inviting sunday

woke abit late than usual, sunday is suppose to be a laze-around day but has always full with invitations.
today we fullfilled an invitation from Mak and Ani's jemaah haji. yes, such occassion is the only best possibility to meet up.
it was in bukit batok, left home almost one noon. we had to wait for Ani since we were going together. Ani came late cos she missed 2 buses. mak n ezzaty were anxiously waiting for her at the void deck.

the host had invited many guests, we were standing to be seated. some of the guests were taking their own time enjoying the food. didnt had much since we were worried that we might be taking up someone elses' time. the place was so crowded that we had not really appreciated the decor. only remembered that each table had a candle stand and the chairs and tables were covered with white covers. back then, decor was much simpler.

we proceeded to kak nia's place which was a stone away, to return her textbooks. i had her kuihs and enjoyed the popiahs. performed our zuhur at Ar-Raudhah, its been a year since i last stepped into this mosque. tranquility overcame me while waiting for the rest saying their prayers. i showed najmi the praying hall and his eyes were curiously looking at every corner. he must have thought we were in some kind of paradise.

from there, eddris drove to SL, and while he left us to get a thumbdrive, mak doze off, me n ani chatted away about many things and i was trying to get najmi to sleep as well. ezzaty was busy playing games with my mobile and it seemed like forever waiting for eddris to return.

the last destination was Z's place for kenduri. me, eddris n najmi stayed on whie the rest attended since we were not invited.

only to few places and half a day had gone, next week we have 4 weddings to attend.
i may have to skip some of them if we dont have our own mode of transportation.
it will be much longer going by public ones.

Makcik OM

Received news that our former neighbour Makcik O was hospitalised. we knew shes mentally unstable and her depression level is very critical but thought it would not be any worse off than her normal hallucination. her former son in law confirmed that she had now refused to eat and her mind had gone blank!

Hard to imagine someone so sophisticated, always up to her nines and ever up to date with current affairs becoming a lunatic. visiting her on friday night opened my eyes that nobody could ever stop the powerful force from the above. if HE's willing, it happens in a second. never tired to say this 'everything happens for a good reason'

Makcik O in her midst of hallucinating, told Mak that she had made many sinful mistakes. putting blames on the righteous, telling lies-i think i should not elaborate. her condition is very disturbing-affects my emotion. i can't describe my feelings for her. she had it coming for the things she did to my buddy. he was tormented by her for years even when they were no longer living under the same roof. i know who was right then but in no position to chide her wrongdoings and defended him.
HE solved it all and showed that evil deeds shall be paid here and not in afterlife.

Its a lesson learnt that we should always be truthful, thankful and grateful to those around us and to HIM, of course.

Never wait for HIS punishment to repent cos it will be too late.
This incident is one of the many mishaps that i had witnessed.

Maybe thats why I cant be bothered with Makcik M anymore cos she's just like Makcik O.
HE will do what's best for you cos we have tried our best and i guess our best is just not best enough for you.

claiming my claimable

kind gestures - even a simple note of appreciation dissolve all agitatedness.
yesterday noon i received a chocolate (from Germany) from a staff who appreciated my effort for clearing his backlog claims. and today before a staff boils up for the need to re-approving process, i managed to do it for him and he emailed to say thanks.

i can understand their frustrations when their claims had to be thrown back for re-approving or rejection for not allowable. having to explain verbally is hard, so i email most of the time.

so far only one jerk has been a hard stone. he must have obtained Master in Public complaining, most of my colleagues had it from him. i will not entertain his email after that incident, shall forward to my superior to resolve.
i pretend to know nothing.

painless struggle

Digits, figures, balancing.
The whole day I was rushing like a mad dog on the street.
I will be half a day in the office tomorrow. One of the three involves in the calamities exercise. after lunch, set off to CW-at far end in the western side. And closure is round the corner. so everything have to be SUPERFAST.
no time to think-just do it RIGHT.

adversity?Challenges? staff claims - never knew it could be so frustratingly tedious.
betul jugak si Juff kata...Some of them attached hancur punya receipts!

