SIGH!
Jess pissed me off again today.
I thought I wont have to deal with THAT nonsensical attitude anymore.
called me to ask for help but as usual always end her conversation with sarcasm.
it's not her style, im sure about it, she just want others to share the blame...urgh!
as for today onwards, im not gonna pick any calls from her!
and poor Y has to bear with it....

well, summary of last week...
On saturday, I rushed home to pick up Ezzaty for Al-Irsyad's carnival.
such a letdown, very few stalls despite the many months of preparations.
I could not find anything to buy to utilise the coupons...
finally decided to purchase a Muslimah swimwear for Ezzaty and some brooches for myself.
we headed to BK @ Raffles Place, to spend time together like we used to have.
Sort of a compensation for her, i just could not hang around any longer at the carnival, with the rain, muddy soils, all the negativities....so i thought it would be great to treat her there, she loved it!

After Magrib, left to visit our aunt with Alia, Ani and the nephew and niece even Nurun, the maid came along.

Honestly, it was not the time to gather around to pick up the pieces and recollect all fond memories.
somehow, we had a heart to heart talk, my cousin EVEN confided in us of her trouble and her constant feud with her sis....if only we had been closer like before...if only we had that talk when my aunt was well, if only we were more forgiving. To forget and to move on....

Praises to HIM, my aunt is getting better, she could sleep longer,a s what Mak mentioned this afternoon.

Thanks to my other cousins who had painstakingly brought her for medication before her condition worsened,
Thank to Him, we stay united in time of pain and sorrow.

Sorry Nana for not turning up at your function,
your invitation came abit too late, we had other plans.
Next time maybe, hopefully the next time call us sooner....

Last night, I rushed to KT for the training session with Y.
Shall not go into details the things which made me mad before i left office.
Had some outstanding issues to solve, so far no call from Y, so everything is in order.

I reported to Mimi about the training and evaluate Y accordingly.
and also about J, should do something about her attitude.

Had an hour or so of meeting on the Mgt report and the housekeeping updates this morning.
I hope when I would be fully incharge of the accounts, S would be more helpful.
she could not accept excuses, no matter how reasonable they may be.
hmmm.....other than that, life has been a breeze at work - im still in honeymoon period....enjoy it while i can.
2 weeks time, back to business.

Had lunch with Leli, it was on me. no special occasion, i just felt like sharing. i was on cloud nine since morning, things had been great lately.

In return, a gathering with SY & SH @AMK Hub after work. Both paid for my meal.
and upon reaching home, Ani had ordered PIzzas to celebrate her increment! YUMMY!!!

Keberkahan hari Jumaat, a small deed being paid double, :-)

Me & Ani vsited kak nia last nite.
reached NUH almost to 8pm, lucky we took the cab.
Kak Nia looked well despite her swollen face - i guess she should be able to deliver soon.
I was so tired upon reaching home, almost to 11pm.
Affected my concentration in the office, I was having terrible headache.
Took a nap during lunch break so that I would have the energy for the rest of the remaining hours.

Called off my appointment with Y, sorry Gal, I was just too weak to conduct the training,
Could not wait to reach home to break fast - tomorrow shall be my 3rd day, Insya-ALLAH.

On monday, me, Kovy & Dolly went to Kaplan Cuppage to collect our transcripts.
both of them will be registering for the degree program in Oct.
I have to postpone due to my new jobscope.
need to settle down, at least till the probation period is over in Jan.

I would be 4 modules behind them when i enroll in April next year.
:-(

Sunday started early doing the norms - breakfast, reading BM, playing with Najmi and listening to Sandiwara Radio.
It has always been like these, only diff was then I had to play with Ezzaty, now that she's all grown up, she's on her own most of the time. Made plan to pick Ani to attend Cik Ram's wedding invitation @ Serangoon North. And fulfil Mak's wish to visit Cik Odah. Going back to our old flat brought back fond memories. Seeing our marble flooring and the pink gate-still the same....I miss those years.

Najmi was all excited to be out and met Azima, his other sister whom he adores greatly. should see how he hugged and kissed her like nobody business-lovely!He had not slept since morning, we wanted him to stay awake on way home so that he could have his dinner, sang to him and entertaining, all in vain. he could hardly open his eyes...

Received sms from Kak nia, could not believed what she had sent.
She was hospitalised since Friday night. Her waterbag had burst. She's due in October, that's way too early.
She has not delivered yet. I hope nothing serious and pray for both Mother & baby are well.
Should have informed earlier, we could have visited her then.....

ONE MOMENT IN TIME...sweetest :-)

Felt great after letting it out.
I may not make any sense, it seems like im getting it at nobody.
I guess I had endured too long to keep my sanity to the next level. WHATEVER!

Last night was great, spent time together with Ani watching our favourite videos and didnt realised it was already ONE in the morning. Time passed without you realising.

I shall miss doing this with her in time to come.
So for the time being, whatever limited time we have, shall prioritise on our favourite pastimes.

This time we were punctual for class. We took the train and bus 25. As suggested by our young makcik. I signed up for both me & Mak for the SATA health screen next week @9-10am. Mak should be for free since she will 55 this year but has not celebrated her BD yet so must pay $5...hehe...kak supiyah emphasized must adhere by the rules. I was surprised to see how "semangat" kak supiyah...happy nampak!

It was Tasauf today, my favourite lesson.

I HATE COPYCATS!
people dont seem to change.
Then, Now and it will be forever.huh!

Ani was right last night. both of us knew it instantly.

Technology advances arent helping to make people realise that they are not living in their own world. others know if you are making a mountain out of a hill.

If you think you are rich, millions are wealthier than you.
If you think you are smart, millions are cleverer than you.
If you think you are capable, million are better multi-tasker than you.
If you think you are lucky, millions are far more fortunate than you.

so whats the big fuss about deserving THAT great job?
its just a crap for all i care.

All i know people dont talk big when they have it all.
The higher they climb the corporate ladder the humble they become.

