brushing up on my vertical parking which was not taught earlier by him...what to do, i could not get his slot then! My parallel parking was better, obviously cos he taught me, that's what i told him....tengoklah saper yg ajar! and ya know wat he said...tak nak takabur lah...hahah!

During the 2 slots = 4 hours of driving, we talked anything under the sun from health issue to the group TOTO....
He was trying to recall on the tune 'I'll be over you" when I hit the curb...hahaahha!!

I've baked the cookies which I I had promised AA...
I shall bring the 2 containers of cookies tomorrow to office....mission accomplised!

#514

Had my teeth polished and filled and was told that I brushed my teeth too hard and way too much - 5 times a day.
Twice a day should suffice. No brushing after meals....floss and mouthwash are good enough.

I guess I'm too particular about my smile that brushing with so much strength was a norm.
Time to change that method and habit before it will be way too late.

Had my mock test yesterday.
My assessment on driving was far from good.
Revision time this coming Friday. Hope AR is well, he cant walk properly due to his ghout.SIGH!

#513

I thought so that I have more leave days and sure enough SM made a mistake.
I braced myself up to ask her if I was entitled half of the year leaves due to my half year probation.
She said no but i guess she was feeling uneasy - unsure of the HRM policy, she asked the big boss and whaddaya know!
I received her sms just then, her apology and the numbers of leaves I have to clear before 2009....

Now, I've got leaves to take up the weekdays slots but AR is not available..SIGH!

#512

Currently enjoying my friday working phase, no boss to boss me around and partner on leave, its heaven!!

Im listening to my favourite songs while updating the financial statement, its definitely a breeze.

The PSLE result proves that not being in the secular stream, does not mean u cannot excel.

Way to go Al-IRsyad!!
Im sure in years to come, more good results..AMEEN!

I've promised AA that I'll be baking chocolate cookies for him for Raya Haji...
kesian gitu tgk dia......

#511

Got the same instructor for vertical parking lesson today. Yeah,it was not that tense.
It was not that hard but not that easy either.
Need lots of practice before the test date. He reassured me that sufficient assistance will be rendered in time to come, Thank Allah.

Saw a glance of my fixed instructor AR while I was driving around the bend. Not sure if he saw me. While waiting at the training center, i saw his car, it was stationary but no glimpse of him yet. His other fixed trainee got I'm faster than me. sigh!

I've got the rest of the month and the whole of DEC to be his fixed trainee.
So going for 2-3 lessons under other instructors should be okay though I must admit I feel quite uneasy driving with someone else.

#510

SILLY MISTAKES ALL THE TIME!!
WHEN WILL I LEARN MY LESSON!!! URGH!

I was assessed for the stage 2 before proceeding to the next stage....
BOLEH TAHAN TERUKNYA!!!

My fixed instructor will KILL me if he knew of those things i did...
he's been reminding me over and over again....ALLAH!!
camne boleh tak ingat nie!!

Felt like banging my head against the wall. period.

#509

I'm getting weaker. Not even a week of recovery, I'm down with the flu bug again.
Cough is getting irritatingly bad,I'm so worried about tomorrow practical lessons... 6 hours mind you. Imagine with the coughing, sneezing and nose blowing,how to concentrate on the road?

I don't understand the way i did the booking, why then I didn't book for 2 slots in a day instead of one for each day? What was I thinking of? urgh!!

And the online booking system has been down since morning!! damn it.

#508

Its friday and for the first time i shall exclaimed "SO SOON"!
why not, with 2 days mc, the weekdays are shorter..yippee!

Weekends shall be packed with pratical lessons in the 2 mornings, afternoon class, visiting after that and a wedding on Sunday.
and yeah, hubby's family day organised by the workplace....hmmm...hope we can make it.

Things have been doing well but still i have not given up hope and effort for a change (yet again, i know)

Emloyment market will hit its lowest with the recent recession but im not taking that as an excuse to be complacent with my current employment, im not afraid to move on again...till i find one with the job satisfactory.

Im not sure where i will be in one year's time....its still too early to say but not too soon to figure it out.

sigh!...im still waiting for the application status from Murdoch....why cant it be sooner?

#507

Do I enjoy the leadership programme?
Yes, I had fun (except for one silly incident) but nope it was not beneficial for me.
I'd rather spend the 2 days baking, sewing and doing things with my children.
I get the message conveyed - to be an effective leader, to share the common values with subordinate, bla bla bla.....i could literally spill it out, since it was said numerous times already.

p/s: I get to make friends from the other centres and those who i had already known- i understand them better - that's the consolation.

Im looking forward to practical lesson tomorrow morning.
Fortunate to get a slot after giving up the weekends ones for the training.
Im so glad AR will be on duty. save the trouble of going through another introduction.

hmm....no government today, boss on MC....tell me about staying healty.

#506

I had fried rice and hot Milo for lunch just then.
Now Im feeling SUPER sleepy in front of the PC.
My eyes are just too comfy to shut.

Not much stuff to clear, month end rush had passed quite smoothly this time, faster than norm. Alhamdulilah.

I'm not looking forward to the weekend this time. Had to atttend 2 days (there goes my weekeds) workshop in the East. Im so not into this. Others would find joy in such game-gather-fun thingy. Im just the homely type....

Facebook has been a great help connecting me with long lost friends.
Becoming friends to those whom I have not get the chance to do so during those years.
I had fun looking through old pictures uploaded by dear friends.
Oh, Im so into FB nowadays....

YEs, I met by chance a friend from primary school. Was talking about him
in FB with his sis, and whaddaya, he was there when I visited a colleague's mum. how timely! sure hope he will sign up in FB soon....

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Im so determined to complete practical lessons by Dec, therefore I will be attending lessons twice a week, and even thrice on some week..The longer i drag the slots, the further would be the test date. Been logging into the website like madcow...Manage to book for my instructor for most lessons.

heart pain seeing the transaction history...have paid so much!

oh yeah, I've forgotten to ask about my instructor's health, if he is suffering from any heart problem.

I've booked for him for more than 15 lessons...i dont wish to see him having heart attack while guiding me for that many lessons hhehehehh!