Somehow i cant wait for my studies to be over.cant wait to have that mortarboard on my head. cant wait for that convocation. cant wait to see if that piece of paper will ever do any wonders for my career. it has always been a hindrance for me to apply for better post though in terms of experience i am qualified.

no degree no talk. I've got few more months before stepping into the final year in Uni.
few more challenging and testing months.

i hope when i have served the required period of time for the company (bout 18 months down the road), im eligible for the sponsorship-fully paid study course and only a year bond. :-) what a huge relief for my pockets!

im still at work, studying my errors due to insufficient teaching.figuring out how the amount came out to be that way. cant blame my teacher, she was taught that way, so generally thats how she passed down the knowledge to me.

i have to let her know tomorrow that what she had taught me was wrong.the one reviewing my scope is a fussy lady. i have no problems with that, getting right the first time is important BUT it makes me mad when she rushes all of us for her own benefits.

she gets to everyone's nerves with that attitude. i knew something was amiss when she poured out her dilemma of not able to stay up late during the monthly closure cos no one would be picking up her daughter from the childcare at the next block.

im here to earn a living and not to lend my ears for any agonies.
that personal conversation with her shall be the only one. i have drawn the line between professionalism and friendship. R has warned me to be careful, thanks. I know where its coming.

she asked S if i was studying part-time, seeing that i knock off on time almost everyday. S explained that was the reason why i cant afford to stay up late.
FM and my immediate superior understand, so i dont see her why the need to be calculative.

i know and i will play my part.when there is the need, i shall stay, i will not jeopardize the smooth operation here. i will work hard for what i am paid, money dont come easy, really.

as long as she dont go overboard, i will know how to manipulate any situation.
i have to be diligent as well...LIFE sucks when people not able to tolerate each other.

YL came over to help and taught me a shorter and accurate way...ALHAMDULILAH!

i finally can work without the worries of losing memory on economics issues.
finished my econ paper an hour before the timelines.i skipped partial of a question.
not worth to ponder about it.

now i wanna enjoy myself before business stats starts on 30 nov.

many plans had been scheduled, all had to wait for econs paper to be over and the time is now!

must think of many alernatives/ways to cheer Ezzaty up who had spent a week for her prepatory p1.
Eddris took charge in sending Ezzaty and attending the preparatory as well.
I cant take leave that long, grateful that FM had approved me of taking half day to sit for exam today and another 2 days when school re-opens for P1 enrolment. thank u so much!

this weekend will be good to have another girls' outing, but where huh??

semuanya hanya tinggal kenangan....

pics of ezzaty's k2 graduation, next to me is yati-ex-PHS.her daughter N is Ezzaty's classmate. Eddris was with his schoolmate too, his daughter studied here. Najmi going through teething period, was restless so Mak comforted him, wanting me to witness the ceremony-Terima Kasih MAK! 2 hours of celebration seemed short cos i enjoyed the performance by our young ones.hilarious, cute and innocent. tearful moment watching the slides..compilation of their days in pre-school.im gonna miss all of you, girls, boys, teachers and parents. the memories shall always remain.



i'll be very busy these days especially this coming Tuesday is my economics paper.
im rushing to touch up my assignment and start revising.not gonna waste anymore time reading text for knowledge,
im focusing on topic that im attempting to answer.

work has been smooth, though mistakes are unavoidable, it will be a forgiving month. newbies are expected to make mistakes and learn from them.hopefully im gonna master the rope in no time.
been going for lunch with Rossi-what a small world, she n eddris used to be colleagues. having been in the organisation for almost a decade, she gave me advice, an important one to deal with people around me.

last sunday was Ezzaty's graduation ceremony. I was emotional watching slides of the students-from nursery to K2, pics of their outings, in class, etc. Ezzaty n classmates performed last...she was fidgeting all the way with N, my former schoolmate's daughter,

oh yes!bro Juff had arrived in Nogales and commerced work on Monday-he seemed 2 enjoying life there! thats a good news to hear.