Hi-Tea end of this month.
*hmmm, not a good time....really. its end of the month, can we really afford the time?
I hope so. I think it should NOT be a problem. they know better, yah.
ALHAMDULILAH-makan free, banyak songeh plak aku nie.*overconcern over nothing*

Eddris came to fetch me from work. SURPRISED*
I thought I heard someone called my name. *blur2 searched franticly for the source*
Or I might be hearing things since that dizzy spell came again. *Not Again*
Turned to my right and saw him standing there smiling.*priceless-though that slender figure had long vanished*
Reached home earlier than usual (yahoo!)

its being quite sometime I had a ride home.(i hope this could be a permanent arrangement-*wink*)

funny though how i spent the entire day figuring out which digits had gone wrong-out of places.
always wonder how the reporting task would be. the final product for the Management team to review.
so here I am doing the housekeeping on the data that had been updated by the finance staff.

its a tedious process, need to focus and challenge my analytical skill.
getting the numbers right is only the tip of the iceberg.
to report on your analysis and findings is mouthful and must always makes sense.
its not the yes or no, more to why, how and if its reasonable for the variance.

more to come, i dont expect the worst. i have seen it but from a different angle.

after lunch, we had our monthly brief meeting, on our achievement, future target, bla bla bla...
and our annual D & D end of august....everyone seems to look forward to that event. its my first year so i have no anticipation for the fun...i hope im gonna have a rolling good time. and best still, i hope to have someone to go with me...

The day started and ended unbelievably slow.
Orientation was fast.
Having to travel to and fro under the scorching sun, I was sleepy way before lunch time.

I was treated to a hearty meal at Pizza Hut.
Good chance to get to know my new superior better. (*really hope she would not be like ED*)
But the moment we reached office, its platonicly the subordinate-superior thingy.
Back to business. Learnt abit of here and there. had to start somewhere since the reporting for last month account was half way through.

Many things to be handed down these coming weeks. N was super busy. I was left on my own most of the time after a briefing - real brief. not too bad though, I was not lost. S had me prepared for the transition period in Oct07-shall not worry for that yet.

My good friend came in at the 'right' time.
I could not fast to celebrate 1st Rejab.

Still, it was a memorable Rejab for me. I hope it was a good omen.

Dear Friends,

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN REJAB

Thanks to Mirna for uploading this photo.
Me & my other colleagues from Indonesia & Malaysia who came for the congress in March this year.

We were late again for kelas agama.
This time it was purely unforeseen circumstances.
There was an unbearable road jam towards Lentor Avenue.
The driver even asked me if I was going there when boarded the bus.
It stopped every minute and made a detour towards Upper Thomson, avoiding Lentor Avenue altogether. totally a different route!

I am still clueless to what actually had happened there.

Though we had missed the first half of the class, it seemed we had not missed much.
Half an hour of remaining preaching was priceless.
Ustazah reminded us to perform sujud syukur whenever our prayers are answered or each time good things happened, expect ot unexpectedly. Thanks for the reminder, I just did that. I thought after accomplishing my nazar is good enough....I owe alot of good things in life to HIM.

May Allah bless me through my remaining journey in this life. Whatever it happened, may it be for the best of dunia & akhirat.

We headed straight to Compass Point to redeem the Popular Vouchers which Ezzaty had earned for that published drawing in Berita Harian early June. I thought being published was good enough to boost her confidence, getthing the vouchers was even BETTER.

Yeah, you can expect she draws even more and harder eversince.

Alhamdulilah
Im promoted to AM-Finance.
Im surprised but very pleased.
Never thought it will be this soon.
Effectively on Monday, I hope my colleagues will give their full support and assistance.

Probation period for the new role is 6 months
My performance shall be reviewed and appraised each month.
I will be learning the rope from sifu for the next 2 months.
I will be meeting other AM/GM/SM, what have you from the other branches for orientation in months to come.

Everything changes in days, im still in daze.

Thank you for the opportunity.
I guess the advertisities and difficulities that I had been facing are indeed helping me to prepare for this new challenge.

Im no longer have report to ED who is constantly making my life miserable.(Yes5x, hands up in the air)*
I hope the new SM would be a much better superior to report to.(*prays hard*)

One positive note - I dont have to chase for collection. someone else will be doing that.
Peace at last.(*wink*)

ALHAMDULILAH!

Allah had answered my prayers. I was not confident of getting it.
Had been praying that I shall leave it in HIS good hands.
If it brings the best for both worlds, help me to get it fast and easy.
And hope that I will know soon, dont even have to wait till Friday
And was so glad, it happened.

As expected She made things so hard for me, too hot to handle, harder than usual.
I didnt show my displeasure (who am I to do that to the Director),
tried to put on a nonchalant expression but deep inside cant wait for the day to end!

Y is smarter than I thought. Help to ease the burden. At least, she made me smile today, apart from the other good news.

HELPPPPP!

SHE SHOWED HER TRUE COLOURS TODAY!

Now i understand what Celeste had been trying to tell me.
and V & C were telling that it was not something new.
she did that to all and im no exceptional.

Another day tomorrow and she will not even spare me the agony, GOD!

it must be PMS. usually i dont get annoyed easily especially to strangers. good thing i could control my temper.
or maybe she called a the wrong time. just got back from work and was tutoring Ezzaty on her Arabic homework. Need to be fast on the coaching since she was dozing off to sleep and she called, trying hard to persuade me. Definitely not a person who can take no for an answer.

I dont blame you, Ina for giving her my number, its business after all.
im not interested, no matter how lucrative it would be.
i know myself too well, im not into that kind of business and i dont see i would be in the near future.
like many before, i would end up being the buyer rather the seller..sigh.

this week shall be a busy one, i have to complete all the important tasks in 4 days!
been coming home late, cant finish those during office hour and worst, Boss had been instructing via sms from her luxury home since she was not that well to be in the office these days. pestering me to expedite on overdues, way back before i joined, harrassing with her words of "MUST DO IT TODAY BECAUSE ITS LAST DAY TO SUBMIT" .

then why cant you be resourceful to do it ages ago, you know very well when and what you have submitted in your claims. must you wait till it was the last day.

