Ramadhan al mubarak - 1st day

Alia & Naylee came over on Saturday, terubat rindu. These weekends I will be busier during the fasting month than usual. Mak will be leaving home early every sunday mornings to attend kuliah, so I will be multi tasking and i have to do it fast. cos Najmi gets annoyed if i feed and bathe him not fast enough. by 10am, everything for him must be completed.

Earlier today, Me & Ezzaty went to the library and borrowed 8 books together, paid my fines due and bought watermelon for buka...MY!
I was so weak...its the first day, so i was told its like dat. Ezzaty did not wake up for sahur so she had managed to fast till 2pm, drank her milk and continued fasting.
It's will be like an initial practise, I started fasting fully when I was 9, so I understand if she can't do it right away now.

Eddris had left to peform Terawih, had not been going with him since last year, was heavily pregnant, more comfortable doing it at home and this year, I can't bring Najmi to mosque...it will be distracting. it does not matter where, as long we can perform.God is watching every movement, everywhere and everytime.

Singapore Idol is showing, I will skip watching, both are equally good, so it does not matter who will win.
i like them both!

here's photos of naylee last sat.she's always busy doing her stuff.

appointment

up as usual for Najmi's Hep B 3rd dose injection.We reached on time and it was unusually less crowded and faster for any Saturday appointment. and it was very odd of Najmi to be so ecstatic around strangers. Waiting for the Nurse to insert the needle at his left thigh, he was making so much noise! had his weight, height and head measurement taken, all okay except his head ws noted to to be abit small??! nothing to be alarmed, though. signed up for next week talk on weaning and preaparation of healthy and nutritous meal for growing toddler.

i guessed he must have forced himself to be awaked for the whole session that he had slept through during the journey home.glad i had purchased this Graco pram, so light that i could easily lift it up without much hassle and of course, Najmi's weight too. if only being a baby, you had known, it will be so carefree, i guess no baby would want to grow up!
(of course with good parentage)

mission possibly accomplised

this bear pix says it all 'MAK, without u we have no reason to smile'
u r the rainbow brightening the cloudy sky!



got Mak a really nice songket baju kurung, she was touched by our gesture.totally taken by surprise.
i called from the boutique, informing her i was here, she had no idea why and with whom i was there.
thinking i was there for window shopping, i told her the latest range had arrived, asked if she would like me to get her for the Syawal, she told me her size and colour preference - ease the toils of choosing what colour n what size suits her!

i bought without consulting ani, im sure she will agree with my choice and proceeded to RE-Do creation for my blouse.very disappointing!it was closed-so early n its the weekend. solat asar at the nearest surau, could not locate the toilet, alhamdulilah, the ablution area is in the surau premises. just nice,ani was a bus stop away when i reached our meeting place.

prior to this update, i had indicated Freaking Friday which was happening to me. I had stopped by to the nearest library from office, only to find it was closed earlier at 4pm due to staff event....and on the way to the train station, i bumped to a school girl and instead of me falling, she rolled on the pavement! i held her up, apologised and she was giggling away with her schoolmates behind, watching the entire incident screaming with laughter!! one of them gave that very sorry gesture, he was afraid i would get mad, maybe. no, its alright, i dun get mad easily. and its enlightening to know some youngsters are very happy go lucky and not that rowdy don't mess with me type.

the bus journey to home was very long, we found.had on and off conversation on our former school mate, our past and our common dislikes...heheh! knowing each other for life, still have lots to talk about.

bought fruit cake from the bakery shop nearby, we were few minutes luckier before it closed.
at the door step, i sang a birthday song to Mak, and she was stunned, to see me with cake, to see ani and very surprised when i told her, this cake n the baju kurung were from all her children and her menantu...and told her also, more gifts coming in, this is just the beginning.

too bad, i could not upload the photo, cos we were not taking it with the digicam (Mun had it for her madrasah's Ramadhan forum). taken with ani's cellphone instead..upload later.

okay, tats all, MAC.
2morrow up as usual, going to polyclinic for Najmi's injection session.
will be the last one for now before the next that will be when he's 18 mths.

freaking friday

im like an octopus, multi-tasking in doing 3 duties.
CN & SH were on leave, going to rush out later to return the text i had borrowed.
not helpful at all - not much questions could be practised on.
and the reference books are so limited, which explains why the library is so small.
shall stop over at NLB nearby before meeting Ani tonite.
getting something for Mak, we are sourcing for her gift and i hope we will be able to get one tonite.can't afford the time to shop next week cos we plan to celebrate earlier than her actual day.
no best gift in this world could ever pay for her unconditional love, her painstakings years in bringing us up and her sleepness nights nursing us when we were sick.
we need each other always but i guess we need her more than she needs us.
that's my mum in her baby years..d baby girl..so cute!
came back on time to office to have my springroll from Old Chang Kee peacefully with airconditioning!! and a cup of hot teh tarik!
can't eat too much, reserving the space for good dinner with twinny :-0

twinny me

yo mac!!!