Must be very focus. It's frustrating to repeat same mistakes over and over again..darn!

#505

well hello!

im just too lazy to update, what with the lessons slots, been logging to the website, cancelling and rebooking...sigh!
im really behind time...

I had the same instructor today, it's been 2 weeks and im glad he still remembers me.
funny how, i could drive better with him next to me compare when i was with my fixed instructor AR..
maybe i was not being nagged to the max.

So far, alhamdulilah, all instructors are awesome....ya know what, im beginning to look forward to attend lessons!

#504

Im doing my best to give my best during lesson.
I've always been a little slower in catching up, Im not those lucky chaps.
I've always learnt through the hard way. Things dont come easy and most of the time not cheap.

I've been concerned about my eyesight especially at night, what more now, I have practical lesson to be held at 8pm onwards.
So I didnt think twice on purchasing another pair of glasses for the purpose....

I hope my effort pays off...pal R had gotten her licence, Im so determined to complete my lessons fast...

#503

I've checked through the list of booking and cancellation of lessons, only to realise that I've wasted few slots simply due to my oversight. what a bummer!
As a result, I had to book one night session in order to complete the required sessions before I am able to book for the test date. Thank Goodness, it is my instructor's shift. I have the confidence to drive at night since he will be the one coaching me.

Received a mail from a headhunter, the positions listed are simply irresistible.
Lets not be too hopeful. But i do pray to be called up and try my luck.

Its that time of the year when we have to be prudent on our spendings....hopefully it will not be as bad as it was 10 years ago. Especially now that I have a family of my own, 2 growing kids and a course pending for a huge sum to kick off.

Lets not think so much on this....it's making me all so weak and helpless.

#502

End of stage 1. Proceeding to stage 2 from next week onwards.
Im grateful to have been matched so far with friendly and patient instructors.
Im determined to get my licence before my PDL expires again!!!!

I tried if possible to fix an instructor but due to his alternate shift, I was not able to. I find him to be meticulous and he is willing to impart as much knowledge and shares his own experiences to boost my confidence. He said that Im the timid type..well yeah quite true.

I made an abrupt brake while driving (Im fond of this, urgh) and lost my mobile. (my handbag fell and everything poured out). No confirmation if I had left it underneath the backseat and so had to terminate my line temporarily, in case it was elsewhere adn someone took the chance to make long distance call.

This is my 1st time to have lost my phone in 8 years. and here I am thinking which Nokia model to purchase.....

#501

Its been ages. Can you feel the dust covering this blog of mine....
been away for so long, i ran out of idea what to blog about.
Anyway, Selamat Aidilfitri to all Muslims out there.
Here's a peek of the 1st day of Eid.

#500

So far driving lessons have been good.
Im grateful that the assigned instructors were kind souls.
I pray all the good ones will be the one teaching me till I pass.
I hope I pick up fast. Must focus and be alert ALWAYS.

Last week I was already practising on the road. Kinda fast. it was only my 2nd lesson.
I guess my previous 10 lessons with the private instructor did not go wasted.

I really want to pass before my pdl expires in March.
Another lesson tomorrow, oh Allah, im having the jitter again.

#499

We are in the 2nd week of Ramadhan. Normally, during this time, the mood of Eid can be felt.
But not this time, I wonder why? I guess as we grow older, we no longer look forward to the celebration.
I dont feel the vibes anymore, in fact i dread to think that so many things are left undone till the last minute.

At least last year, I was in the mood to listen to the raya songs via IMEEM.
Today, i dont even know which song to play and what to start with the celebration. Its bits and pieces.

I wanted to start on the baking and guess what, I have not even bought a single ingredient.
I wanted to finish off with my curtains sewing but the fabric is not suitable to coordinate with the new wall paint. so i shall stop whatever I had started and re-do....what a waste of time.
I thought I was done with the bajus, but then realised i had left out on our tudungs and Najmi's shirts.

The mood has simply disappear.
So where do I start?

#498

I seem to be away for a lllloooong time.
what have I missed?

yeah, I've celebrated my 9th anniversay on sept, 11 with wishes from loved ones (thanks to Fir via Ani) and a fruitty cake.

We had it during iftar session, but the kids were not enjoying the cake, too much frutis i guess.

Other than that, life seems to be so dull and boring.
It goes on and on so fast that I didnt realised we've passed the 2nd week of Ramadhan. Im so gonna missed the iftar session once it's gone. I just love to sit around the table waiting for the Adzan and listening to that melody which air only in Ramadhan.(that Arabic tune which I always visualised as if they were singing in the desert).

Next week shall be the start of the busy days as usual - cake making, last minute shopping (which I thought it has been done before fasting month)

#497

I seriously felt like giving that old man a tight slap across his blardy face!
Cam takleh nampak org lain senang, ada je nak dijadikan pasal.
What do u get by embarrassing us particularly me in front of those people?
You have lost my respect many years ago and I dont think u will earn it even after u leave this world!

Yes, I am mad. Why of all the day and time, it would be in this holy month?
I was so happy to meet up with my other relatives after so long and united for this special occassion to witness my cousin's solemnisation ceremony. and u had to ruin it?!

Go to hell lah.....so much for the bonding,,,u r the cause of all this misunderstanding!

#496 - lady luck

I hope its the beginning of good luck.
Been hoping to win all this while and never did.
And so I was not so hopeful for last Friday's company dinner's lucky draw.

And I was still in disbelief when H called out my number '55' for the 2nd prize.
I've got for myself a complete set of home theatre system - Alhamdulilah!

#495

Went out for a retail therapy with my girl. It was a short session.
I know where to head and which model to purchase.
Been surveying on the net before deciding which design I want.
I could even remember the name!

It looks feminine- simply love the blue and pink crsytals.
At a glance it look like a bracelet....i love my new watch!

Ezzaty was busy looking and choosing suitable stuff for her teachers.
I knew that she would want to head home immediately after getting her stuff....all in all we spent less than 2 hours.
That was fast!

#494

Im up early though its my off day (yippe!).
Cant get back to sleep after bidding Eddris off to work.
Its a cold saturday, the rain hasnt stopped pouring down eversince.

