mushy birthday bash

the emotional birthday boy!

3 princesses

overwhelmed by the attention

had to delay the celebration cos the cake had not arrived till it was 3pm.
and Nami was soundly asleep.
we were very hungry, its already lunch time and we could not wait for Alia.
so we ate up the satays which Twinny had ordered.

The moment Najmi woke up, we sang him a birthday song and served him the cake.
I think he was still very much sleepy..!!

just another day

IF paper is around the corner, I have got less than 10 days to revise.
for my case, its more to understand. pray for another miracle, just what happened to Econs.
at the last hour, i could then understood and made my way through to score-didnt expect to do well myself.

so God, please help me through this paper too, kind assistance in understanding the facts and attempt the right questions.
3 hours is not that long - pondering leaves little to write down the facts.

okay, tomorrow shall be another gathering with my sisters to celebrate Najmi's belated birthday.
no fuss at all cos Najmi has no idea what is birthday all about, making my task easier - to buy d cake.
no theme or fancy request from him. as long as we have a cake to highlight the celebration.

no decorations, no balloons, no games, no special appetizer..
will see how it goes tomorrow.

Ezzaty & Mun are busy right now painting one wall.
and im keeping myself busy on not important stuff - like updating this entry!

see ya!

happy 1st birtday - Ezzul Najmi

Today a year ago @ 3.30pm, Najmi was born after 6 hours of labour.



Selamat hari lahir buat puteraku.
semoga jadi anak yg soleh, beriman, taat pada perintah dan laranganNYA serta berbakti pada agama, ibu bapa, bangsa dan negara.

Selamat maju jaya dunia dan akhirat - AMIN.

Doa & harapan yg Ikhlas
Ibumu.

Selera serasi

recap on 25 February 2007- went to Hougang Mall after collecting the drill set from Ani.
Had not been there for almost 2 years. We were disappointed-still the same.

The day kicked off as per routine, I brought Najmi to the playground after his cereal breakfast & bath.
He was very quiet throught, sitting on my lap watching the other kids had fun.

Eddris wanted to have a family outing just the 4 of us, since Mun was down with fever and Mak was not in the mood to go out. felt a bit awkward going out with 2 lesser people.

Of course, we didnt know where to head to, nothing much in Hougang mall, we decided to have our lunch and i thought of the Serangoon market where most of the stalls were originally from Taman Serasi Foodcourt.

I had my fav roti john, since Eddris could not find any nasi padang menu, he opted for nasi lemak..
Though Mak was not around, Ezzaty had Mak's choice-Mee rebus.
We were like "are you sure?"

consideration

i was very determined to study tonight. Started @ 11pm, without fail being interrupted by Najmi, who was put to bed at 8.30pm. Awaken as usual for milk, it took him half an hour later to go back to dreamland. I had to rock him in the buai first cos he was tossing & turning in the playpen for the longest time.

have just completed my reading, not much. really, its a tough module this time. cant just memorise the facts, IF needs alot of understanding. urgh...i have not been so pressurised before. just want to get this through and complete the programme to achieve my ultimate goal - that mortarboard.

Kovy has been very thoughtful- having a great network of professionals, he thinks about me everytime his pals have job openings. I did not mention to him about looking for one except being complaining having lots to do at work, but maybe he finds me suitable to be matched since i have been in this line for more than a decade. though i had settled down, i have always kept my options open. past experiences had taught me a valuable lesson, never turn down cos it might be the one 4u.
NO HARM TRYING.

I welcome those recommendations with open arms. the ones which i find not so suitable, i get my other friends to apply.
a handful of them are seriously seeking. one being retrenched w/o compensation (after serving the company with so much loyalty for 7 long years), one not happy with the management and one always kena bully by the boss while the rest just looking around for that big break.

Im giving alot of consideration on one, it would be good if both parties could compromise. I would be able to put into use the knowledge i had acquired from the Business course. and i get to work much lesser on the accounting aspects. just have to wait and see how lucrative the offer would be - benefits & self development.

if only i had made known to Kovy before getting this job, I would not have looked like a beggar crying for help then. and ended up doing the process instead of the reporting stage. SIGH!

Like i have said before, it was a mistake to have asked A certain pple.
tough luck & unfortunate encounter.

my baby never looks good in RED

she was in her jovial & chirpy mood the day before, all happened so fast:(

yep! my baby girl is terribly unwell. her body was so hot & RED on Tuesday. she was in delirium. lips peeling dry, no appetite to even have a decent meal BUT her temperature was only 37.5c! funny yah? obviously her skin is not that thick.