Had a short nap during lunch, really needed that to freshen up.
Luckily no one was around, I could even hear myself snoring away!
Rushed to perform Zuhur prayer, afraid I gonna miss it, in case PL will want me to do the trades things again. But no, I was in front of Acer preparing the audit schedule since morning.

Very tired, I rested my head on the desk, to get a short breather only to cause undue alarm among the rest.
Thinking I had collapsed, they were asking why and what had happened to me.
I shunned it off by sheepishly said, “Sometimes when your head stops thinking, u need to tilt a bit to start it working”. Well said & well done.

skipped going to mosque tonite, its the last class before it closes for 2 months but yet me & ani...u know wat im gonna type rite?

ani's looking after najmi while me in front of u, and the rest are busy doing their own stuff. eddris fixing the cabinet, mak nursing her backache, ezzaty reading her book n mun on the line. sounds routine!?

Looking forward for tomorrow since im knocking off at 5 and going for shopping spree with twinny ani. its good to have ur other half, dun have to crack ur head who to go with, who to tag along,who to share with and having telepathy almost all the time

before bedtime journal

hi Mac, just got home from class.we were dismissed earlier cos today's topic had not much to cover.
our lecturer is a British, thank God his accent is not that bad. after few lessons, i had gotten used to his style of delivering the lecture. Hooi finally received her result, she was sceptical abt it at first, thinking it was a marginal pass but she did well.

she was contemplating between sticking to her Logistics programme and joining me to do finance.
she worried not having a kaki when we split to our pathway modules-her programme are attended by mostly males.

i'm so fed up with myself, why do i make silly mistakes once too often!!
no point in doing things fast, when i will be penalised for carelessness!
must buck up..i need the caning approach to avoid those mistakes from recurring!

eddris was not home yet, gone to view the flat which S wanted to buy, see if it's worth buying..

i think he's home, the door bell is ringing and ezzay pretends not to hear it..
got to go.c u later-maybe??

need to sleep early, past days were late bed time.
had to rest to energise myself or else i'm gonna fall ill.

Welcome Ramadhan

Ramadhan is only 3 days away, I’m glad Allah has given me the chance again to meet this blessed month.

Alhamdulilah, for both pregnancies I managed to fast the whole month admist the terrible morning sicknesses. Had heard people passing remarks that I was one weak expecting lady but all went well throughout the pregnancies, smooth deliveries, though had to endure the long labour pains.

So I’m not that teruk lah:0

Got call from Mak that Alia's mother in law was hospitalised, just when i hope all my loved ones will be able to welcome Ramadhan. we pray for her recovery, she is a kind hearted person and Alia is so fortunate to be married into that family.

Yesterday was infact, my late father in law's birthday.He passed away 4 days after his birthday 8 years ago.He had been suffering from cancer for quite sometimes but his departure was an unexpected one. He was almost recovering and the family members were arranging to give him a belated birthday surprise.

He was not there to see both of us married, his next generation multiplying and his wife passed away last year in Ramadhan (this one, he met her in the after life already)

May Allah bless his soul.
I knew him too short a time to pass any judgement but he was one pious man.
And I hope to have that strong faith like him-never delay in performing solah and always positive on ALLAH's decisions.

everything about 2day

dik aisy
bg zul
It was just a wishful thinking that I will be able to complete the full sets of accounts today.
I spent half a day checking on the inter-companies billing, CN is superfast nowadays.
She had done the invoicing way too advanced and I have to catch up before it starts to accumulate.
MY! PL handed me tax computation on 3 companies-she said it was not that difficult.
I understood-what she meant was i have to figure it out myself how to go about it.
and as usual the task was way overdue. so everything must stop and focus on this.