my life, my world, my joy and my constant worries

i dont know whats happening to me, im not being myself.
im not well prepared this time but its not too late to put things on track.

maybe i need a break. just like ct suriati...shes having good time in Bali now.
lucky her, being a stayed at home mum, enjoying life watching her little grow and spending time with family without worries of waking up to work, planning your leave so that it wont collide with month end closure and your colleagues leave schedule.
have i said enough? yeah i need a break.but not now, at least 3 months down the road when im entititled to pay leaves.
for now, had to settle down with the monthly JB trip. a short getaway from this busy life.

have to start drinking coffee to keep awake, honestly by 10pm, my eyes are so weak.
i cant do much in the day, always being interrupted by najmi and ezzaty...cant be selfish too, i have to focus on them eventhough my mind is somewhere in the academic world....they are awake,, its their world, they are asleep, its my world-so many things so little time.

tomorrow is ezzaty K2 gradution ceremony, after that im rushing for lecture,,this time in my baju kurung.

reading D's blog makes me want to puke! felt so nauseous.
y no?full of airs, fictionally untrue, truly hypocrite and highly superficial.
we know shes been lying from day one in her blog.
she never thought we would ever bumped into hers.
her lies being magnified in this cyberspace...im not the only one, her other aunties from her maternal side have been enjoying reading fairy tales. self proclaimed author.

i cant blame her really...i know her mum very well, she is what her mum had moulded her into. God forbids that anyone of us would follow her footsteps.

my request has been approved. im able to start and end work an hour earlier...what a relief.i dont have to rush for class and worry not reaching on time to sit for exam.

the study group gathering last night was great. dolly tried her best to assist me and encourage me and Kov to give our best.
she knew we were like slacking off. economics is a boring topic.

been trying my hands on the system.it shouldnt be that tough, though no doubt its time-consuming and tedious.
over the time, 3 of us would be able to execute the task like a pro. my mind is full right now-assignment, work, exam, meeting timelines...no wonder ive been having dreamless sleeps...

Monday was my first day at work.overwhelming cos the whole day was a honeymoon period.no commitment yet.
busy meddling the pc, setting up the network with the aid of helpdesk service. another staff had joined in, so i was not alone, being a sotong, exploring the place, going to ladies and pantry together, we will be in the same section, sharing almost the same work scope, only under different portfolio.

on second day, we managed to learn the rope from I, whose leaving to re-join her former company.
couldnt believe such a demure lady was actually from engineering background, switching to finance after had difficult times handling the senior technicians.

first time is always not easy. understudying to process the claims, many things to remember and yes, so many datelines to meet. and i pray for Allah's assistance in handling the task well.

tonite 4 of us will be meeting for the group study-i hope i can make it,

and today another new colleague will be joining our big family.

im leaving for office abit later, yesterday was a bit too early, some even thought my official time is half an hour earlier.
,,,,it all depends on the bus.

mayb in the future, i will be coming earlier than the official time, so that i would not have to stay that late for monthly closure.

i had to re-do my assignment.as expected Economics is not an easy module.
Lecturer exclaimed when i told her i had chosen market strucure- monopoly, it was wrong to quote that industry as monopoly. was told that it has no unique feature 2b classified as that market structure..ooooh! i have to burn the midnight oil AGAIN, revamping the example. i met up with her personally, getting details why i could not choose that industry, though it is the sole provider here. easy.there is a subsitute.i obviously had overlooked the fact.

before 11am, Fai's family came over, glad they made it earlier cos i was leaving around noon to attend lecture.
i have never understood friends sighing away when i have to attend lecures on weekends.
i felt the pinch today, me dressed up so casually with file and haversack, bumping into many in glamourous baju kurungs, no wonder i have never received words of encouragement...going to class while others enjoying,,,
takpleh susah2 dahulu, senang2 kemudian.