I'll be doing the marketing with Mak.
She's been complaining that it's getting difficult to purchase most of the stuff eversince the supermarket is closed.
Im not sure where we will be going later.

I've straightened my thoughts out, im so glad that N is back.
Back to those days when I dont really know kak S that well.
At times, it's better not knowing someone that close.

Next Friday, I'll be attending our company's formal gathering at Westin.
Im not buying new attire...will be putting on whatever i can find in the wardrobe.
Just not worth to dress to kill for the theme,,the prize is just not attractive enough..heheh!

#493 - thanks mun for this

You Act Like You Are 27 Years Old

You are a twenty-something at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up. The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

What Age Do You Act?

Moved but not completely

Been neglecting to post here because I am more interested to PEN DOWN my journal elsewhere.

I like the other option where you could set your post to private on entries which are very personal, even set passwords to selective readers.

I will not be gone completely. As and when, I will blog here to update.

#491

Its Wednesday already!
How time flies, i seriously thought it was only monday.
must be the great weekend plus the national day celebration mood.

We celebrated Mun's 18th birthday and Ezzaty's belated 8th birthday on Sunday.
The rest of my family members gathered for this joyous moment.
I enjoyed the food best - durian bought by bro Fai, pizza especially the beef bacon cheeseburger flavour and of course 2 types of cakes - for 2 birthdays!

Yes, home is no longer sweet with 3 littles ones running around...its so noisy.
but once, they fell asleep, the house turned cold and stiff...hehe!

pictures to be uploaded later!

#490

I believe there is a blessing in disguise.
I believe M has a valid reason for his outburst.
Thank Allah, I was not on any sides.

I was the one blinded by so called friendship.
How to regard you as a true friend, Kak when the things which are meant to be between you and her, but you told me.
Im not surprised it will be likewise between me and you.
its a stupid thing to reveal to you in the future.
Once bitten twice shy.

i'll try ways to stay away from you. gradually but surely.
I cant wait for N to return, I did not have to face all these when she was around...sob sob sob!

#489 - FED UP

Sungguh membosankan dikelilingi mereka yg takbur, bongkak, besar diri dan tidak tahu erti merendah diri dan mengalah.
Gajah di depan mata tak nampak, tetapi semut yg begitu halus terang pula.
Nak tunjuk terror pun bukan disini tempatnya.

hai...sedarlah, saat gemilang anda sudah lama berlalu.
move on...look at urselves now. so pathetic. but yet, you've always think you are right.

Allah! kenapa lah kalian masih tidak sedar......bukalah hati, mata dan minda.
kekuranganmu lebih ketara daripada kelebihanmu...astagfirullah.

Kuatkanlah imanku apabila berada disamping mereka. Ameen.

#488 - Dalam Bahasa Melayu

Sehari suntuk, kami bertiga memenuhi undangan jamuan di rumah teman sekerjaku N, sempena kesyukuran diatas kelahiran anak ke empatnya. Waktu undangan sudah dimaklumkan selepas Zuhur tetapi kami terpaksa hadir sejam lebih awal kerana Eddris bertugas di giliran petang.Comelkan, Zafirah.

Aku sudah maklumkan kedatangan kami yg awal pada N dalam perjalanan kesana agar dia tidak rasa serba salah dan kelam kabut. Mujurlah tindakan aku itu tepat, N sedang sibuk dilokasi lain untuk mengambil makanan ketika itu. Dan kebetulan juga aku tersilap alamat, jadi kami tunggu sahaja N dan suami tiba dikolong blok. Bayangkan kekoknya jika kami sudah berada didalam tanpa tuan rumah.

Kami adalah tetamu yg pertama, semestinya. N tidak benarkan kami pulang dengan perut kosong. Nak tak nak, terpaksalah kami tunggu hingga jamuan dihidangkan. (muka kena tebalkan sikit, beb)

Aku bersyukur anak ke3 N, Insyirah begitu ramah dan rajin melayan anak bujangku si Najmi.
Muka berdua seiras, mata bulat dan bersaiz kecil molek, patutlah boleh ngam. Boleh bayangkan, aku mati akal nak menangani kerenah Najmi yang semakin 'baik' sejak dia pulih daripada demamnya. Dia ni jenis cepat bosanlihat tu, khusyuk betul si Najmi merenung.

Daripada rumah N, kami seharusnya dalam perjalanan pulang untuk menjemput Ibu dan adik beradikku yang lain ke majlis sahabat lama kami A, apakan daya, kereta kami terlalu comel. Sebaliknya Ibuku dan Mun terpaksa berjalan kaki sementara kami berlima menaiki kenderaan ke blok A yg tidak begitu jauh. Aku terpaksa batalkan kehadiranku kerana Najmi mengalami mabuk. Kirim sahajalah nampaknya.....

p/s: amacam masih power tak bahasa ibunda ku?

#487

I've never come across someone so stubborn.
Getting a haircut is such a big thing.
Its not as if taking away your life. whatever!

I had a weird dream last night.
A former schoolmate was asking me if I had been reading her bestie's blog.
I was like..apa halnya aku nak baca blog dia...buang masa je, as if there isnt any blog more interesting to read.

In that dream, she was commeting on my new Mac's skin and asked me to check out that person's blog to view her much better skin....as if hoping to make me feel insecure and threatened.

well, as close to that dream, in reality I am not into competition. i dont give a damn. really, its not my problem.
im not glad for you if you are happy, im not gloating over your misfortune either...
it has nothing got to do with my life. period.

weird eh, ...am so glad its just a dream.

#486

Life has always been unfair but not Allah S.W.T
I have heard if your prayers had not been answered,
its because Allah S.W.T has a better plan for you. And I have faith in this. cos it was happening to Eddris then. He endured for almost 5 years and finally, he get more than what he had wished for. Im looking forward to my better, hopefully the best.
Insya-Allah, may HE gives me the patience and strength to pull through the difficult times.

I honestly can't wait for September to be here. Not only me, but almost everyone in the office.