Not to mention, auditor being bugging me for documents and queries, all thanks to the previous Shirley. SO unethical of her to discard all the infos that I had been consolidating and collating for her and then she left nothing to the successor. I cant blame Joey, she's in these mess because of shirley, i have to get the things for her. by doing so, im doing repetition task- what a waste of time!

okay, enough of the outpour and outburst. hope all goes fine for the rest of the days.

After long absence from the spiritual needs, I finally attended first lesson at Istiqamah with beloved Mak.
854 had just passed, waiting for the next, we were sure to be late.
I suggested we took the train to AMK and boarded any bus which passed the route. Took 73 and oops..had to alight way further, sorry Mak, she was out of breath the moment we reached.

Ustazah had not arrived and I was so glad we had not missed anything.
Lesson of the first week for each month would be Tauhid - a subject to get to know HIM, Almighty - the most important aspect of Islamic Studies.

Terkedu sebentar, benar2 insaf bila Ustazah keluarkan kenyaataan yang kita tidak harus habiskan waktu dgn benda2 yg remeh-temeh, melayan perasaan dan emosi pada stress kehidupan kerana usia kita di dunia yg fana ini sangat singkat.
Tahu2 dah di alam lain...yeah, lalai sungguh aku...:-(

Masaalah demi masaalah akan senantiasa menghantui kita kerana mereka yg beriman akan senantiasa diuji.

Tersentak seketika dgn kata hikmat itu bila fikirkan apabila segala ikhtiar dan usaha kita kadang kala berakhir dgn kegagalan dan apa yg kita ingini tidak kesampaian. Bukan bererti ALLAH tidak sayang malah dgn segala usaha disertakan tawakal dan keredhaan itu sebenarnya mendapat perhatianNYA. Yg selalu diuji itu selalu dalam pengetahuaannya. HE is with us and those adversities draw us closer spiritually.Eternity.

Tidak hairanlah kalau kita lihat mereka yang taat dengan perintahnya menghadapi byk cabaran - ada sahaja masalah.
tetapi sebalik kesukaran itu ada hikmahnya, there is a lesson behind and paling penting kasihsayangNYA untuk jaminan di akhirat.

sebaliknya mereka yg ingkar dgn perintahnya akan bertambah kesenangannya kerana usahanya itu tanpa Rahmatnya - esok lusa apabila kesenangan itu ditarik balik - dunia akhirat musnah. Nauzubillah. tidak mahu pertikaikan. Lindungilah kita semua daripada kemurkaan.

its been a hectic week. updating the sales was a drag!
Mimi came on Wednesday to conduct interviews, its the 2nd round and the response was not much different from the first. only 2 turned up. People dont seem interested to join us. Market must be good outside, jobs are abundance and so being a SMEs does not really interest them compared to MNCs.

we were keen to employ this lady, having few years experience working in UK and ACCA qualified But the salary she demanded was way too high (asking too much I must say...)AND she has to give 2 months notice to her current employer...just too bad.

So far only 3 were shortlisted, at last minute Joe wanted to advertise the position in Sat's paper. Cannot spend more than $500 and at such a short notice, I was glad Ras was the one who attend to my queries. Had to do it by noon, after compromising on the layouts and quotes, I had to decide on behalf of Joe (who really took his time to give the grren light)to have agreed to the cost and the layout....or else we will never make it on time.

Oh yes! while Mimi was here, Me & Ani took time off to spend half a day with her to shop. Mimi suggested Bugis around the place she stayed. It was supposed to be Mimi to shop giler, but i was the one buying liked some kinda tourist...heheh...cant help it, they were cheap and I really needed them. so it was a good bargain!

on a much happier note, WIPL called ten minutes before I knocked off. ( i thought i was invisible to them since I had submitted twice since last year)
She will call again on Monday to confirm the timing. I hope it will be once and for all - AMIN!!!

First day of the month AGAIN

Its the beginning of the month AND its the 2nd qtr.
I dread for these - it will be rush rush rush......
I thought I could complete at least half of the accounting entries, but due to the GST hike, some invoices had to be back dated and my June accounts could not be finalised...urgh. told Mervin tomorrow shall be the last day for the last minute changes. No further requests to be entertained after that. Or else there will be no end...

Ezzaty had gone next door for mengaji - Quran reading,
What she had learnt from school is insufficient, and since my neighbour is a qualified Asatizah at one of the madrasahs here and she does teaches children after school, it would be a waste not to send her there to brush up her reading.

I reached home later than usual, Mak was rushing to mosque for her Iqra lesson and in the midst of helping me to carry my grocery, she was fast to mention that Ezzaty was getting ready to start her lesson. Unlike her, she's the type who would wait for me to accompany her....a good change.

While waiting for Isyak, i am typing this entry and after prayer, I shall sit with Ezzaty for her spellings...Najmi was fast asleep, thankfully.

And then off for an early dream zzzzz....

GEYLANG SI PASAR GEYLANG

A marketing session with my significant 3...awesome thing to begin the weekend.
When Geylang market is concern, it will be serkups, tudungs, kuihs and bajus....!!
Thanks Ani for the treat at D Tanjong Katong - syukur, kenyang nya!
The kids were left under Yati's good care and buying and shopping was a breez :-)
Its a rare chance, to be together just the four of us.......but hope to do this again often,yeah!

I received 2 great news, 2 friends are pregnant. Congrats to Razz - 8 weeks and Dian - 2 months.
Razz's news came as a surprise since the last time I met her, there was no sign of it.
But Dian, I expected since she was away for MC and having colds/flu so often....

Tonite, the APMI Alumni had agreed for a gathering.
Kovy was late, I thought I had waited at the wrong bus-stop. Finally when he turned up, the bus had just left.
He was lamenting that it was wrong timing to have agreed to meet up since the accounts had to be finalised for closing next week. Yeah, speaking of which, next week shall be a busy week for me....its the Qtrly task AGAIN!

