u got d look

last nite, my dearest niece and sis alia came to visit


Mr najmi had a new hair cutafter haircut
before haircut

actually not much different, except that he looks abit more tembab

it should not be my problem

i dun know how/what to pen down my thoughts at this moment.
it was not my mistake in the first place and now im being pestered for that.
your problem should not be mine....

its easy to instruct me to do this and that and want it to be done right away.
you have to account for my busy schedule - i cant explain and list down details of my daily activities.
and now you are asking PL to follow up-so pissed off. i know what to do - i just dont have the time.
or maybe you thought i am exactly like you ...sorry im not greedy.

im leaving for class early to meet up with J - and on my way im depositing that much desired check and get on with my life w/o u bugging me about the outcome. ( i put everything aside just to solve this)

i dont want to have anything to do with u & that company anymore, by right it would have so months ago...
its because of your stupidity, we have 'to keep in touch cos need to follow up'.

2 months ago

ezzaty feeding najmi while i was busy with my assignment. mun captured Najmi's anxiety getting to eat the nutella sandwich which he was not supposed to have at all...naughty najmi and even naughtier ezzaty-doing the donts behind me.


Najmi being so mushy having his porridge...with his most adorable smile and lovable gesture

priceless pay

received a surpirse call from my former boss.
i knew it was sumthing important or else why wld she call a small fly like me.
yeah, im right! she needed a favour - its more of a counter help.
she had made a blunder of crediting into my account my pay-an exact amount which i had previously earned.
i was in the train, and could not squeeze her further y such mistake could happen but i did ask her why my account was not deleted since i had left the company months ago...her answer was simply she didnt.

told her that i needed to check with the bank cos im getting my current pay around the time she credited.
and with the other allowances, its difficult to tell the extra cash im not suppose to get.

so you can guess why i decided to leave - with good proper mgmt, such thing wont happen, rite?
(Ina, if u r reading this, plse keep this 2 urself )

she asked if im doing okay there, and if i would want to join the company back.
i gave a flat no and informed that i had been there only for few mths(too early to say if im so okay there) and also i wanted to complete my course first.

she was surprised to hear that im studying and taken aback when i told her im finishing soon.

i didnt want to brag about the good things im getting here cos i always believe in not being stagnant.
i want to move on...

M happy meal

i thought the day to taste a treat from Mun wld be still a long way.
because of our wide age gap, i would be almost 40 (around that) when she starts work and finish her tertiary education
but thanks to her vacation job (also thanks to watie) as a relief childcare teacher, she had a brief experience of working life and earn her first bucks.

her temporary employment ended on 30 January and as promised, she gave us a big treat at Makmur restaurant today.
we like the ambience there and also the wide range of delicacies-Thai, Malay, Indian, Western..and less crowd.

I had my fave fish & chips, Mun & Twinny-Chicken Chop (they claimed that great mind think alike), Eddris-Fried rice with Red beef, Ezzaty-french fries (she always ask for side dish) and Mak who almost didnt made it cos of her flu and irritating cough had Mee Soup. Mak hesitated at first, but since her darling Ezzaty was not going too if she wouldnt so she joined despite not being her usual merry state.

Thanks Mun for your treat, looking forward to more belanja from you often..heheh...

p/s: i didnt take any pics of the food - for d stomach is more important than for the eyes

020207

Before i wrap up the nite to bury myself under the notes/text for tomorrow paper (y must we have theory qns for accounting???)
would like to update and post some pics of the day.

as usual its Mr Najmi in the act, sis Ezzaty is not availabe easily nowadays for picture taking...
her life revolves with waking up at 5.40am, off to school at 6.40am, returns home at 4.15pm, revising work till 8.30pm and must off to bed by 9pm. so tell me, how to take her pic? even if i did, you wldnt be getting a cute smiley pose from her.

Twinny is here with me, or else im alone with Najmi since Mak, Eddris & Ezzaty (its weekend so she can afford to merayap at this hour) were off to SS doing the monthly grocery.