najmi had trouble sleeping, waking up before the time, he got bored and very noisy,
he was rolling in the playpen, necking up to see what we were doing.

im all prepared for my first day in new place. had ironed for a week wadrobe, everything is in place.
wonder if im able to get a good sleep later.

received Tiffany brooches from them as a farewell gift.
i was out distributing the documents, came back only to find sweetie CL messing my desk.
in the midst of placing the card & gift, i came abit too early for the surprise.

meantime, SHE (iron lady, a ncikname i gave afer finding out she is one shrewd lady)- wouldnt give me the chance to celebrate my independence day. passing me that remark was so unpro of her. not to mention revealed an idiotic side of her.

i pretended not having a clue to what she had been doing.she thought we were clueless.
im sure it will not be long that she will pay for her manipulative and scheming deeds. heartless!

im glad im leaving or else my heart will ache, my mind will not work and my morale will drop to its lowest level.
it had been slipping away, almost losing my sanity. didnt expect she could be this MEAN!

been out in the morning with twinny for x-ray, had breakfast at BK and then off on window shopping at PS.
it had been a while i shop around that area..so many things have changed. the buildings, the road structures...
i miss the old DG.

they gave me a farewell treat at wok express during lunch.
I left with CN first, to reserve seats and place our order.
it has always been easy to simply walk in and even choose a spot to dine but not today.
we had to wait outside, being like a pro, CN walked in, asked for the menu, ordered the dishes and minutes later, the waitress showed us the seats! thick skin or what...sort like jumping queue, but she did it so tactically, others did not seem to mind.
it was sumptuous meal, dishes ordered were just right, though CN had forgotten to order our favorite dish, the shark fin soup was a good substitute. I didn't enjoy it, really.

SH was in bad mood, she admitted happy for me but not that happy to celebrate my farewell cos she will be taking over my duties, double work, more tasks and heavier responsibilities. whats there to be happy about when there will be no replacement for my position. GM informed that few properties would be sold and so lesser accounts to look after. SH hinted that she would not be around after the year end bonus. im in no better position to support her decision.

have cleared most of my stuff, bringing home few things at a time,im thinking of leaving my flask and mug there...
had bought new and cuter ones for my new place :)

it was very busy busy weekends. preparing the dishes for Sunday gathering till the wee hours of 3 am.
it was a tedious job making roti terai, hundreds of them yet rewarding when people enjoyed them, not many pieces left. cooked the sweet sour fish fillets in the morning, yummy!just love the capsicums and pineapples! Mak offered to prepare the curry and fried beehoon,great relief!

vsitors were mainly my maternal aunts, uncles, cousins, nieces and nephews.
invited only bro Juff, my primary & secondary schoolmate.poor him! making himself comfy in the kitchen cos no place for him, his mum and nenek in the living room. after 7 years, about time to meet and catch up on our personal developments. my in laws turned up and as usual to end the day, Eddris childhood pals and families came almost Isyak.
avoided as much not to talk about delivery, i know A was so into it, cos it was her first time, sort of bragging her non-epidural and only 3 pushes! im not amazed....i dont want to put down the happy spirit so try hard not to listen and involve in the conversation...Najmi was extra friendly, posing for the cameras, puting on his sweetest smile to those who met him for the very first time.

okay, its time to focus on my assignments.just not in the mood yet.
syawal lasts a month, curbing my desire to visit more families/friends is a big sacrifice.

GM informed that I will not be getting my pay this month instead will be accumulated after deducting the 2 weeks notice in lieu till my last day, which will be on 3rd Nov. sounds compromising.its fine with me, cos last day of work, there will always be a hiccup.

met kak S on my way to perform Zuhur, she decided to join me before going home, was on half day MC.didnt have the heart to tell her im leaving this place very soon.invited me to her home tomorrow, told her if i would be around the area, shall drop by.

there's a possibility to visit aunt tonite, tomorrow shall be a busy day, me & mak preparing for Sunday since most of our relatives from uncles to anak buah coming over...

i guarrantee one family not coming over, all equip with nonsensical excuses, let them be. see how long they will able to retain their so called innocence(not your family Nana, in case you are wondering).

very sad, such people do exist in our society.