I placed a kodomo icepad on her forehead to reduce the heat and gave her panadol syrup before she went to bed.
i was not thinking to send her to the 24-hours clinic since her temperature was not that alarmingly high and she refused to wake up, in her most sleepy and moody state.
as what Mak had mentioned, she was talking in her sleep.
Grandma was not getting enough sleep either, sorry!

brought her to our family GP d very next morning, he thought so she was not that seriously ill but nevertheless, gave her 2 days mc (yesterday & today) to recover. he's always very concern about children passing on virus to their peers.
making sure they recover fully before going back to school.

she's getting better today but still very weak.
will be fast asleep after medication and yeah, i have called the school that she will only return to school on Monday.
getting her another MC for tomorrow.

d changi affair

going round aimlessly, not a good weather to have a spin. witnessed 2 cars collided and an injured guy flat on the street!restless duo, feeding each otherhello?! where do we go from here?okay, a pic here to kick off
chilling out at macs
how about a pose after supper

aimless holiday

it would be a waste to spend another holiday at home. since we were not in the mood to do any major chores (um, like ironing, painting, repair & maintenance etc) it would be good to have a family gathering outside. Initial plan was to a park in Woodlands but it started to drizzle.

Earlier on, while Mak cooked nasi lemak and eddris brought the kids to Mcdonalds for breakfast, i did the cleaning up.
concurrently, we could save time and yes, we wanted to get all done before noon.
BUT Najmi was having his nap and he didnt wake up till it was 2.30pm. so you can guess, i was having my nap too since i was up from 3 in the morning, performed the Fajr prayers and fed Najmi after dat. was very sleepy. so we left around 3.30pm.

no specific place to head to, Eddris brought us around the west and stop at AL-AMIN mosque for Asar solah.
The praying hall is so spacious and the toilets & ablution area are so clean. we still had no idea where we would eventually spend the day, when Eddris exclaimed- to Changi Airport. What??!! okay no so bad huh...

upload the pics later, im encountering a problem...tried few times but it was urgh!!!

no perfect words

was up at 3am, forced myself to do revision, i know i wont be able to absorb much but its better than nothing.
as per norm thing, i must have music to accompany me browsing through the notes. DJs were not playing good selections, so had the cd player fixed to play what ever available cds on my desk.

i was listening to Debbie Gibson's No More Rhyme, these lyrics:
you can find your place
but never fit in
and only when you've left
do you know where you've been
i can see the light
but only when its gone
you can go on waiting
but only for so long

you know what, it reflected so well what i felt about my previous employments (EXCEPT for THE RECENT ONE)
when i was there, i wanted so much to leave, so many reasons which contributed to my decision.
when i finally moved on to a new place, i realised that the greener pasture that i had been seeking was only on the surface.
i could not fit in, seeing the lights too late and its gone and waiting for my next move but only for so long...

hmmm...gimme a reason cos im now on bended knees.
we dont have the right combination
the search is over , im only keeping the dream alive
then china is in your head, but now im crying in the rain
im fixing a broken heart and i cant fight this feeling after all
if wishes came true then show me heaven
more than words can say
that im not a superwoman
im just a woman in chains
was it nothing at all to make me stay
torn always
i was not high enough to be the eye in the sky
when will i see you again?

no room in your heart?
insensitive? four letter word?
nope, simply no more rhyme

Yeah, im collating all the titles of the songs from Favourite - great songs will always remember cd.

dat holiday mood is in d air

d neighbourhood is so 'blank', shops closed and pple were indoors. occassionally the lion dance did their thing, otherwise its the ABnormal scenario - eeriely quiet
as usual we lepak giler most of the time on surfing the internetwe watched our fave music video on you tube - yes! thats seiko & donnie crooning THE RIGHT COMBINATION. I miss those time!
always never ending feud between azimah & ezzaty! here, our ezzaty denied all accusation and azimah, the victim being so depressed
im so envious of najmi, with all the commotions at home, he could be so soundly asleep
it would be incomplete w/o mak's great ayam masak merah!yummy!
Twinny informed that Eddris's besta friend Ramli appeared on Stomp article. yeah, that swinging bachelor made known to the world that he's good at home & decor!
he's a wake and so delighted to be surrounded with so many girls, here, having good time flirting with cousin azimah-hahah!