I've made a blunder today. I've got things all mixed up.
Cant blame me (but yeah, its my fault), been very busy with the audit.
I dont know where I've got the endurance to focus and reconcile the TB all over again for the 3rd time.
The process is almost coming to its end but the big thing has yet to arrive. I hope all goes smoothly.

Went on a date with Eddris at CP after work today.
He was on course and travelled by train, so he could wait up for dinner and then we windowshopped together.
He got what he's been looking for. But not for me, still indecisive if I should buy, well let's see if i can get over it for the night. If not, I shall go down to purchase it...hahah!

At times, I wish Eddris works on normal hours, then we could travel together to and fro work but then I have no issue with him on shift so far, so long we still can find time to be together.

oops...i forgot, i should be grateful. Alhamdulilah. syukran.

#485 - new look

We had a good bargain at the flea market last sunday.
Every last sunday of the month, there will be a flea market held at the void deck opposite our block.
I have never been one before though, and how i had missed buying good cheap stuff.

Bought 2 skirts, they are still new. I did not hesitate to buy, what is there to lose since I would be spending less than 10 bucks. I dont even bother to try if it fits......

oh yes, Mac had a new look too....Thanks to Mun who was so eager to buy the skin, i thought i should have one too.

#484

Eddris took us out on Saturday where we spent most of the time admiring the fountain at Suntec
It was like a picnic. The kids were enjoying themselves with the spectacular show while both of us were enjoying BK meals...its been a while!

The last time we've been there as a family was like when Ezzaty was in k2?.

Time to head home but the kids...well, u know them

Just then, nephew Aisy came with his dad to fetch baby Nadyne (Sue, now then i realised my niece shares Anisha's 2nd name)
Both Najmi & Aisy just cannot get along well...Aisy loves to kiss Najmi but he simply afraid of Aisy.
Yeah, they've been running around screaming and crying.
My home is no longer sweet as any house should be,
its more like a childcare, infant care and soon to be a welfare home...hahah!

#483

Busy.busy.busy.

At work, tied down with the financial housekeeping process..
shall not elaborate. getting on my nerves with the adjustments and SM's unrealistic demands.

At home, since Tuesday the moment I reached home, I was ike a 2nd mom to my newborn niece.
She loves to be cuddled and I love to kiss her soft cheeks!
Cant get enough of that newborn baby smell....hmmmm...
Mak even reminded me not to pamper her so much by carrying her that long...i cant help it, she is just too adorable.

I would drop whatever I was doing the moment I heard her cry. She would soon fast asleep in my arms, I guess being with me is enough to make her forget what she wants in the first place....so far I only changed her diaper once....

#482 - to start again

I seriously thought that exams fever and assignment datelines will not be here that soon.
Im so wrong.

Given 6 months grace period to get it done and over with, I'll be working hard burning the midnight oil and be buried under that tons of notes AGAIN.

And I thought taking up major course is officially over with the rejection from SM who deny flatly my request to pursue further studies under the company's sponsorship. Reason being - she does not want to hold back my climb on the corporate ladder, so called. (what rubbish lah)

In other word, she does not want me to be officially bonded with the company for that long...hmm...seriously, im not sure what is she thinking?not ur money and seriously not your time to be served here..
anyway, its a blessing in disguise i guess...seeing how we are all being managed..blah suah!

Dont want to sponsor, then dont want lor.
Dont want me to be bonded, then dont lor.
Dont want me to be around for that long, then I shall go lor...no need to nag so long winded mah!
Haiyah!, just say you scare I will soon override you, which I totally not interested. I'll be bored to death sitting in your pathetic room...no ventilation and also so stinkco!

Okay, back to my plan. It seems that I cant do all this one at a time....
it must be all concurrently....if i were to start next year after I've completed my practical lessons and TP, I will not be able to embark on the switch soon, which I am SO not gonna wait any longer....

Age is catching up..doing it fast and doing it right...yeah!

#481

I was quite mad at A.
He is ever boastful.
Exaggerating.
Making a big deal of stuff which is not even related to him.
Sigh...what to do! he's the closest in the office. bear with it so long i will not becoming like him.
Allah s.w.t forbids.

I had cancelled my jogging session with L tomorrow.
Will be having a farewell dinner for K.
I'm so gonna miss her.

I cant wait for September.
its our anniversary, its fasting month and will be getting B, yippe :p

#480

One at a time.
I have to put on hold some plans to make time for my driving and tilawah lessons.
I could not afford to squeeze room for any more courses for time being.
OR else, my 2 Ezzs will be badly affected.

So far so good :p

#479

Call me a weirdo. I cant been waiting for someone to give me a pat on the back and say Hey! look at the brighter side.

(big SIGH) So I've found this poem dedicated to me, myself & i. bravo! *clap clap*

*Inspirational Poem

Try and Try

© By David Cook

I have always seen life for what it really is.
Ever since I was a child growing up, hard times are all I know.

I had to sit back and watch my mother work from sunset to sundown.
I had to sit back and watch my mother work herself to her grave.

Nothing ever came easy for her.
She always had a heart and kept a smile on her face.

Life is like a newborn baby struggling to come out of its mother's womb,
life is a struggle true enough, but after all the struggling you have done,

and after all the hell you have been through, there is success.
Life is nothing but a big struggle, but just keep the faith and focus on your goals.

Don't let life beat you or you will be walking around like zombies.
Keep on pushing, keep on trying, life can be whatever you make it to be.

But life can also be a bowl of cherries with whip cream and apple pie.
I say this again; life is what you make of it.

You can achieve or conquer anything it throws at you,
you can't quit or give up, you have got to keep on working,

look higher some way, some how you are going to make it.

#478

I wonder why others can stay for so long.
I wonder how they manage to manipulate situation.
I wonder why I seem to have many valid reasons.
I wonder when the search will be over as in O-V-E-R.
I wonder why I dont seem to give up and accept the fate.
I wonder why I dont mind to go through this again.

nope. i dont enjoy it. i just cannot go with the flow. I have to try.

I am tired looking at the same situation and dealing with it yet again.
oh well, Its better than to sit and doing nothing.

Mimi emailed to tell that she has finally made it through.
Next, It's my turn. so far efforts had gone wasted. i hope not this 3rd time.