We were abit late but we more disappointed to find out only 4 of us turned up and poor pei Jia rushed down from office only to find we had left....I had promised to meet up with him and kovy around our area some other time since I could not afford to wait for him. He was mad at Dolly-she certainly had misinterprete his "ok' to me as though its ok for her to leave....hahah!

Had a good dinner though with the Dolly, Kovy & SJ at Pizza Hut - never had enough of pasta.

must be the GST credit thing that I could not even withdraw my salary, such long queues everywhere.

Lunch time was terrible, no one in the office - most of them were on leave, Big boss was on MC while the rest out for appointment...i had to wait for Gary to return, having my lunch at 2pm!

SIGH...I had to do some banking, so i didnt mind to skip my lunch as long as I could perform my zuhur at Raffles place.
really only to
drop some cheques, off to pray and its almost 3pm!

sent off Mimi to the taxi stand at Newton station, right after Ezzaty reached school. she hugged and I coud almost see her shedding her tears....its not forever, we will have many opportunities to spend together, if God permits.

i enjoyed her company the past 5 days and i sincerely hope she did not mind all the noise and commotion at home, special thanks to the Kids on the block...

she could have enjoyed a quiet stay in the hotel, but turned out to have endure a home filled with kids having so much fun, with or without guests around...cant say much, kids wil always be kids, you know what i mean.

I msn syazzy about my finding - that someone had opened up an accout in friendster and posted comment on her, lamenting her boredom to have stayed at home for 2 months now....hmmm...interesting to know that she had updated her profile so misleadingly. and uploading those photos, really shows how many friends she has...

the funny part was, her shoutout remarks highligted about sincerity in friendship.
speaking like an expert for the wrong reason.

I had the chance to show Mimi that person's profile last night, not elaborating in details how we are related..... Though Mimi was clueless on her character, she could guessed specifically the type of person she is.....

Looks can show and anyone can tell if you are good or bad...really, im not surprised.

i was speechless looking at pics of my cousin's daughter.
teenagers today,...i really dont know what's up with them, so different unlike those in my years.
the worst they ever got was the infamous Centrepoint Kids....

God forbids and protect the next generation, not becoming spoilt and ignorant.
My children are taught to live in simplicity, being preached always not to waste, appreciate whatever we own, no spurlging on the wants/desires, priorities on the needs and never waste on food...it's not wrong to work hard towards luxury even Islam encourage us to fight poverty but never to living in extravagance and wastage.

or else, they will never realise how fortunate they are especially when food matters. our brothers and sisters elsewhere have to constantly fight many hungry pangs - even for a piece of bread and a clean drinking water.

Mimi was showing me her return ticket to KL and realised that it was for tomorrow's departure. she sounded happy at first, thinking that she could skip team building but when consulted Joe, was asked to stay till Tuesday. she didnt bring enough office wear and she was abit embarrased to have extend another 2 days at my place...Joe even asked her to book a hotel room but at such short notice, he still had not learnt his lesson.

Went to Harbourt Front to purchase her ticket,called Mervin to confirm the place, alamak! it's located at Havelock Road, Great world city Copthrone by the Waterfront......gosh! i swear i heard harbourfront!
on a brighter note, Mimi took the chance to snap some pics at Vivo City, the Merlion from far and a glimpse of Sentosa. Tomorrow she shall has ample chance and time to explore more of that island.

Earlier on, there was abit of drama in the office, the issue of re-hiring C. Our Director, Mimi & C met up at Amara to discuss the possibility of C coming back if she is willing to change her attitude - she's not the people oriented type, treating adults like young kids, screaming & yelling and so political...just to highlight few of her many terrible acts which the rest had to endure .,..BUT her ability to excute her main duty was an asset to the company, that's why the second chance, and the fact that she could not adapt to her new companies, I mean its not one or 2 eversince she left, but close to 10! she's fortunate to have been offered jobs every one week....and not having the qualification and difficulty to communicate in English, her luck is something everyone loves to have!

oh yes! the pasture is definitely greener but the path which i have to go through is not much smoother.
im now looking out to a less rocky pavement to stroll along....... :-)

I was expecting a sms from Mimi as promised. Been checking my mobile every now and then since I left office. Nope, nothing.

I bought the Jalibean pancakes as promised for Ezzaty at SS and I thought this Cheena looking girl looked familiar, could not be her. Mimi had her hair to the waist, this one was ear length but the built was definitely similar -small & petite....I went nearer and it is her! she had been sms-ing me for the past hour and had been there since 5.30pm..! i checked her phone, the connection had gone haywire...poor girl! must be tired...she had gone to bed. told me she sleeps early....

Talked about her wedding plans when she was browsing through my wedding photos...
told her not to plan now, by then all the wants and desires would fade...fashion changes fast.

I was surprised to hear from Mimi that Jesslyn had actually approached our Director, even threaten to quit if C would ever comes back....Didnt tell Mimi that she has in fact been looking out for new job...if C will or not coming back, Jesslyn would definitely go. so what's the threat for....really! office politics...

i tried hard not to laugh at Jess. told me with so much eagerness that she had received a call on job offer as a sales manager. when i asked if nowadays she's been applying for managerial post, she hesitated but quick to inform that the call was a surprise to her. she had not applied any of that level, but the hilarious part was - she had to do sales on sanitary wares!

should see her expression when she exclaimed - how to sell that!? and why of all things i have to market sanitary stuff! and thinking about sanitary pad - i asked naively which brand would she be promoting, new or existing ones?!hhahahah!

maybe the photo which she had included in her resume fits their desription for a suitable candidate...
the more frustrated Jess became on hearing this and rolled her eyes with dissatisfaction.....its really weird how these people manage to get hold of her contact details....

and of course, she had no intention to apply though she had been sending resume, applying jobs for almost 6 months now.
it could be her luck....but then she's being picky too.

Is being truthful a sin?