Mun had been out since afternoon, so much for her toe mishap, still in the mood to shop. well, she has few weeks left before the o result to be out. so enjoy rabak ler, minah!

and y oh y im getting tired easily nowadays and i get hungry so fast.
my eating order is disordering , cant tell if its breakfast,lunch,supper or dinner...im eating all the time.
munchig tidbits, fruits and what have you in the fridge...even Najmi's biscuits look appetizing!

Mak says its normal to feel that way if you are at home, cos you are not sitting all the time unlike in the office..
gosh.! ill b putting tons of weight in no time...

journal of a maid 2b

mak loves to hang the laundry here, they dry faster but so unsightly.
dont have to imagine living in kampong, the recess area as it is will remind you of the kampong spirit.
had hard time brushing those tiles (not my choice, all done up by the previous owner) and pple here just dont listen, please take off your shoes b4 coming in!
and trouble comes when it is raining..that open space layout..u know what i mean..sigh!


AND i dont have to imagine staying in a bungalow, i mean imagine how EXTRA tired i would be to clean up the whole house. mopping this house which is far from a terence house let alone an exec unit-enough to make me out of breath.

fyi, im only doing this once a week.
you will see me slouching with the mopstick and then i will take a good rest on the bench to energise myself.
sound like a haggard old witch.

study mama

Tonight was our final lesson for management accounting.
on Saturday i will be sitting for the exam.
I must say Mr Kader had covered the topics very well that we had ample time for revision in 2 days (6 hrs!)
such revision class helps me alot cos despite being on leave, I was not able to revise at home.

if im in the office, during lunch time, i could do some reading but at home, cant even squeeze a minute to open up the book.
there was a layer of dust covering the text already-sigh!

my other coursemates felt likewise that Mr Kader should be teaching us for the remaining financial modules and we had evaluated him to the max. hopefully the institution takes our suggestion into consideration.

i had dreamt that the result for Business Stats was out, but my paper was no where to be found, going around every corner to look for it till i woke up...hope it was not a bad omen.

down with 2 papers before going to the next level - our final year.
dolly & kovy were keen to start the semester in May, right away after the last paper. me & the rest would like to have a break.
tentatively i would start in October,if Allah permits. i need the 5 months break to focus on Ezzaty's school work and her progress.

so far the arrangement to guide her on the spellings for the 3 languages on the days i had no lesson was abit tight...
i thought to adapt a new approach and after April should not be that late to start-i suppose.

caught in the act

see how busy mr najmi is!
can never sit still but when he is asleep, he is so adorable that u wish he is awake!!

long busy leave

my long absence from work is a blessing for Mak.
How timely. she has not been feeling well - body ache, headache, cramps and the symptoms of an aging lady.

being a stay at home mum for a while, Im taking over looking after Najmi (yeah boy! im so exhausted entertaining him!) and fetching Ezzaty from school. Time passes superly fast at home, i notice. wake up as usual that early (thought i could sleep abit longer) to do the marketing, feeding Najmi,putting him to bed, then its noon, his lunch time, and occasionally i will cook lunch if Mak not cooking, then time to fetch Ezzaty, and rush for class after that and its time to bed when i reach home....

Mak is worried if she may not be able to cope when im back to work (what more if shes not getting well fast enough),
she would also have to change her schedule. with me around, she is ever so busy, what more if im not around.

reality bites

i have realised too late that:

1. It never pays to sympathise with those who have not been getting what they want cos once their wishes are granted, their personalities would TOTALLY change.

2. Humble people are getting harder to find nowadays. each time they open their mouth, its full of airs and smell of shits.

3. office politics and office scandals exist and classified as open secrets. when you say it out, a sshhhh echoes. but somehow you know the whos, wheres and whens.

4. love and hate collide in any friendship. funny how a friendship remains and will never dies when one always has to listen and the other never.