Ezzaty had to put on her baju kurung and bring a plate of cookies for Syawal celebration in school.
guess what?i had misinterpreted the note that school starts as usual before it was Ramadhan.
There she was waiting patiently with her ayah who is as usual twice as patient, for the school bus, not realising they were half an hour late.Mak had the urge that something was wrong and called CiK P, the bus operator.

Ezzaty was having thoughts not to attend but i encouraged her to go ahead since it wld be her last Syawal to celebrate there.
so off she headed to school on Ayah's motorbike, should see how high she had lifted her kain!

she returned home as usual so chatty, giving me 2 green packets from Cik P-for her and najmi.
happily informed me that her teacher was so fond of her vintage 80's baju kurung that she brought her to another teacher to pose! that teacher who is in charge of the graduation day, had made her promise to wear the same baju kurung for that big day...i thought of getting her to wear the lavender one, though.

i didnt expect others would appreciate my choice, it was not the in-thing material, i bought it because i had to think for ezzaty's comfort. must priorities Ezzaty's need before anything else.and i had purchased from the wrong vendor.so funny thinking about that.everyone at home gave the same remarks-huh?! so outdated ah...thats y i labelled our oufits as vintage and in the 80's it was the in thing!

both najmi n ezzaty spent hours of sleeping and napping-those late nights visitings must have tired them.
im still nursing backache and now my waist is giving me problems.
and i have to cut down having cold drinks..festive moods with hot drinks?just not my cup of tea.

heres the updates on our 2 days visiting,
Alia n family came in late evening on 1st syawal, before departing to visit our aunts in Bukit Batok, we posed for family pics w/o munyra.

I was on leave today to visit eddris family. slotted in to include Alia's in laws and 2 uncles of mine.
our last home should be eddris step sis but backing out when we found out her house was packed, really crowded with visitors.

2 of eddris sisters were not in, one was at work, the other we did meet up at his youngest aunt place.
started out at 1 2noon and reached home at almost 11 pm. from Jurong, to CCK and all the way to Toa Payoh..
my! glad our homeland is small, many places within a day, imagine if its as big as Malaysia..
oh yes!we are not going to Selangor for this saturday wedding, abit disappointed but the time is just not right.
we have plans to celebrate our future Raya there, hopefully next yr is the right time to start doing so.
we can balik kampung halaman eventhough its in the city area, cos at least there is a backyard for the kampung spirit.

EID MUBARAK MINAL AIDIL WAL FAIZIN!!

we are in the festive moods.
me & ezzaty in our vintage 80's baju kurung!
while waiting for Alia, we posed for few pics.
the day im looking forward to gather with my loved ones.

my goblet pleated curtains with the new paint colour. the design is abit odd, i try to break the conservative pattern, heheh,,,

yesterday and today were filled with hectic schedules.
Syawal is only days away,touching up and doing the last minute shopping are unavoidable.
went to causeway point around 11am yesterday with Ezzaty.last resort after not able to find suitable footware for her.
Mak always emphasize the convenience of purchasing all our needs around the area BUT too bad for few times, I cant find a nice pair of shoes. i dun want to drag till the last minute so i made the effort to travel all the way there. after going to 2 shops, i got her the shoes from BATA - the latest since it was not on display the weeks before,

went Metro to buy table cloth, thanks for reminding me Ez, we were heading home when i was alerted.
eddris did the last touching up on the walls, even painted the recess area, about time to change the all white.
so welcoming with the apricot.

me too, this morning was finalising on my curtains, i was having backache again sewing the ruffles.
maybe i should not think about curtains for time being, at least till my back is not giving me the pain.