its hard not to mention about my work, my studies, my family and my desire.
these are the important factors in my life.the essence of life, the element of reality.
they may cause boredom because of the factual and routine matters, but this is the real thing. you can't fake it, you can't made it up and u have to stop imagining things.

i completed my BA assignment, posted few resumes on line, look out suitable vacancies for Fau but yet to finish my ironing.
if i had agreed to let S complete the task for me, i will not be so busy. no trust in her eversince she burned my blouse. she can do for the rest though. enough said, should be grateful that i have someone to assist me in doing the chores that i dreaded most.
no, it's not mak im referring to.hardly mention about her.hope this will be the last and only time.

i miss my nephew Aisy..he's only a month younger than 'abg zul'.
must be very chubby now :-)

merry monday

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it was a good monday to start the week.
completed the management accounts after months of analysing-phew!
all went well especially when Queen not around, just felt good about everything eventhough i was still having headache and my eyes were falling to sleep.

no amount of caffeine could fresh me up but at least the day passed amicably.

got POM assignment result, scored A.
excellent assignments would be A+.

it was a good starter, i hope for the exam paper, I will score higher.
and for the overall programme, i want to achieve above the good grade.

sunny sunday

just when i thought it will be another rountine sunday, it ended with a promising episode for the coming chapters in my life.
i received few emails pertaining to my quests, not confirmed but at least i received some positive feedbacks.

the day started early like normal weekdays, only to find myself infront of babymac, setting up tagbox, updating my blog and reading on my friends' blogs particulary Sue-the one who inspired me to start my own blog.

after settling with najmi, me,ezzaty & eddris all prepared to Puteh's kenduri cukur rambut Sarah Nadra. Excited about meeting my former colleagues from UBS. True enough, we were able to meet up eventhough no prior arrangement was made. we had gone through and shared life experiences on growing up to be adullts, courtships, engagement and marriage.when we left, we were singles to be married, now we met, as mothers!

Puteh and Fauziah are seeking for jobs, and I'm assisting in whatever little I can contribute.
I understand very well their anxieties because I'm job hunting myself.
I am more fortunate now than the two cos i have secured a job( which I don't intend to stay for long)

Rezeki di tangan NYA, bukan daripada usaha kita semata-mata.
datangnya daripada pelbagai sumber, mungkin juga daripada bantuan teman-teman.
hari ini kita membantu, esok lusa kita dibantu.
oleh itu, tidak perlulah angkuh hanya dengan kesenangan yg bersifat sementara.

from Puteh's, we proceeded to Mustaffa centre and purchased a notebook and trackshoes for ezzaty..she's vey delighted!

have not seen her so engrossed in spellings and words before..thank u NOTEBOOK! you make it happen.

joyride

we will have to forgo our monthy trip to jb this month.
Ramadhan is around the corner and we have checked that nothing much to purchase across the causeway this time,
as an alternative, last night, eddris drove us to Bedok North for dine out. I suggested Alfiah restoran since his initial plan to the Bedok Corner was not in favour.we left after magrib which was much later as planned.

cik ram had made roti boyan for us, and we were abit full for the makan session.
i ordered mee hokkien, eddris fried seafood kwayteow,mun & mak ordered horfun.ezzaty ate bits of here n there.
tried out the milo dinosaurs-very sweet..and durian ice kacang and rojak buah-buahan as our desserts!

we were contended not just for the food but the togetherness to enjoy our meals.
very hard to have it this way at home, we have different time schedule..so some may have their meals earlier, and it's impossible to wait up for each other.

it was still early but yet abit late to do any shopping, so we went for a joyride around bedok, all d way to serangoon, passing by AMK before reaching home. we were chatting away about the makan places we had passed and taking note where will it be the next time after hari raya-we have decided to dine out twice a month if Jb trip 2b skipped.

as i was telling them how i wish to live in kampung, there was a total silence,
..i tot i have said something offensive...well...all the backseat passengers were soundly asleep! zzzzz...

a day with my prince alone

this week is najmi's turn 2b with me!
ezzaty has gone to d mosque with nenek...
and i can read up on Hawaii peacefully- my dream holiday destination.
dun ask me when im going, its jus a thought for now.
curiuos about the place where Glenn comes from...excited to learn bout the culture, the people, the climate..everything!
u know its CT nurhaliza's honeymoon's spot! wow!!!

sudah tu sudah

so scary!!