#477 - finally

Thanks R for your time and company.
If not because of your encouragement, I will NEVER make it through.
The enrolment was a breeze one with you beside me, heheheh!

I had booked for 2 sessions, but it was a far out.
I can anticipate for the coming weeks that I will be browsing through the net, buying slots that others try to sell.

#476 - missing you

pictures courtesy from my cousin Nana's multiply.
my adorable niece

Niece NF1 with bro Aisy

Im so missing my eldest niece, NF1.
Took her home on Tuesday night since she wanted so much to follow me home.
She stayed for only one night, was so glad she didnt cry asking for her mummy.I wished it could be longer, had plan to take her to the library.

I was at her place for more than half a day after fetching her newborn sis NF2 from KKH with sis Alia. She was never far from me eversince. She clung to me, asking me questions that i hardly have the answers. Accompanied me for my short nap. Making me comfortable with her hospitality, sitting next to me reading the magazines.

I melted each time she called me 'Ibu' affectionately.
She even urged me to come home early to keep her company...that sweet voice of hers is enough to make me forget that I was tired and needed rest upon reaching home.
In fact, I spent the night cuddling that fragile frame.

And last night when i dropped by her place to send over her puppy and carebear, she was all smiles waiting at the doorstep.
hmmmm....I cant forget her flying kiss "*muak* bye ibu!"

#475

I dont see the sparks anymore.
no butterflies in the stomach.
no chill down the spine.
nothing. its plain dull.

too comfortable or just too bored?
Im just drifting along.

#474

Office politics yet again!
im sick of it. enough is enough...

i've lost faith in the management.
i dont even feel and think like how an employee of an organisation should be.
i've lost that corporate feeling.
its an eerie feeling.........terrible!

#473

Colleagues are making fun of my obsession with K-E-A-N-U R.e.e.v.es.
I know Im not that young anymore to adore someone far but age aside, im still the same person now and then. I still like the stuff I was crazy about donkey years ago.
:-)

#472

Had a hearty lunch at Swensen with Kak S.
Been wanting to give her a treat :P

Accompanied her to shop for games stuff at CP.
People thought we were having the GSS mood, what not - bought 5 pairs of badminton rackets, table tennis rackets, soccer ball, basketball, a net, monopoly, baseball bat, soccer table game....yeah! it was handful...and heavy!

We were having a casual chat over lunch and I was so surprised to learn N, our former colleague, the one I replaced, actually thought that of me...hmmm...she sounded sour grape...well, it may be her poison, but it shall be my meat...so stop hoping for the worst for others but would be good to pray for the best instead.

I would be happy for someone who replaces me and pray that she/he shall not face the adversities and difficulties that i've been through. so it kinda hard to absorb that not everyone shares the same sentiment, especially to think it came from N.

I heard she IS NOT happy with the current job.
Im coping well here unlike what she had predicted.
Its been a year......i think im the one who is having the last laugh.

#471

Started a new routine since yesterday.
on alternate weeks, working from 8 to 6 to compensate with the saturdays off.
Going to the office this early reminds me of those days I was at Tanjong Pagar.
The only diff is the journey is much shorter now compared to 13 stations away from home. must be grateful hor :p

The rain poured suddenly on our way to the mosque last night. Went into the class wet and cold....
We are 2 pages away to complete Book 5.
In 2 weeks time to sit for the Tilawah test.
I hope to score better than the previous.
Mak was worried that she may not be able to cope going to the next level.
She needs to have more confidence in herself. Take it easy.
During class, could see her stress face looking down at every huruf and try to get it right...

I think I should make time to revise with Mak, Insya-Allah.

#470

I procrastinated again.
Instead of going to the centre for enrolment, I headed home after meeting S with L
and her galz. The girls bought lots of makeup stuff, I only bought 2 lipsticks. Neutral, almost Nude in colour...cant seem to get the right tone.

Mun suffered indigestion on Saturday. She threw up almost everything she had. Her state was so bad that we could not afford to wait the morning to come to consult a GP. It was 4 in the morning, both me & Edd headed to the Central for the 24hrs clinic but it was no longer operating that hour. Thought of Sembawang but we found one in Chong Pang....just in time. (was told by the locum GP that this is the only clinic in Yishun that offers 24hrs service)

Mun was given a jab to stop that nauseanous and 2 types of medicines.
and I was still in disbelief.....Managed to weigh myself while waiting for the clinic assistant to dispense the medicines ( I didnt manage to do so the first time).
I was 5kg heavier than the usual scale I got from home...!!

something is wrong, is it me or the scale? oh gosh! now im the one feeling like throwing up...i think im gonna dispose that scale machine ..get a new one.
It will be my 3rd.

This weekend,we have 2 wedding invitations to attend. One is my ex-colleague and the other is Mak's former colleagues.

Both are getting sons in laws.
(yeah, my former colleague is that old)

#469

#469 - reminds me of our old place in AMK.
12 years. Life full of ups and downs. It was not easy yet not that hard either.
It was not so comfortable yet not that miserable either.
It was plain simple.

********************************

A fellow colleague from another centre, K called to inform she had received a favourale reply and shall be leaving us in less than a month time. I guess its time of the year when new faces start coming in to fill in the gaps.

K is infact moving on to a much greener pasture.
Im sure she will be happier there...Im happy for her.
Both of us had been ranting over the phone the past weeks, encouraging one another to look into the brighter side of the situtation and shared our common views on the poor management...

Sigh...another kind soul is leaving :-(

#468

Gosh! Enrichment course is so costly.
I've signed up for one time 4 hours session and I have to pay $155.
Equivalent to almost $39 per hour...more expensive than Ezzaty's tuition.
The response is so overwhelming that I have to reseve a place by sending a cheque for a class which will only commerce in August!

I want to acquire the skill.
4 hours seem short to master everything...hmmm, i dont really know what to expect.
But I hope it will lead me to something.....

Will be going for Aqua aerobic later, we are left with 2 more lessons.
Oh, I'll be jogging alone tomorrow. L cant make it.

I hope to watch a movie with Edd this weekend or at least a dinner just the 2 of us.
I dont seem to remember which shift he will be working...so many things on my mind.