slacking again

im supposed to google search on my assignment, like many times before i deviated infront of MAC, bloghopping, friendster searching and just surfing for fun!

oh yeah, last nite we went to mustaffa to purchase 'big items'...
waterheater, ezzaty's watch & bike and najmi's jeepcycle. (big as in physically huge except for the watch)
we shopped around while waiting for eddris who was as usual took his own time to look, bargain and pay!

buying things there was more convenient than for the price tags.
its not totally cheap but since its opened for 24 hrs and you can actually get most things under one roof, Mustaffa is definitely the family choice.(u can go to mun's blog for the photos)

left home around 8.30pm, we shopped till it was midnite and settled for family dine out closed to 1 in the moring in one of the 24 hrs restaurant (more to coffee shop).

i ordered mee hoon goreng but it turned out nothing liked the usual- the red coloured.
this one was black, wet and tasted not even close like the one i liked. Mun said it was thai style. huh??
i saw indian rojak so i thought it was Mamak mee mah! to save the day, i ordered roti john for all of us as a side dish.
ended up finish it all by myself, having Mun to finish my mee hoon.

saw my primary school classmate-zarina, she still looks the same-a tomboy.
Haliza was not around. Her mum was looking at me and i thought she was so familiar until Zarina came.
they were looking for seats, could not find any and went off. first time i saw her brother, nothing close resembling either Haliza or zarinah...

she didnt recognised me and i didnt bother to call her either.

high spirit

what i had said in my previous entry was like 3/4 of my bottled thoughts, another 1/4 had it reserved cos i might hurt others even myself when i stated the details of my unfortunate encounters with pple who are constantly having creative ideas to enhance my life.

as much i wanted to share my joys with others, that much i would be condemned and dressed down - and once i had it from someone whom i totally didnt expect. some pple are just not happy to see you happy-thats what i think.

okay, i've got my statistics assignment result,, score 93%, nothing could beat Hooi for getting full.
its a matter of days, the results for the examination would be out.

so far i have got 3AS. im not by nature a straight A student, so im quite ecstatic with my achievement so far.
and i hope i will not slack for the remaining 2 papers, which i begin to....always putting off to read up the notes.

International Finance is a boring and dry module, worse than Economics.
how am i going to get this through.
my uderstanding is so poor. i am so clueless on what GH was delivering.
about hedge fund, fixed and flat rates....dont see anything interesting, maybe not yet.

IF exams will be on 10 March..not too far away.
must buck up and get things done...though im not celebrating CNY, im in the full spirit for it.
i did spring cleaning, planned to watch DVD during the holidays and geared up for a gathering.

and i didnt slot any time for revision-it had always been malam nanti bolehlah,,,
and its been few days, the book remained close and i stay close to always sleep early...heheh!

next question pls??!!

our community, should i emphasize our gals should change the way they think-their mindset.
most of them whom i know, whether my close friends, barely know them, relatives, who ever my path has crossed them has so much in common. they always ask the same old history centuries questions.

1) back then when i was in my early 20s, - have u got a boyfriend? if no, shall i introduce you one
2) when i was attached, i was asked when is your big day? huh? only a day celebration? so simple??who do yu engage for your makeup artist? decor?
3) after barely a month of being a wife - are you pregnant? thank god! i conceived immediately, i would not being spared the agony of getting too concerned pple recommending types of jamus and how to go about having babies???!
4) and the most nonsensical question i had been asked when i was heavily pregnant with najmi, days before delivery, Z came to me and i thought she wanted to ask when is my due date. she asked me when my 3rd one coming??! crazy!

good pple, you can show your concern by shutting up your mouths, not asking insensitive questions that might hurt others.

imagine, if that person has just broken up, and you plan to introduce someone.
imagine, if that person could not afford lavish ceremony, wouldnt you be giving her more pressure, what more the big day is just round the corner.
imagine, if that person could not conceived for whatever possibilities, and you recommending ways to have babies?
imagine, the baby in my tummy was short lived and not able to see the world on time, and you asking when's my 3rd one?

please, you must have forgotthen the key factor - Qada' Qadar - fate!
if you understand that the one above is the mastermind of what you plan, you would not be so gullible to keep on asking these ancient questions.

be sensibe, be sensitive, be kind, please dont ask, you never know how much it hurts.