hello mac, i thought to pin down my thoughts later when everyone has gone into their dreamland.
but i would have to spend hours on the exercises, had to get myself familiar with the concepts so that i will not be wasting time figuring out during exams in 2 weeks time.

yeah, i have to sit for exams every month and soon it will come naturally.can't wait for the core modules to be over and starting on the main financial subjects.eager to learn financial analysis,international trade, management accounting, etc because that's what it had been stated in most of the job advertisements.

i would like to thank NW for knocking sense into me that i should switch into finance, its more promising to be in banking now compare to those days when i was in stanchart n ubs. i have no doubt in what he had said, afterall he is a qualified accountant and a calibre lecturer.having worked under the same organisaton, i know him very well-sincere and honest.nothing is up to his sleeves.

to start is always the hardest part but clouds do not always remain dark. it will be a time when the sun will start to shine, i don't know when but what i do know is that, as long as i don't stop trying, Allah will not let me down.

i learn an invaluable lesson today that things happen with a reason.
and what i know, all action start from the heart and Allah's will,

kalau Allah tidak gerakkan hati ini untuk bertanya, tidak akan ku tahu hati budi dan keperibadiannya.

okay mac, i do not wish to go into it, like imran ajmain's Sudah tu sudah
im gonna help eddris with his quest for paint colors..yep, he's gonna paint the living room this year!
earlier on ezzaty n munyra having a rolling good time making faces infront of u...lovely?

mind our words

Words don’t come easy nowadays. Many prefer abbreviations especially when it comes to vulgarities.
As if no one knows what it stands for. It easy to denote WTF, F**K,BS, bla bla bla…
Need no forum or seminar to understand, it comes naturally when they are being mentioned almost every now and then. It’s like reciting prayers to the youngsters – when forget something, its F***, drop something, its FA, you don’t understand something its WTF…

I remember during my teenage years, it would be ‘No sweat’, ‘basket’, bloody hell and the most favorite and often used would be Shit! Then, I would be given a “so uncivilized” look if were to exclaim ‘shit’ out of conscience. See how our lifestyle has changed over the years. Standard of living getting better but not the way we lead our lives. I will not want to imagine what it will be like for the next generation.

Allah forbids all negativities and I pray for HIS guidance and protection.

Within our household, "kepala otak” and ‘bodoh’ are often the remarks pass when we cannot get things right. (bad habit but difficult to discard)
Mak will not stop mentioning ‘jangan cakap macam tulah!
Nanti bodoh betul baru tau?!’
Well, memang pun dah bodoh, kalau tak, masakan dah tua2 gini masih kat sekolah kan?!
Wah wah wah!

Its true what you say is like a prayer for the day…
Say good things, avoid the bad,
Wishing for the best, avoid the cursing for the worst,
Rejoicing over someone’s success, not gloating over his or her misfortune
Always be nice to others even he or she is your biggest foe (dream on – it’s not happening to me, okay)

new member-babymac

finally our baby mac has arrived after waiting for 11 days.
we r so excited and for now nohing can distract our attention away from him :-)
life will be so meaningful nowadays and im looking forward to spend time with him often.
MAC, u r my inspiration, my energiser and my love for now!

stay cute and functionable alwayz
from ur new family members

BA

Accounting should come naturally when you have been in this line for more than a decade, some may say.
I found out recently in my BA class that it’s not true.
The more I learned about the basics concept, the more I am confused.
Dependable on software to post entries and accounts leaves me clueless on doing accounts manually.
And I am so careless!!
One digit causes the TB, P/L and BS to be Not balance!!
See how many marks I will lose easily?
Better buck up this weekend to practice doing the sheets from the library text.
Weekdays are getting harder to really sit and try out on the problem sheets, what more with Najmi has been changing his sleeping patterns.

I wonder why I was exempted from CF instead of BA?
The PM must have thought the BF I took in Dip Business was similar to CF- so wrong!This will be my 3rd time learning basic accounting concepts- never mind for the different subject titles – They are the SAME!

09.09.06 - girls' outing

As promised, I had a fun good time with Ezzaty going places around Raffles Place.
Showed her the buildings I used to work, had our lunch by the river and took a slow long stroll from Fullerton Hotel to Suntec City -stopping at the Esplanade to take photos. Can't wait to do this Again!!