People would always tell me ooh...
you dont have to be so frank. you dont have to tell her all that. you cannot do this and that.

And I thought we are supposed to be open on things which you are comfortable at, things which you would like to avoid. saying yes to everything is not a breeze. at the end of the day, you cannot hide, pretending to be someone you are not supposed to be and cause many inconveniences due to your false testimonial.

I cannot do this and I dont like to do that.

so if you think Im not compatible, far from competent and almost redundant...be it.
dont force me to do things which I was not told in advance and expect the best from me.

Getting a hotel room for the weekends with that kind of budget is a problem.
The one we are getting is around the red light district - who would want!

so I offered one of my rooms since we have 4 rooms, one being on and off accomodated by the children.
I didnt think Bridget would think it was a great idea but she was more than happy, even mentioned the company shall pay me accordingly for putting up Mimi at my place. i was like wow....didnt think about the money factor at all. I was sincerely helping to get things done smoothly and not wanting my pal to be placed in any kind of place which would endanger her....okay, Im being unreasonable-singapore is a safe city but hey its better to be safe than sorry.

I would be seeing Mimi in the office on Thursday and she would be my housemate till Sunday Morning.
Mak voluntarily give up her room and will sleep with either Mun or the children. Yati will sleep where Najmi would.
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I left for work abit later since I had to purchase a cashier order. I had this feeling that the forms that I had downloaded from the website is abit odd, so many to fill in. but then thats what the helpline's instruction, i followed accordingly. even if i called them personally, the answer would be simply 'you may check at our website for details'. The CSO handling my request didnt mentioned anything except for collection only after 11am the next morning, so i thought everything is alrite. in the afternoon, received call from the bank that I had submitted for 2 applications to be verified..I was like ..the staff and the website need to do something about handling customers' requests...
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hmm...the closest I could get for No-brand label
Najmi could not stop calling for his Ayah
getting ready for to set off
Berjaya Times
my loves
leaving KL
@MaryBrown Ayer Hitam

dinner in our rooms - In House chef was superb, thumbs up!
love my Special fried rice

waiting to be checked in
from Mak's room's view..dont feel sleeping there, i could slip in to sleep with them
lepak session

we are back! maybe i kinda know KL too well that this time it was not really that fun. or maybe Bukit Bintang was just not the kind of place for us. no doubt that the hotel we stayed at was surrounded by so many plazas, BB, Lot10, Berjaya TIme Square, Imbi, Sungei Wang...we were at the Golden Triangle but shopping was not a thrill. didnt get what we wanted, we bumped into only one pasar malam....but then Food was superb and both rooms were connected that we felt so comfy just to laze around.

waiting to check in was half an hour late due to some who checked out late...but we appreciated the hotel's effort to ensure our rooms were side by side and bravo! we unlocked the door and 2 rooms became one.

Left home on sat morning @ 4am, reached Melaka for breakfast at 8am and finally KL at 10.30am, roamed around and had our lunch before checking in. spend the entire evening resting, and then the hungry pangs, called the room service for our dinner, the food was like i said, really yummy.......and after Isyak, we went for late shopping.....

we had missed going Melaka due to my excellent map reading!boo hooo,,,,,Mun was asleep then, she's good at road navigating.
we stopped at Ayer Hitam, before spending the few hours in JB, for Mak's reflexology session....hmmm...

waiting for the early morning to come, slowly but surely.
very restless cos everything is ready - bags, drinks and early sleep for our chauffeur.

on our way to Melaka and KL, 7 of us in our mini caravan.....
wish that all of my sisters, nieces, nephew & bro in laws could join in...it would be better - more fun and more shopping kakis.

update after the trip, yup!

Royals reunion

King & Queen of A Day


Prince & Princess of Perak


see the similiarities, apart from the royal connection?

we were in whites & gold, the daises were golden, Princess & Queen wore veils, Prince & King with songkoks, Queen had diamond ring on, Princess was about to have, King was shy, Prince was blushing and both Princess & Queen could not hide their happiness.

While Prince & Princess will continue to stay in the Royal Palace, the King & Queen of A Day moved out from their Hougang Kingdom to live happily ever after in a smaller state in Khatib. They have since govern a much smaller kingdom and live in simplicity. Snow white and the seven dwarfs are their closest neighbours...hmm, i dont c the connection to this tale, anyhow *The End*.

facelift

Nice? I love the layout. Thanks Mun, knowing that ur sis is useless in this, you didnt mind do it for me instantly. I remember telling you once that i need to change my blogskin. good girl, this weekend I belanja u, okay.


who cares to care when nobody cares
who bother to care when nobody cares to bother

anything but work

Let's not talk about that 4 letter word - WORK.
already so stress up about it for 5 days a week.
i want to keep my sanity after office hour,can?
(as if people care)

Been reading other people's blogs - friend, a friend of a friend, on line buddies, husband's niece, cousin, cousin's besta friend, sister's schooldmates, sister's colleagues...sounds like Im such a kaypoh, but then why bother to blog if you want your privacy.

Interestingly I seem to know them well though I have never met most of them.
Their lifestyles, their likes & dislikes, habits, charateristics, manners, loves, hates, devotions, addictions, hopes, desires....
I read religiously blogs that are mostly penned down by working adults, teenagers' thoughts are only from my sister's closest besta buddies.

I learnt if not alot, at least to appreciate what simple life has to offer.
you have control over your own lives, stop taking the blame and never blame others.
Bads are from your own mistakes, the goods are HIS gift.

I know that Im not making any sense here. Welcome to blogging world. World with no boundary and people are full of nonsense.
Chao! Time to spend with my other pal - Teevee.

endless

The waiting is killing me.

I have sent an email to JE that I would be dropping by her office in the morning since I have to do some banking around her area. It would be a rush to meet up during lunch time. Killing 2 birds with a stone if she agrees to my proposal - she replied okay!

Im always facing this kind of situation.
when will it end? or am i simply impatient, thus having to go through this time and again.