#467

I think its time to change my profession.
Im not sure if I had enough of numbers, figures and digits.
But Im sure that my skill is getting from bad to worse.
Imagine, overlooking a simple task like bank recon..yeah, it's this bad.

If you were to tell me what I should be doing best at this age, I would appreciate if its not that home business or multi level marketing. I dont see where the revenue is coming...

I dont mind doing admin but for the many past attempts of applications, I've got rejections merely because I have more accounting experience.
I dont see the logic - its not as if I dont do admin at all. It will be a different thing if I were to be applying for Accounts when all the while I was doing admin. What a crap!

#466

The day has finally came.
Masya' Allah, the place is so far and remote.
I followed what was written on the signboard, it seems as if i was walking down an endless road leading to nowhere!
All went well I supposed....*rolled eyes*

I was not familiar with the place, hardly been in the west, it was my first time.
Had i not been there, I would not have stepped into Muhajirin Mosque to perform solah.
Been passing the mosque since I was young but never had the chance to be in till today.
Alhamdulilah, syukran to Allah S.w.T for the opportunity.
Felt so down, after saying my prayer, I was not really into communicating to tell him what was bothering me.
All I care - if my effort will lead me to something....

I dont see going through all this for nothing, not to pass time, obviously.
HE knows best, shall leave it to HIM, im just being hopeful.

Was so glad that there is a direct bus to home.
I abandoned the thought to have lunch (yeah @ 4pm, I still had nothing since morning).
It felt so weird to be eating out alone..so i headed home, bought pancakes along the way and it felt so good to be home early.

yup! I have cancelled my lesson on Sunday.
I have a date with L. Jalan jalan cari barang....

#465

I've decided to terminate my registration and register at the other centre.
Thanks R for your encouragement and support.
Friend like you makes life worth living.

#464

Ezzaty joined the kids at the centre yesterday for the 'flight' - yes, the S'pore Flyer.

I missed my chance last Saturday for the company's retreat. Just came back from the getaway, I was not that keen and quite unwell. Didnt miss much really, from Ezzaty and some of my colleagues, it was quite slow and b-o-r-i-ng....half an hour sitting in the capsule waiting to make one full round....okay, im being whiny...im not being a wet blanket. try for urself..u may Like it.

On a better note, im looking forward to Wednesday to get it done and over with.
Its been a month..so im quite surprised to have it coming, the excitement almost died down after a long wait.

Another dreadful lesson tomorrow...i dont know what to expect, but i know im expected the best...SIGH!

#463

Im feeling insecure. Each day.
I have no confidence executing the task.
Changes been made every now and then.
Journal entries and reversal are getting norm eversince.
Worst, the one giving instruction is not sure herself.

Im sure someone is getting the blame.
Let's pray it's not me.

#462

Oh great! Mun has uploaded our short getaway photos..

#461

When it was A's turn to be appraised, i reminded him to ask on my behalf about the Saturday's duty.
He did and I was called in - yeah!!! as from July, I will be working 5 days a week ( trading in with additional 4 hours on the week I was supposed to work or to reduce my Annual Leave by 5 days)

I chose the first, as it is now, I come to work early and left later, so why not make it official. I dont see the need to sacrifice my leave.

oh well, SM mentioned about me skipping participating the company's events twice....hello! I was certified unfit, what's the fuss!? dont make a mountain out of a mole, dear!

Been contemplating to leave if I was not able to opt for the 5 days work. Was told the working hours here is flexible, so if things are getting rigid for me, I dont see why i should stay.

Yeah, i know im beginning to be a 'grasshopper' job hopping. Ya see, supplementing the household's income should not be a stressful one, I want to be happily employed and enjoy the 8 hours away from home, so I have to work in a 'friendly' environment. so that's explains why i dont mind Not staying in a job if it does not fit my need in one way or another.....

My CV is getting longer with the list of various employments,
Im sure those experiences will come handy someday. No pain no gain.

Other than not having THE confident with the management (have voiced it out with SM), its okay so far here. (its quite an issue, really)

Only time will tell for how long.....for now, just looking forward to every payday :-)

#460

I chose to let it out, instead of acknowleding what had been said.
It was quite demoralizing to be listening to all the craps right in the face.
And even told to buck up.

Waited for her last say before I rebuked.
It was not true that I have been taking longer time to complete the report.
She did not realised that I have been receiving orders from the superior, the one above her. I have been given additional days for months, okay....!
As far as I know, I have been adhering to the dateline...so it was so lame to take the blame for nothing.

so much for working in small office. superiors not communicating and i was getting the crap! It was THE appraisal thingy again...Guess what, I highlighted to her that she's been insensitive and rude at times. well, its an open appraisal afterall....

I was so mad that I had forgotten to ask about the Saturday off....

#459

Yesterday's driving lesson was one of my worst.
(yeah, cant recall how many times I feel like giving up).
If not for Ed paying for the lessons, I would have stopped long time ago.

I hate every one of it, no fun and it is so tiring.
I still prefer to be driven around, which is almost impossible now.
No way to turn back now, I have spent so much time on this, sacrificing my morning Sunday for an early lesson. Sigh sigh sigh... I shall not elaborate the blunders I did, it was just too exhausting as it was.

Move on until the TP, which was less than 2 months...yeah yeah yeah!
Im so bochap, I think on the test day, I will not feel nervous at all but full of anger!

Just pray on that day I will not be a murderer..

#458 - it was over

We were back last night. The jam was manageable Except for one inconsiderate driver, as if you owned the road!

I was supposed to update for Day3 to Day5 but was too occupied. Too exhausted, been going around the whole KL, the first thing reaching our hotel room, it would be sleep and more sleep..yep!

3rd day - Sunway lagoon was a far cry from the last time we went. Improved in many ways but certainly more costly. We were not allowed to bring our own foodstuff, sigh!

We left for Jalan Masjid India after that, looking for decent place to eat.
We spent almost 3 hours at Sunway Lagoon, certainly needed to fill our stomachs.
As much as we loved fast food, I guess we had enough, it was only our 3rd day, we were already looking for plain rice and dishes!