9/11 - my 7th wedding anniversary

yep! 7 years with Mr Eddris and having two kids completes our marriage.

Looking back, we had gone through many obstacles with faith and patience, holding on to our dreams
and promises that no matter what may comes, we have to remain truthful and loyal.
Looking ahead we have many misisons and visions yet to be accomplished.

Always be optimistics.
Never give up to achieve our dreams.
Provide the best for our children.
Stay true to each other - we know our partner only too well to heed advice from other

To those non-believers, dun try to b smart and ended up being big fools - u know who u r!

friday

Office was quieter with only four of us around. I could focus better on my balancing.
No unwanted noises coming diagonally from my seat.
Two days had been trying to figure out which unit was keyed wrongly.
So I better make sure to get it right today – it’s the best time.

Knocking off at 5 today, I have ample time before going to class, maybe I shall do the assignment in the office, if no one notice that I should be leaving earlier.
I know someone here very unhappy that GM allows me to come and leave half an hour earlier than the rest.
That’s why without fail she will pass remarks when time for me to knock off – in an unfavorable way.
It’s been almost 3 years, still cannot get over the fact GM had rejected your request.

Najmi is sleeping lesser during the days lately.
Mak complains that she had to delay doing the chores and not having the time to rest.
Poor Mak! Can’t wait for Najmi to grow up…then Mak will not be so busy especially at her age when she should be focusing on spiritual matters rather than looking after an active toddler.

This remind me of A’s wife, Should be delivering around this time, or may be..?
Being so kancheong, he should have informed eddris of any progress…so far no news.I dun bother to ask him….the lesser I know, the better.

Blessed Nisfu Sya'aban

We plan to gather tonite for yassin reading and say as much doa we could.
Hopefully Allah will grant our wishes and guarded our faith to remain as true-blue Muslims.
Ever since, we have stopped learning to read the Quran - ustazah could not commit to us any more due to her bad health, we hardly have time to meet up for religious purpose...

Tonite is a good time for that since we will be welcoming the blessed Syaaban

I longed for a long silence moment, to focus on my doa and praise HIM for the blessings that He had given me. but it's hard, what more im spending lesser time on the praying mat to look after Najmi so that Mak will get pray on time.

How I wish Im in Mecca or Medina now...life seemed to sail slowly there.
I miss everything there except those inconsiderate jemaahs...

Azan, food, climate..all so different and significant.

I pray so that Allah will make our paths easier to reach the holy place again-if not for Hajj, it will be for umrah....

I promised Ezzaty that we will perform the ritual there together and I hope it will be Very soon! Amin!

the unwanted

received sms from A-as expected it would always about if i'm going for the holiday...
where, how long, how much...unlikely for her to sponsor my holidays trips for making such queries...
she's one of those 'friends' that i mentioned who tag with you to show off and gloat over ur misfortune...

comparing is her expertise and she claims to have the best of everything.
ironically, that was not the case for her few years back...
and she still has not realised that the misfortune should be a life long lesson for her.

I guess i understand why Allah make things happen to us which we dun want it to happen sometimes.
Some pple juz do not want to realise that life is not always a bed of roses -still in their dreams.
so why bother to boast around, blowing ur own trumpets - its not welcoming, u know!

specially to those i really consider -my friends
hugs n kisses to u for ur sincerity.
i treasure ur care, concern,love and trust.
U r always in my prayers.
(as for A- u r the unwanted one)

what a relief :-)

I can't describe how relieved I was when submitting my exams answers-felt like a huge rock had been lifted off my shoulders!

All went well,only that I was dissapointed not able to be mentally prepared at the last minute because we were only allowed to sit in the classroom 10 minutes b4 exams time..
So it was abit of panic, when I came in, sat and straight away trying to attempt the first question - almost blank!

Manage to complete all 4 qns in 2 hr 15 minutes-Alhamdulilah!

Met ex-colleague M, was hesitant to tell her y I was in the mosque during this hour but seeing me with notes-I had no choice.
she mentioned about F-nothing much i can say, why bother to seek our prayer when u dun want to have any contacts..
juz dun understand what u were thinking-one hand u want to b secretive, on the other, u want to share ur developments...
sorry Im not into your games.

I planned to finish up my sewing but i think it had to b delayed.
There's an invitation from our ex-neighbour..
and i plan to spend time with ezzaty in d library this weekend..
poor girl, not going anywhere this holiday.