On a better note, DW sent me the letter of achievement to verify that I had completed FM course. The scrip would only be ready in July.

So Monday

Before I could enjoyed the peaceful and quiet moment executing my task, Q called to verify certain matter.
And not long, he emailed to request for the May accounts. And I thought he didnt need it since last month he didnt even ask for it. Had to expedite the COS figures and the stupid pc was so slown! Took me 2 hours to update and I had to apologise to him for the delay. I had nothing to hide, the system went haywire.

Lunch time was the best for the day. Mike was back from his appointment just the right time for lunch. I could have an early lunch with Jess & him. We decided to lunch in. Mike bought for us. He was forever obliging.

We talked, we ate and pampered ourselves with the chocolates and read the papers. Just 3 of us in the conference room, Boss was not around but we werent the opportunists, exactly an hour of meal, we were back at our seats.

Back to work and I was so sleepy, msn my niece Nana, so sweet of her to entertain this old aunt of hers.
Time seem to pass so slow, and when I thought i had done them all, many were still untouched.

What's wrong with me?! Eversince I let out my problem on the collections, I was not having a peaceful time at work.
something seems to bug me-demotivated and I felt so useless.

I had just completed my Isyak prayer but that feeling just would not go away......
Oh Allah, please show me the light, I need your guidance so badly.

I called my SIL just before knocking off. Decided to meet since we were in the same area.
I waited for her at the train station and she accompanied me taking the JW route.
It was a longer route for her, so i appreciated her time to be with me.
Lots to talk about, it's been 5 years and I could see her sacrifice is finally paid off. Alhamdulilah.

090607 - my pinky gal's day

All these pictures tell it all - the fun & excitement we had for the Pink Party.
Its the Pink theme - Only Pink Panther is missing! Even Ayah & Najmi were supportive to put on almost to the colour.

Sharing the joyous moment is Yati, who celebrated her 24th Birthday on 04.06.07 - she was shy and hestitate to be part of it, even blushed when we sang her a birthday song in Bahasa Indonesia.

I love the cake, the tiara and wand were so useful - everyone wanted to have a piece of it.
Check out more pics at www.noorhasana.multiply.com

so yesterday

adorably young kiddos
On rai's wedding, the last time I met Kak Milah
baby najmi
Syawal 06 - Like father Like son
oct 06 - Najmi so small
sep 06 - ezzaty so chubby

right here waiting

I sent email to Mimi to find out the outcome. Im neither here or there. As such, I dont know what type of leave to apply - annual, unpaid or childcare?

She was not sure about our employment act on the entitlement of childcare leave, I have to specifically indicate to her. SIGH.

And I dont see what's taking them so long...it's either Yes or NO.

reshuffle

I have yet to receive news from HR.
I have raised my concern on some areas of my work which caused me to suffocate.
Caused undue alarm to my Head and of course my immediate extended superiors in KL.
Told Mimi that I cannot afford to wait cos my probation period will be over on Friday.

They are reviewing my job scope, if there is a need to hire someone to assist me or better still, give me a new portfolio.

Monday Luck

Its beginning of the month, and I had rushed for the closing. Extra rush cos Mak is having her Iqra lesson every Monday.
But Mak was not going, I had discouraged her since she was not well and was complaining of dizzy spell.
I think she had the symptom of stomach flu, since her annual checkup is scheduled this Thursday, I shall remind Mak to inform the specialist. if it was the side effect of the chemo or sumthing else.

My mind is at ease, at least for now. After I had consulted twinny, Celest & Mimi, I am confident now with my next big step.
You can say it was a last minute decision, Celest had been encouraging me but I thought to wait and see.

Ezzaty's drawing was published in today BH. Had a call from the journalist on this a week ago, to confirm the latest data (school, age, class) since it was submitted last year but due to the overwhelming response, her drawing could only be selected this year. I could not remembered what she had drawn but it looked nicer in the newspaper than the original one.

Moon was screaming real LOUD calling out my name from her room, I thought Najmi, Mak or Ezzaty had a mishap.
Turned out that She had won a pair of tickets to APM - and I would be her chaperon this time. *wink*

she is very lucky when tickets to show matters, this would be her 50th time???!

Can you pass some of your luck - I wanna win a condominium, at least.

shrek3 with 2 kids

We had promised the kids to watch Shrek 3 on Vesak Day, somehow we didnt keep that promise, not yet.
It was heavily raining, and the best place to laze around was definitely home.
Days went by and the kids are eagerly waiting for the day.
This morning, I woke up and was surprised to see Ani, Azimah & ezzaty were all ready to go for a movie. Mak advised that it would be good to catch a movie early and have the rest of the day working on other things.
We reached GV and the first show of the day had started 10 mins ago. Ani wihout wasting anytime, bought the tickets and off we set to the theatre. Our supposedly seats were taken by others who thought there were empty, many other seats were available, so no point wanting them. Good thing was we got nice ones, the only four there-cosy & private! hehehe....

The show was expectedly hilarious, most importantly the kids were enjoying themselves, and we kept our promise.
We headed home straight, Ani wanted to bake cupcakes and I was rushing to prepare for lunch. Mak will not be cooking today.

Last night, we went to Mak's cousin's wedding reception.
We didnt bring the invitation card, the address was locked in our head but failed to note that it had indicated the venue was not exactly nearby her block. went to the wrong wedding reception, everyone looked at us with that pity kind of look. the host even lamented that we were not the first people to have come there by mistake.