teach cheh

i was moved by munyra's entry on mr naufal- her bio teacher. from mun, i know he is a great teacher with words of inspirational which never fails to motivate his students. i woud be crying too if i had fail to score for my fav teacher.

back in high school, i could say there werent good/amazing/awesome teachers that i would look up to, let alone to share my difficulties, except maybe for Cikgu OMAR. ( he of all the teachers encouraged me to take up accounting!)
the rest were more concern about grades, the percentages on passes, bla bla bla!!
i was in the wrong stream..well no arts stream for our express level okay....and i tried to get a transfer but as history speaks for itself - i couldnt.

then, there were no words of motivation about life after school life...i remembered my geography teacher was so against us going to Poly and that we would be so inferior compared to those going to JCs, if we did.
didnt bother to know how many of them really made it to UNI..so far i know - Gurmit, Imran & Yanling.
the rest of the 4As..no idea at all.

well, i went to ITE and..hahah!

most demotivational one would be our primary school malay teacher - CIKGU M.
favourism, bias and no lack of unprofessionalism to be an educator. trust her to ridicule us for being so much inferior than her elite students who were smarter and prettier..what BS! @#%^&...

teachers nowadays are way more fun, approachable and easy-going and good advisors, i wish there were many like them back in my school days.
if they were, i could not imagine the best out of me to happen...

okay, dont want to be a sourgrape, just pouring out my disappoinment - a great one.

O oolala Aisy aisy baby

All praises to Almighty for Mun's achievement for her Os.
she scored quite well i must say for someone who lacks the confidence in believing in herself.
she had no appetite the day before, and on the day to collect that slip she was so moody that Alia was joking she must be preparing to jump from the building.

all of us know she would not fail. but she thought otherwise.
she had chosen to take up the Pharmaceutical Science in NYP and Now we are praying hard that she will be accepted.
if doesnt, no worry, 11 more options down the list.

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my only nephew ( for now) came with his aunt and bibik - a pleasant surprise. Alia & Farisha had stayed overnight and was leaving when her MIL told that the 3 of them were on the way here. I had not seen Aisy for quite sumtimes, he had grown so fast and so big. he looks like a 2 year old already..he's only 10 mths but our BIG MAN is so big for his age!

my arm sored after carrying him and our Big Man is such a cry baby!!

u got d look

last nite, my dearest niece and sis alia came to visit


Mr najmi had a new hair cutafter haircut
before haircut

actually not much different, except that he looks abit more tembab

it should not be my problem

i dun know how/what to pen down my thoughts at this moment.
it was not my mistake in the first place and now im being pestered for that.
your problem should not be mine....

its easy to instruct me to do this and that and want it to be done right away.
you have to account for my busy schedule - i cant explain and list down details of my daily activities.
and now you are asking PL to follow up-so pissed off. i know what to do - i just dont have the time.
or maybe you thought i am exactly like you ...sorry im not greedy.

im leaving for class early to meet up with J - and on my way im depositing that much desired check and get on with my life w/o u bugging me about the outcome. ( i put everything aside just to solve this)

i dont want to have anything to do with u & that company anymore, by right it would have so months ago...
its because of your stupidity, we have 'to keep in touch cos need to follow up'.

2 months ago

ezzaty feeding najmi while i was busy with my assignment. mun captured Najmi's anxiety getting to eat the nutella sandwich which he was not supposed to have at all...naughty najmi and even naughtier ezzaty-doing the donts behind me.


Najmi being so mushy having his porridge...with his most adorable smile and lovable gesture

priceless pay

received a surpirse call from my former boss.
i knew it was sumthing important or else why wld she call a small fly like me.
yeah, im right! she needed a favour - its more of a counter help.
she had made a blunder of crediting into my account my pay-an exact amount which i had previously earned.
i was in the train, and could not squeeze her further y such mistake could happen but i did ask her why my account was not deleted since i had left the company months ago...her answer was simply she didnt.

told her that i needed to check with the bank cos im getting my current pay around the time she credited.
and with the other allowances, its difficult to tell the extra cash im not suppose to get.

so you can guess why i decided to leave - with good proper mgmt, such thing wont happen, rite?
(Ina, if u r reading this, plse keep this 2 urself )

she asked if im doing okay there, and if i would want to join the company back.
i gave a flat no and informed that i had been there only for few mths(too early to say if im so okay there) and also i wanted to complete my course first.

she was surprised to hear that im studying and taken aback when i told her im finishing soon.

i didnt want to brag about the good things im getting here cos i always believe in not being stagnant.
i want to move on...