5. blood is thicker than water. not extended to relatives, i suppose.

whats up BABE??

i dont believe in Revenge but i do believe in Retribution.
what goes around will comes around.
let The ONE Above deals with you.
coming from me may not justify what you had done.
i leave to ALMIGHTY HIM to give you the best what you will deserve for all these mess.
but i need to shout it out, cant stand your kaypohness!

i dont see whats the big fuss. its not my fault that i am invisible to the SS.
i was relocated to a very serene location-away from the hustle of noisy jerks like u.
i may not be supervised and no one monitors my movements anymore.

but im not idling away and certainly not shaking my legs doing nothing.
just because everytime you pass by my cubicle i may be doing my personal stuff.
it does not mean im doing that for 8 hours.
you must be crazy thinking i would waste my money talking on my mobile just because there is no phone on my desk.
i choose not to have the phone, i no longer deals with pple - internal & external. and i hate pple calling my extension for the wrong reason.

u never thought SP would inform me what you had asked her..if im doing anything being alone there.
thanks SP for your kindness.

hey u!! please mind your own business, i know you are so FREE (since in few days time you wld be officially transferred to new section) dats y the findling faults on others, digging all the historical records to improvise things around and doing voluntary checks! this explains the surprise email from SS - she never ask anything from me that way.

im capable to work on my own, with the least supervision, i have always been- no doubt about that..

if you think i have been missing in action these few days, have you been resourceful enough, go into the filing room?

i was there for 3 damn days helping the auditors - a task which all of you love to avoid.
should be thankful that i am still around, im not surprised it could be you sniffing around the shelf next time.

family Park day

we had been planning to have a family day in this not so sure the name park eversince it was opened to public about a month ago. and finally we made it happened. from far, it looked like a resort with pple fishing, but we realised it was like a kampung with small huts scattered across the plot of land.
it was such a hot sunny day that my face was turning dark and oily....
Najmi refused to put on his hat and so was frowning all the way in his pram.

while watching Ezzaty from far, we were eyeing for that wooden swing but some guy was faster than us. i had turned back to where i was sitting under the shade of coconut tree (we were lucky no coconut fell on us) - so malu!

but our disappointment was not long, as we strolled up to the far end towards the carpark, we saw 3 such swings...2 were occuppied and that one swing which was smaller than the other 2 was perfect 4 us.

yippee! it was quite sometime since i last sat on a swing and i was not alone...3 of us were together enjoying the ups and downs with the breeze of wind brushing across our oily faces..heheheh!!!

200107/1 Muharram-33rd NaNi

party wld be meaningless w/o them around

our beloved bro fai

girls power

cutting cake ceremony

birthday girls and that cake...

me and all the goodies

party gals!!

yummy Secret Recipe chocolate cake from Alia



2day I received many smses birthday wishes but d one which really took me by surprise was from Juff from far in Nogales. God! technology advances sure make the world seems so small...Thanks Juff, cant describe how touch i was :-) and to all my other fellow friends and cousins who went the trouble on d weekend to drop your wishes- thanks 2 d Sues from Tweerans, Kak Nia, Allysawati, Chris, Nicky, Juffrey and those who i have failed to mention but yes i received the mssges, SINCERE THANK YOU, thats the best birthday gift one could have-the thought that counts!! mak ai..cam menang grammy award bunyinya....hehehah!

not forgetting my sisters for their gifts and thoughts....thanks girls!!
this year is special cos i get to celebrate on the day itself and its more meaningful with d presence of all my extended family members!!! muacks!!

SUEweet surprise

me & ani in our younger years...splitting image - right????


Yay! I am flattered by Sue4ever's reply on my comment. n Also eee..so malu, pple reading my blog, the ever routine crappy entries, nothing amazing and always complaining. but thats what blog is for, to vent your frustrations and share the happy moments. i hope i dont hurt anyone's feelings when at times i wld be too vocal in expressing my thoughts. i do get carried away with emotions that pple might think im talking bad about them.