I met my distant relatives, i remembered them but they have no recollection of me & Ani, somehow I could clicked and chatting away with them and thankfully i could enjoy the food, unlike last week. :-)

weekend gallery

2 makciks having fun
sister's acts
Mak at one of the 2 weddings we attended on sat nite
Najmi was unsure why he had to attend just to watch pple eat


No doubt, the heat had caused me to fall ill.
I didnt realise that i could not take the heat well.
was out to orchard road after collecting Ezzaty's record book.
she did not fare that well, both me & the form teacher agreed it was due to her long absence from school.
her result was a letdown, was expected to achieve better. Her teacher requested me to obtain a certified letter from our GP so that she could be excused from PE & CCA. Her immunisation system is low and worsen with her motion sickness, it would be better that for the time being, she stays indoor and focus on her studies. on the good note, the teacher had praises for her that she was obedient, participating and one of her bright students :-)

From her school, i met up with Ani & Azima at CK Tangs. we had KFC before proceeding to Forum Galleria - Toys R Us.
both kids had fun mingling with the toys, we didnt buy any since they had a storeroom of toys, dolls, musical sets..what have u!

thought of catching a movie but then my head was giving me problem.
went home and true enough it was the beginning of me having another attack.
it was so hot on that saturday, could hardly open my eyes. and the heat was as if penetrating my hijab!
was so sleepy once i reached home and felt so weak after that. came the breathlessness, terrible heachache and lost my appetite just like that.

forced myself to attend weddings on the saturday nite and sunday afternoon.
was okay initially but threw up on the last venue. decided to stay in the car with Ani accompanying me -thks!

the first time ever i could not enjoy the food - everything tasted horrible and nope, i am not expecting.

late payment

more than a week, so many things happened, so many things to tell about, so much to share.
ups and downs, good and bad, happy and sad..huh!

my health has been failing. was given another 2 days mc to recover.
that spinning thing wont go away. i could not eat, just felt bloated up and yes i would throw up whatever i had taken.
was told that i was suffering from gastric flu and that irritating spinning, dizziness and breathlessness - signs of stress.
i try not to think much about work after office hour but cant be help, even had nightmare.

and the sad thing was, my effort to meet dateline failed, being the slacking one, Q had sent the cheque late (already past the due date) and I was then on a week mc, so by the time it reached the authority, it was already a week late and we were penalised SGD131.00.

Q had the cheek to tell me he was disappointed that it happened and hope that in future I would not delay. oh my god!
should had realised that he was the cause! i guess he wanted to emphasize that I made it happen since it was the first time the company had to pay late payment charges.....what's done cannot be undone. lets see who will remind who next month.

35 2 fast b4 29?

Najmi was very puzzled!
that happy face!

that yummy mango!

pictures of our old man celebrating his advance birthday.
of course, he was surprised to see me with a Mango cake, the day is a week away. 29/5.

im not one kancheong wife, had this craving for cake so why not have an early celebration. timing was perfect, Ani & Azimah dropped by, the more people the merrier!

didnt give his present, reserve that for the actual day.
Ani & Mak gave him a wallet though. (another coincidence)
so happen Ani had it wrapped for the day ..never mind, give him now.

Happy 35th, senyum2x selalu and may Allah bless you with the best.

runaway

i want to start life somewhere. not here for the time being.
not that i am sick to be a singaporean, to be here all my life.

i just need to be away for a while to keep that love alive.
distance makes the heart grow fonder, so i wanna miss my homeland. and start whining to return. *hugs & Kisses*

been having that thought for quite sometime and am seriously looking into it.
so bored with everything here.

btw, Juff, any vacancy for me?
i shall do skydiving too, to keep my sanity.

your complaint is my gain

SIGH!
Only Allah knows why I was choosen to be here. almost 3 months and i am still clueless.
No doubt that its like in a training centre - internship.
Getting paid to learn. that's the good side.

The ugly side of it - Everything is so overwhelming and everyday is a new shocking experience for me.
On the surface, being in this industry looks promising, stable - perfect. yeah, perfectly terrifying for someone who is not used to getting mad at something.

Firstly, I was surprised by the working attitude of some staff in the supposedly customer orientated environment.
providing service but yet they are the most nastiest CSO i had ever encountered.

Monsters, evil creatures and awful aliens, whatever, never fails to make my day so lousy but somehow i felt good today.

Feeling satisfied having to hang up on her - she thinks everything gonna work for her.
one wrong step and she complains to the top. always using her bully tactic to complain to the big boss, today i fulfilled her wish.

i even helped to direct her call to our head. Thinking that she could make me pay for getting back at her ugly manners- so wrong, we work as a team here where money is concerned.

and i could sensed her disappointment when she found out i was not even being told of her complaints...hahah!
i guess she had wasted her 20 minutes of telling tales....should have utilised that time to have a cup of coffee instead, yeah?!

you shouldnt treat others like a trash.
wont kill you to be well-mannered even if it was just for a second.

not okay

a week away from work is not a good sign. i was not getting enough rest. Mak was terribly ill, I mean real serious that she was on bed all day, eyes tightly closed. too drowsy to stand, too nauseaous to eat and too weak to talk. i have been going to the family GP every alternate days. for myself, ezzaty & najmi. Thank God, Mun is big enough to handle on her own. everybody is infected with the virus except yati and eddris.

Both children are very cranky. Taking turns with Yati to keep Najmi company, I had been carrying him all day for a week. When the dizziness strikes, i get Yati to take over though he was crying his lungs out, not wanting to be away from me. i ignored him for awhile to get a breather, could faint anytime. the 2 additional mc was given due to the black out i had on my way to office on Wednesday. My colleague discouraged me to report for work, i supposed there was not much work and yes, not to spread the germs too. it would be alot of trouble to be fainting in the office, too.

Yati handles most of the chores while i attend to the groceries and cooking. I know im still not fit 100%, after doing all that, im sweating profusely and trembling with pain. Not sure how long this will last. im getting to work tomorrow. somehow, my mind is occuppied with all the outstandings. it was not easy to have a complete rest. cries and coughs filled the air, getting Najmi to sleep is a big challenge. and getting all of us to be well again is a blessing.

today is my 3rd sis in law 36th birthday, wished her via sms, throughout my 8 years of marriage, i dont have the chance to celebrate my in laws' birthdays. i guess its the norm. okay with me. it works out just fine so far.

not fine with me

First, i cant blog since Friday. i dont know why, but it is infuriating each time i try to sign on.