M happy meal

i thought the day to taste a treat from Mun wld be still a long way.
because of our wide age gap, i would be almost 40 (around that) when she starts work and finish her tertiary education
but thanks to her vacation job (also thanks to watie) as a relief childcare teacher, she had a brief experience of working life and earn her first bucks.

her temporary employment ended on 30 January and as promised, she gave us a big treat at Makmur restaurant today.
we like the ambience there and also the wide range of delicacies-Thai, Malay, Indian, Western..and less crowd.

I had my fave fish & chips, Mun & Twinny-Chicken Chop (they claimed that great mind think alike), Eddris-Fried rice with Red beef, Ezzaty-french fries (she always ask for side dish) and Mak who almost didnt made it cos of her flu and irritating cough had Mee Soup. Mak hesitated at first, but since her darling Ezzaty was not going too if she wouldnt so she joined despite not being her usual merry state.

Thanks Mun for your treat, looking forward to more belanja from you often..heheh...

p/s: i didnt take any pics of the food - for d stomach is more important than for the eyes

020207

Before i wrap up the nite to bury myself under the notes/text for tomorrow paper (y must we have theory qns for accounting???)
would like to update and post some pics of the day.

as usual its Mr Najmi in the act, sis Ezzaty is not availabe easily nowadays for picture taking...
her life revolves with waking up at 5.40am, off to school at 6.40am, returns home at 4.15pm, revising work till 8.30pm and must off to bed by 9pm. so tell me, how to take her pic? even if i did, you wldnt be getting a cute smiley pose from her.

Twinny is here with me, or else im alone with Najmi since Mak, Eddris & Ezzaty (its weekend so she can afford to merayap at this hour) were off to SS doing the monthly grocery.

Mun had been out since afternoon, so much for her toe mishap, still in the mood to shop. well, she has few weeks left before the o result to be out. so enjoy rabak ler, minah!

and y oh y im getting tired easily nowadays and i get hungry so fast.
my eating order is disordering , cant tell if its breakfast,lunch,supper or dinner...im eating all the time.
munchig tidbits, fruits and what have you in the fridge...even Najmi's biscuits look appetizing!

Mak says its normal to feel that way if you are at home, cos you are not sitting all the time unlike in the office..
gosh.! ill b putting tons of weight in no time...

journal of a maid 2b

mak loves to hang the laundry here, they dry faster but so unsightly.
dont have to imagine living in kampong, the recess area as it is will remind you of the kampong spirit.
had hard time brushing those tiles (not my choice, all done up by the previous owner) and pple here just dont listen, please take off your shoes b4 coming in!
and trouble comes when it is raining..that open space layout..u know what i mean..sigh!


AND i dont have to imagine staying in a bungalow, i mean imagine how EXTRA tired i would be to clean up the whole house. mopping this house which is far from a terence house let alone an exec unit-enough to make me out of breath.

fyi, im only doing this once a week.
you will see me slouching with the mopstick and then i will take a good rest on the bench to energise myself.
sound like a haggard old witch.

study mama

Tonight was our final lesson for management accounting.
on Saturday i will be sitting for the exam.
I must say Mr Kader had covered the topics very well that we had ample time for revision in 2 days (6 hrs!)
such revision class helps me alot cos despite being on leave, I was not able to revise at home.

if im in the office, during lunch time, i could do some reading but at home, cant even squeeze a minute to open up the book.
there was a layer of dust covering the text already-sigh!

my other coursemates felt likewise that Mr Kader should be teaching us for the remaining financial modules and we had evaluated him to the max. hopefully the institution takes our suggestion into consideration.

i had dreamt that the result for Business Stats was out, but my paper was no where to be found, going around every corner to look for it till i woke up...hope it was not a bad omen.

down with 2 papers before going to the next level - our final year.
dolly & kovy were keen to start the semester in May, right away after the last paper. me & the rest would like to have a break.
tentatively i would start in October,if Allah permits. i need the 5 months break to focus on Ezzaty's school work and her progress.

so far the arrangement to guide her on the spellings for the 3 languages on the days i had no lesson was abit tight...
i thought to adapt a new approach and after April should not be that late to start-i suppose.

caught in the act

see how busy mr najmi is!
can never sit still but when he is asleep, he is so adorable that u wish he is awake!!