I cant resist to let Sue4ever know how i admire the special bonding she has with her siblings and how caring and thoughtful of her brother for the things he did. prioritise his siblings' needs more than anything else. thats what a brother should be - protective, caring and someone whom you can rely on. when i was younger i always dreamt of having an elder brother to protect me when i was being bullied :-(

I was in the filing room the whole day, retrieving documents for the auditors. my!! this company need to do alot of filtering and cleaning up on maintenance of good records. getting many temp staff to clear up all the mess is not a good solution. must have a good system and staff should be taught the right and clear way of doing things here, not by passing down asal boleh and then clear your hands off totally. i have made myself clear on this with the Director. it seems to fall on deaf ears.

after work, i rushed for an appointment which had to be cancelled on my way there. He promised to meet up tomorrow - i hope he will keep his words. hello..my time is precious too okay..not only yours, just because you have to fly around most of the time.

i could not alight half way through the journey, and so decided to alight where i was supposed to meet him and thought of calling mun. great! she was in Bugis and we decided to meet at Citylink. we passed Breeks and decided to have our dinner there since the waitress was so into promoting the valentines special grill set. i had seafood mar..sumthing like dat sphagetti and mun ordered Beef lasagne and we shared a moctail of the day which came with a cup of ice cream...totally forgotten bout that when i was about to pay the bill...had to return to our seat cos we were not allowed to take away...heheh!

aimlessly walking, i came across something for my twinny's birthday. i know my other sisters didnt but this for her,..so i thought it wld be a perfect gift for her,,,shall not say much in case she wld be reading this,

..happy 33rd birthday to Nooraini and myself.
we were born in the wee hours - almost subuh,
me -0435hrs and Ani at 0515hrs...half an hour diff..wow!! mak must be screaming like hell then.....

ABBA

Two down and one more to go. Assignment, submission date is on Thursday.
I have never done my work that late. Eversince I got my grade for that killer paper Economics, I don’t really put enough effort to do my assignment. Thank you so much for demotivating and demoralising my self esteem. Lame excuse??

Well, I have spent so much time to draft, reprint, redesign and I could say the most time consuming assignment of all that I had done so far. What do I get in return? B+ to A??!! Why cant she give me that A? Because I didn’t bind my copy, its black & white ?? I doubted so much that she had gone through the contents. Her comments : good data, substantial evidence, interesting attachment but no cover and no reference page?? Blind or what??
What is that enormous logo and index that I had thought out of the box so that it could value-added my report???

Urgh..like Kovy said, its a mistake that she came to our life. This is so unfair. If presentation meant so much to her, I would have just spend MORE time and extra cash (getting a graphic designer I suppose) to enhance the report rather spending my precious hours slogging in the library , google searching through the website and reading through all newspaper articles and reports pertaining to MARKET STRUCTURE in order that I could get that desirable A.

For the final year, its better got to be another lecturer to conduct Economics. (but then, why must we learn that again)
There is a possibility to switch to another institution . I dont want my grade to suffer AGAIN.

i should be so lucky

these images have nothing to do with this entry.
just love to upload pics to enhance my blog!!


Mun is so fortunate - for 2006-she had been winning numerous tickets entrances - movies, theatre, musical, tv shows, meet your idol face to face- what have you even for the most expensive VIP ticket which cost $250 per seat!
and to kick off 2007, yesterday when attending the TP's open house, she had won the 2nd prize- a Samsung MP3 player.

i guess all the computation on her monthly budget to buy the iPod will not come handy now. congrats - you do live up to your name. the light that shine so brightly..i am so flattered as well since i gave her that name. all of us were clueless to think of a girl's name since we thought we will be getting a brother. (boy or girl does not matter to us except you know who - sis!
enough said..it will not change anything by elaborating the past.) its funny to recall of how i got that name..from an entertainment magazine!! hehehe.....

my star is not as bright or should i say, not at all bright when it comes to lucky draws, participating in contests, quizzes and the list goes on. hmmm...getting an alarm cum radio more than 10 years ago for the xmas celebration and a $100 voucher for the RC members 5 years ago..and that's about it.
even for the scratch to win thingy, i had only won for myself a pen and ironically i was in my lower primary, didnt get to use that pen since we were writing in pencil....hahaha!

so pathethic..thats why i dont see myself going for company D & D.
to participate for the lucky draws like my other colleagues. it would be yet another anticipation- from the 100 to the 50..to the first 10..zzzzz

shower me with Arabic

it has been raining heavily again in january.
getting a cold shower is a drag BUT Najmi seems to enjoy it!!
Mak no longer put him in the tub for his evening bath. too active to handle.