There was a bazaar nearby,(Mun was delighted) I was lucky that the sales girl was nice to me and even offered a tissue paper after i spilled the powder! Offered to pay her but she declined, thanks, so sweet of you.

Jalan Masjid India was surrounded with many shops selling Muslimah outfits and headscarves, yeah, I could not decide which ones. I bought 3 blouses and didn't realize that I had paid more than Mun for the same outfit. So much for the bargaining skill....

We celebrated Ezzatty's 8th birthday with cake from Secret Recipe (just a slice since a whole cake will be too much for all of us here) and pizzas!

On our 4th day, it was sightseeing around the town and neighborhood. Getting lost is no big deal for us, and I'm still not getting better at reading the map. Petaling Street was heaven to those who love to bargain.. Mun & Mak were enjoying themselves getting the right stuff at the right price.

At night, we were packing for our Melaka stopover. Luggages were getting heavier with the soiled laundry and some stuff we purchased. Checking out was a breeze, didn't take us even 5 minutes, I was feeling rather sad leaving the hotel, service was excellent, really made us feel at home. and we were entertained with good shows via their inhouse channels and star movies.

Our last destination was at Mahkota Hotel - I had reserved a unit of the service apartment.
Only for a day, so this will do but for longer stay, i dont think i shall consider staying here again...I'll book for a hotel room instead.

We've been going to the shopping complex opposite, so this time we tried the one further and it was so huge we didn't manage to cover all. Most of the time it was at the Historical Gallery where Me & Mun bought some key chains and souvenirs and Mak bought keropoks and some snacks.

I think for our Raya preparation, I shall shop here instead of JB.
The quality is better and there is more range to choose from - cushions, clothes, homeware, etc.

After breakfast, we left for Ayer Hitam to have our Zuhur and lunch at MarryBrown.
Went into the rural areas to have a look at kampung life before heading to JB for our early dinner and magazines!

It was an enjoyable trip for all of us especially Mak.
I'm sure to plan for a longer stay like this, maybe at other state.
But by the look of it, everyone is not getting enough of KL - me too!

#457 - DAY2

Time definitely moves slower here.
I slept at around 12+, woke at 3 in the morning all fresh as if i had slept for ages.
Cant get back to sleep, it was cold here and found myself watching the star movie channel.
Im not sure the title of this movie but definitely it was worth watching.

I never expected to actually enjoy watching 'ancient' movie. the story plot was way back in the 30's era...such a moving show. a magician found his lost love, reunited in the most unexpected way..im not into romantic movie but yeah, it melted my heart.

We will be going down to Sunway Lagoon later, its been like so long since the last time we've been there. when Ez was only one and now she's 8. oh yes, today is her BIRTHDAY....! Happy birthday dear! No party like the year before, but im sure being here will be much a delight!

We didnt go anywhere last night except to the mall downstair, we were so much worried about Najmi not having the appetite and we were not sure what to feed him. Fortunately our hotel is conveniently located - whipped potato saved the day. Food court and convenient stores were just round the corner, have your pick but then i have to be mindful and wise...im not gonna put on weight! i will still choose a healthy diet....speaking of which, i ate too much junk food the moment we arrived here....ummmh!

My! the things here are quite expensive...dinner alone cost us close to 100 bucks!

im looking forward to have that bargaining power at the pasar malam and im not gonna miss going to Jln Masjid India...!

#456 - reached - DAY1

Ani,

we have safely reached KL @1130hrs. (yeah i know, im crazy about KL)
It wasnt hard finding the hotel, it just that im really bad at reading map!
been going round the same route, what do you know, the hotel was just next to us...

We didnt let the chance to slip...yes A & W! had that chance at Yer Keroh , Melaka.
Didnt get the chance for the past trips, im not gonna let it slip this time.
KFC was already opened but we waited patiently for the outlet to open...exactly 0900.
at last A & W float and cheeseburger....(yeah, i know it was abbit too early to indulge on those cold drinks)

gone were the anxiety to lose weight and being a health conscience freak. it's not easy to have a bite of that much yearned junk food..though the burger tasted slightly different.

Cant seemed to upload photos here though the internet is rather fast....
we are resting first, the 5 hours ride was too much for Mak....she wanted to have a nap and Najmi is really cranky!

#455

Im blogging here, waiting to cool down before having my shower.

I was very early, reached the park @ 7.40pm when L smsed to inform that she would be late and wanted to meet @ 8.30pm instead. Told her to take her time since i was already there, no worry i could utilised the time to warm up with the facilities available. she was worried i will be bored waiting....but nope, i really was enjoying the moment exercising alone...

I had a blast time doing my favourite - swung from side to side...it was fun and rewarding!

I stopped to read the notice that those facilities were actually set up for the S-E-N-I-O-R citizens! kah kah kah!
I find this quite amusing..how about us?
I guess we were supposed to only jog there....

Had 2 laps of run. Wanted to catch a movie, with all the sweats, it will be good to cool down in the aircon watching a show.
BUt the queue was just impossible...and there wasnt any show that I would love to watch...next time maybe, eh.

So we went back to the park to have a drink and chat....like usual!
L called this a weekly social event..for working mums.

#454

Still have not recovered fully.
Headaches come and go.
Was on MC yesterday, I was feeling feverish on Monday after visiting N.

Didnt thought that N was this serious.
I smsed her on Sunday, asking about her well-being and updating her on my latest progress.
She replied to inform that she was at KKH, she was bleeding and I THOUGHT it was a normal discharge. Didnt even cross to inform the rest of the colleagues about her condition - thinking it was just a normal C-Section problem.

In the middle of the night, Kak S called to inform that N was admitted into ICU, her condition was critical....
I was speechless, I should have sensed earlier...what kind of friend am I?

I could not wait till end of the day to visit her, so told SM about N (i know N would not be happy to see her) and told her that I wanted to visit her during lunch time, I asked her to tag along for obvious reason. She could drive us there...
Soon the rest of the staff at other centres knew about it and managed to get one of the principal to join me. It will be awkward to have only me & SM visiting N, ONLY me and her in the car...urgh!...