Secondly, since saturday, i was feeling feverish, on and off and it lasted longer each time after taking the panadol.
by monday, my condition worsen and yes, i was badly infected, given 2 days mc to rest and it didnt get matter any better.

i spread the germs to my babies, now both are down with high fever. 3 patients under one roof.

Ezzaty could not take the heat, her eyes were so swollen that you thought she must have been involved in a fight. she developed rashes too, and some might guessed that she had some allergies to the medication. Her temperature had soared to 39.9c once, sponging her took alot of effort, it dried up so fast that you were changing the towel liked every minute.

Najmi was not much better, he threw up every now and then, refusing to eat. He's not the chubby kind and with no appetite, he sure will shrink into a smaller size easily.

I hope it will only affect 3 of us, not to the rest of the family.
We are recovering and i hope to be well again to start work tomorrow. work must be piling up on my desk.
but my colleagues had advised me to go for another MC and stay at home since Boss is not around.

Health is important, work is too. It's hard not to worry.
but like the saying goes, you can only have one health but work, is easily replaceable.

rest well, recover fast and worry less.

ladies' nite

Yeah, me & ani will be meeting our pal Noreez for lepak session tonight.
Initially it was just for a coffee but changed to have a comfort corner at Far East Square. Its friday by the way. bleh lah lepak giler lama2.

harap2 tak sesat nanti, tgk map cam dekat gitu..
Thanks to Jess for e-mailing the brochure.
Another place to add on the makan list.

My working relationship with her had improved tremedously after that day we left home together. She even confided in me about her worries. I guess I was not used yet to her kancheongness. she meant well with all the naggings.

boss will not be around the whole week next week...:-)
I can do my work in peace and harmony - Gracious!

Five5 2Dad

Today is BaBa's 55th birthday.
Though we have not even once celebrate this supposedly joyous day, we have never let that date slip from our minds.

I have never imagined how would it be. meaningless to.
Since we were young we have never had the privileged to wish him let alone giving him presents.
The absence of father figure had long existed.

And we have long accepted the fact that we have to stand on our own feet, then, now and maybe forever.

Nevertheless, Selamat Hari Lahir BABA. Semoga Allah rahmati hidupmu.

Ann Rule(S)!

yes, loves!

had plan to Far East this weekend as suggested by Sulas to hunt for my fav collections of Ann Rule.
It came earlier than I thought, no, didnt manage to be there, it was by pure coincidence that i got them.

After a long queue at the local bank nearby i was told that i could not cash in for corporate account.
yes, i wasted an hour or so but getting mad would not get anything done.
had to travel all the way to Raffles place, ALHAMDULILAh, maybe it was lunch hour, was 2nd in queue.

Decided to try my luck at OUB centre for that buy-rent bookshop, dah berabad jugak tak kesini.
yes, itsSTILL there and yippee! found more than 2 latest editions of Ann Rule's collections.
i bought 2 which cost me $25 dollars - being one is returnable and exchanged for $6.50.

On my way to Moulana MOsque since i would not make it to office for Zuhur.
Guess what, met Hafidah and Hanizah - the twins on 2 separate occassions to & fro the masjid!
Exchanged numbers with both since it's been quite sumtimes since we last met.

kembar katakan, both asked the same thing.
Both thought i had long stopped working and was surprised to see me in town.
i had to explain the same thing twice :-)

His colleague's wedding

we attended one of the 2 invitations. one was from the groom which we had fulfilled while the other was the bride which was held in Marine crescent that we choose to skip. both are Eddris' colleagues but some how we decided to honour one- the groom whom i had met on his engagement day.

i love the pelamin, cant say what so diff about it - maybe the resort touch.
the food was not oily, i enjoyed the rendang but i was irritated by the guests sitting near us-puffing away the cigarrettes.
smoke got into my eyes...and horrible smell.....cant you all wait to puff somewhere in the open??

thank you for being a friend

yeah, i have 2 blogs to update now.
not that i am too free but so far i can manage blogging 2 sites. its fun!
i think its important to reserve time for yourself to do things you enjoy.
yeah, work can never end, busy is the best excuse for not having time to do this and that.

this reminds me of my friend R, we used to exchange emails and smses, not till she had a boy after almost 8 years of marriage.
all she talk is about her son as if there is nothing else on this planet to speak about.
i try to minimise any contact with her. I would not reply any of her smses and even did not informed her of my new working place.

there was once, she asked me about this actress, who was she, what shows she acted and which channel was the sitcom being telecasted. so I explained only to be so pissed off by her remarks.

"ohh! u ada time nak tgk tv?? i dah lama tak tengok tv sejak ada anak i nie. mane lah ada time, dialah segala2 nya"

i could conclude that either she was bragging about how devoted a mother she was or just plain stupid not knowing how to manage her time wisely! even a SAHM has quality time alone with her husband (right, yati??!) - a matter of making effort.

and the most ridiculous thing i had heard from R was right after her confinement. she called to inform that she could not pray because she could not bear to leave her son alone!

these were some of the incidents, many more which really put me off. she forgotten that Najmi is my 2nd, I have had prior experiences being a mother to Ezzaty. but there she goes giving me unwelcoming advices....ENOUGH!

i guess i need no such friend like you - goodbye!

miss 2 read

I miss reading Ann Rule's books - real life murders horrors which happened in the States. Her recollection of those tragedies were amazingly terrifying.
Been searching in our National Librarys - could not find the latest.
Thinking to drop by the "rent-buy' bookstore but I could not find any nearby.

SIGH!

Not having anything to read on the train is such a waste.
The ride home seems so long, boring and dead.

my other name & career personality

Your Sexy Brazilian Name is:

Gisele Fontana

What's Your Sexy Brazilian Name?

Fuyoh! takleh angkat..call me FOntana

Your Career Personality: Original, Devoted, and Service Oriented

Your Ideal Careers: Art director Book editor College professor Composer Film director Graphic designer Novelist Stage actor Psychiatrist Writer

The Quick and Dirty Career Test

yeah, told you. i love books!!