Ezzaty's honeymoon period is over, On monday she had a list of Malay words for spelling.
10 words per week. and today another long list for her English. had been practising her Arabic - and she has been communicating in it since Monday. I had no clue what she was talking about - when Ezzaty starts to coach me word by word, it gets a bit annoying cos I dont seem to pick them fast enough...my memory is failing.

this weekend i have to brush up on that - systematically...
i guess i had to ask my friend Aishah for help, IF SHE IS FREE TO DO SO :-0

summary of late entries

31st dec - we had a simple celebration at home, twinny came with azi, poor adib had to work on that day. we had our usual Raya delicacies and then with our usual hangout activity in the balcony, reading the magazines, watching shows and looking after the kids who were having so much fun. Eddris went for Eid solat alone at Masjid Ahmad Ibrahim. after Asar, we left w/o twinny n mun to alya's place. cant wait to meet up with Aisy & farisha. and from there, we left to Effa's new place. she invited us for her housewarming and the Eid celebration. nice home!

01st Jan - Azi spent the night here and Ezzy was so overwhelmed to have her sleeping on the same bed! Twinny came in the early morning and joined me, Edd & Ezz to S'pore Expo for the Metro sale. we bought most of Ezz's stuff for school. worth waiting since the prices for the bags, stationery were down by half. around seven, the whole family gathered for pizzas and we watched Romi & Mitchel's school reunion, so hilarious!! and how true, when your pal would always stressed that she has a happy family, it really meant the opposite. i learned too that not being successful in your school years does not mean that you will stay that way forever.

02nd Jan - I left home around 8.15am for class- its MA and met up with the new intakes. as usual class owould be very quiet since we have not get to know each other yet . i came with Kovan and was surprised that Dian had joined me for the entire programme. she realised that she loved to learn more on digits for the financial mgt rather than the theorical concept of marketing. our lecturer Kader, looked so much like my cousin Mamat! met up with Edd n Ezz at AMK after class - i bought my school stuff for the next 3 modules since i couldnot get them at the Expo.

03rd Jan - school started early for Ezz. the bus picked her up at 6.40am and i left to join the assembly an hour later. i didnt have to worry about ezz's well-being since the school had adopted the BUDDY SYSTEM for a week. I watched from far, the buddy assigned from P5 did her task very well. making sure ezz had her lunch, keeping her company to the ladies and stayed by her all the time. even when she would be in her class, ezz is welcome to get her for assistance any time for a week.
parents were invited for a talk by the CEO for almost 2 hours at the Musolla area- valuable tips were given on handling the children on stress, time management and target setting for the year...all went well. most parent didnt turn up for the 2nd day in school. i was one of the few who did. did get to watch the cheering competition among the secondary students..they were very creative n witty. sad though, didnt bring my camera to capture ezz's first day in school.....i had so much things on my mind that i totally didnt think abt phototaking.....sorry ezz!

05th Jan - i was back to work after 9 days of holidays, hmm...no more rushing as for now-its the new beginning :-)

crappy entry

its the beginning of a new year.
its been almost a decade that i have stopped making new year's resolutions.
its meaningless for me cos i dont seem to be able to achieve them.
but neverthess i have never stopped to wish/pray/hope for the best - for myself and my loved ones.
everyone does.

this year i will be 7 years away from hitting the big 4 O..gosh! time travels super fast after hitting 21.
its kinda scary too. 20 years ago, i was ONLY 13 and it was a whole new experience in secondary school life in PHS!
20 years later, I will be 33, a mother to 2 young children, still pondering what are my next best steps and slogging mysef with the chores during the weekends....WAHWAHWAH...i wanna go back to those Retro years!

can never turn back the time. memories are meant to stay. always...

actually im running out of ideas on what to blog...so that explains all these craps!