I was so glad to be the first to have visited her. She was still very weak. She had lost lots of blood and was still recuperating after the blood tranfusion. I know that her mind was elsewhere. She was not really into having any conversation...but at least we were not kept in the dark of what was happpening....slowly but surely she managed to inform us the reason she was being admitted. It must've been hard on her.....

She's been transferred out from ICU and now in the High Depency Unit for further observation, really hope she is getting better, I have not had any latest news.

But staff are taking turn to visit her...and i hope our presence in one way or another will cheer her up.

N, get well soon.

#453

Did springcleaning. Im happier with MY room now.
yeah, its mine since most of the time Edd will be on night shift.
Will find a day when both of us are free to clear some of the 'treasure' in the wadrobe.
Keeping the room as minimal as possible, as simple as it can be and hassle free.
I want to have more space to do my routine aerobic..getting a dvd player for myself is next on my list.

Its been almost 6 years, about time this room for a makeover...i need new colour!

I'm currently reading 'Plain Truth' by Jodi Picoult.
She will be my favourite author after Ann Rule.

Im looking forward to nex tweek.
I'm taking a week leave to be with the family and away from home....at last!

#452

I cant get to sleep.
Neighbours opposite our flat are having domestic argument, yep, its almost one in the morning!
what the hell are they thinking?

Cant they wait or will it be less thrilling to be screaming at each other in the daylight!
Wanted to call the NPP but I had done that numerous time...can someone do it for me this time round? P-L-E-A-S-E!

We did 3 laps, better than last week, and I can feel the ache....and more rounds for weeks to come...
and L was earlier than me this time..I was at the junction waiting for the green light, and she was already at the park doing her warmups...heheh!

My scale is down by another 0.5kg....:-)

#451

Boy! am sleepy....!
Nice weather, no superior to boss around and the workload is slightly better compare to the past few days...im so tempted to have a short nap.

Didnt had a bite since morning, been busy executing the payable function that I had forgotten about breakfast. No wonder, I felt like throwing up whatever I had for lunch. Eee...i hate to have experienced that....urgh!

I've made up my mind to let go and now im kinda regret.
whats done cannot be undone...need to move on.
I'm really bad in making decision and making choices....:(

#450 - aftermath

Just came back from our routine jog, this time it seemed further but actually it was not as much as last week.
I was not really into it partly because I waited so long to do the step up exercise (a couple was at it for so long) that i had lost the momentum. We jogged for a while, walked a whole big round and sat to discuss about our future plan, err...individually.

Didnt know we were at the same frequency - we have the same interest to learn that language...it will be useful for the future especially me, to communicate with Ezzaty.

okay, im for it......I just need to complete my driving lessons, then I could safely plan for the day to attend class "-)

#449

I dont see why you have nothing good to say of your own race.
Blood is thicker than water.
Just because you THINK life has been good to you, that does not give you every right to condemn our sisters and brothers.

You think you ARE different from anyone of us but the fact is, you are very much the SAME.
Denial. Always.

#448

I didnt get to see H for the last time.
But was told by the Boss that he has to see me tomorrow to pass a cheque.
It's the short notice in lieu payment. I was assigned to ensure the acceptance. why me? told you i dont want to get involved.

Never thought it will end this way for him.

Im really disappointed with the way staff are being treated here.
You slogged so hard but when one tiny mistake happen, you becomes the biggest enemy.
How fair can it be? Dont the effort and sacrifice made mean a thing? well, I guess not.

I could well anticipate such treatment if Im leaving by giving short notice...hah!

oh yes, Edd is still trying to overcome his grief over the loss of his 2 colleagues.
The news of them passing on is on the NewPaper front page today.
It was too sudden and too tragic. Fatal mishap in the course of duty.
My condolences to both families, sharing your sorrows during this painful moment.

Like I've mentioned, life is a surprise as it is. One moment you are here, the next, you will be gone forever.

Treasure those around you while you can, before it's too late.

#447

Things are getting from bad to worse in the office.
Blame it on M's headwindness - he can be so MIScommunicated and MISunderstood.
And I was the latest 'victim' - what EXACTLY have i done?"

Whatever - Shall not waste my breath arguing. Just a waste of time and effort.
I shall not take any sides, it does not concern me in any way. I'll be a fool to join in.
Blame it on yourselves for being childish.
And why do i have to rant on this?

hmm...
i hope my first step to pursue my personal interest will be here soon.
That will be my only hope to fulfill Mak's wish.
I cant get on work on those dreams if I am not able to make time for the lessons.
I have tried and now its T-a-w-a-k-a-l that Allah s.w.t will smoothen my effort.

Im not sure how long my journey here,
Im just hoping i can get all done before my time is up.
Dont get me wrong, im not suffering from any chronic illness, we all know that life is a surprise as it is.
I hope to have prepared sufficiently for both worlds. I've got many tasks in life to be accomplised.
Time has always been the biggest issue.

oh yes, I've been thinking about MS again. give it a rest. about time.

#446

Photos of us during the "marathon"
We jogged all the way to Bottle Tree Park to have a short rest on the swing
That's her being so chubby
I could not possibly sit at the other end, the see-saw gonna break in no time.


Have stopped drinking coffee for almost 3 weeks now.
Replaced with non-fat powder milk.
It has been a smooth transition until now, right after lunch, my eyes just could not open. I cant find other alternative than caffeine intake...urgh!
I think I shall go for a power nap...

I think I have to drink lots of water - more than usual.
The heat is hitting me so bad, been drinking alot but have been going to the loo lesser these days.

Each time I reach office, im drenching with sweats.
The aircon temperature is already at its lowest, but of no help.

I've yet to upload photos of me and Ezzaty on Vesak Day.
We jogged, exercised and briskwalked for 3 solid hours...bravo!
She's loving it...

#445

It was an emotional day to start the week.
H confided in me of what was happening between him & M, somehow i could understand why he took it this bad.
Worse, he had decided to leave soon - giving notice of 24 hours!

Im gonna lose another good pal.
He should not be here in the first place.
His efforts go unappreciated and with his qualification and experience, this company does not deserve a good employee like him.

HE DESERVES better...all the best, friend!