#486

Life has always been unfair but not Allah S.W.T
I have heard if your prayers had not been answered,
its because Allah S.W.T has a better plan for you. And I have faith in this. cos it was happening to Eddris then. He endured for almost 5 years and finally, he get more than what he had wished for. Im looking forward to my better, hopefully the best.
Insya-Allah, may HE gives me the patience and strength to pull through the difficult times.

I honestly can't wait for September to be here. Not only me, but almost everyone in the office.

I've made a blunder today. I've got things all mixed up.
Cant blame me (but yeah, its my fault), been very busy with the audit.
I dont know where I've got the endurance to focus and reconcile the TB all over again for the 3rd time.
The process is almost coming to its end but the big thing has yet to arrive. I hope all goes smoothly.

Went on a date with Eddris at CP after work today.
He was on course and travelled by train, so he could wait up for dinner and then we windowshopped together.
He got what he's been looking for. But not for me, still indecisive if I should buy, well let's see if i can get over it for the night. If not, I shall go down to purchase it...hahah!

At times, I wish Eddris works on normal hours, then we could travel together to and fro work but then I have no issue with him on shift so far, so long we still can find time to be together.

oops...i forgot, i should be grateful. Alhamdulilah. syukran.

#485 - new look

We had a good bargain at the flea market last sunday.
Every last sunday of the month, there will be a flea market held at the void deck opposite our block.
I have never been one before though, and how i had missed buying good cheap stuff.

Bought 2 skirts, they are still new. I did not hesitate to buy, what is there to lose since I would be spending less than 10 bucks. I dont even bother to try if it fits......

oh yes, Mac had a new look too....Thanks to Mun who was so eager to buy the skin, i thought i should have one too.

#484

Eddris took us out on Saturday where we spent most of the time admiring the fountain at Suntec
It was like a picnic. The kids were enjoying themselves with the spectacular show while both of us were enjoying BK meals...its been a while!

The last time we've been there as a family was like when Ezzaty was in k2?.

Time to head home but the kids...well, u know them

Just then, nephew Aisy came with his dad to fetch baby Nadyne (Sue, now then i realised my niece shares Anisha's 2nd name)
Both Najmi & Aisy just cannot get along well...Aisy loves to kiss Najmi but he simply afraid of Aisy.
Yeah, they've been running around screaming and crying.
My home is no longer sweet as any house should be,
its more like a childcare, infant care and soon to be a welfare home...hahah!

#483

Busy.busy.busy.

At work, tied down with the financial housekeeping process..
shall not elaborate. getting on my nerves with the adjustments and SM's unrealistic demands.

At home, since Tuesday the moment I reached home, I was ike a 2nd mom to my newborn niece.
She loves to be cuddled and I love to kiss her soft cheeks!
Cant get enough of that newborn baby smell....hmmmm...
Mak even reminded me not to pamper her so much by carrying her that long...i cant help it, she is just too adorable.

I would drop whatever I was doing the moment I heard her cry. She would soon fast asleep in my arms, I guess being with me is enough to make her forget what she wants in the first place....so far I only changed her diaper once....

#482 - to start again

I seriously thought that exams fever and assignment datelines will not be here that soon.
Im so wrong.

Given 6 months grace period to get it done and over with, I'll be working hard burning the midnight oil and be buried under that tons of notes AGAIN.

And I thought taking up major course is officially over with the rejection from SM who deny flatly my request to pursue further studies under the company's sponsorship. Reason being - she does not want to hold back my climb on the corporate ladder, so called. (what rubbish lah)

In other word, she does not want me to be officially bonded with the company for that long...hmm...seriously, im not sure what is she thinking?not ur money and seriously not your time to be served here..
anyway, its a blessing in disguise i guess...seeing how we are all being managed..blah suah!

Dont want to sponsor, then dont want lor.
Dont want me to be bonded, then dont lor.
Dont want me to be around for that long, then I shall go lor...no need to nag so long winded mah!
Haiyah!, just say you scare I will soon override you, which I totally not interested. I'll be bored to death sitting in your pathetic room...no ventilation and also so stinkco!

Okay, back to my plan. It seems that I cant do all this one at a time....
it must be all concurrently....if i were to start next year after I've completed my practical lessons and TP, I will not be able to embark on the switch soon, which I am SO not gonna wait any longer....

Age is catching up..doing it fast and doing it right...yeah!

#481

I was quite mad at A.
He is ever boastful.
Exaggerating.
Making a big deal of stuff which is not even related to him.
Sigh...what to do! he's the closest in the office. bear with it so long i will not becoming like him.
Allah s.w.t forbids.

I had cancelled my jogging session with L tomorrow.
Will be having a farewell dinner for K.
I'm so gonna miss her.

I cant wait for September.
its our anniversary, its fasting month and will be getting B, yippe :p

#480

One at a time.
I have to put on hold some plans to make time for my driving and tilawah lessons.
I could not afford to squeeze room for any more courses for time being.
OR else, my 2 Ezzs will be badly affected.

So far so good :p

#479

Call me a weirdo. I cant been waiting for someone to give me a pat on the back and say Hey! look at the brighter side.

(big SIGH) So I've found this poem dedicated to me, myself & i. bravo! *clap clap*

*Inspirational Poem

Try and Try

© By David Cook

I have always seen life for what it really is.
Ever since I was a child growing up, hard times are all I know.

I had to sit back and watch my mother work from sunset to sundown.
I had to sit back and watch my mother work herself to her grave.

Nothing ever came easy for her.
She always had a heart and kept a smile on her face.

Life is like a newborn baby struggling to come out of its mother's womb,
life is a struggle true enough, but after all the struggling you have done,

and after all the hell you have been through, there is success.
Life is nothing but a big struggle, but just keep the faith and focus on your goals.

Don't let life beat you or you will be walking around like zombies.
Keep on pushing, keep on trying, life can be whatever you make it to be.

But life can also be a bowl of cherries with whip cream and apple pie.
I say this again; life is what you make of it.

You can achieve or conquer anything it throws at you,
you can't quit or give up, you have got to keep on working,

look higher some way, some how you are going to make it.

#478

I wonder why others can stay for so long.
I wonder how they manage to manipulate situation.
I wonder why I seem to have many valid reasons.
I wonder when the search will be over as in O-V-E-R.
I wonder why I dont seem to give up and accept the fate.
I wonder why I dont mind to go through this again.

nope. i dont enjoy it. i just cannot go with the flow. I have to try.

I am tired looking at the same situation and dealing with it yet again.
oh well, Its better than to sit and doing nothing.

Mimi emailed to tell that she has finally made it through.
Next, It's my turn. so far efforts had gone wasted. i hope not this 3rd time.

#477 - finally

Thanks R for your time and company.
If not because of your encouragement, I will NEVER make it through.
The enrolment was a breeze one with you beside me, heheheh!

I had booked for 2 sessions, but it was a far out.
I can anticipate for the coming weeks that I will be browsing through the net, buying slots that others try to sell.

#476 - missing you

pictures courtesy from my cousin Nana's multiply.
my adorable niece

Niece NF1 with bro Aisy

Im so missing my eldest niece, NF1.
Took her home on Tuesday night since she wanted so much to follow me home.
She stayed for only one night, was so glad she didnt cry asking for her mummy.I wished it could be longer, had plan to take her to the library.

I was at her place for more than half a day after fetching her newborn sis NF2 from KKH with sis Alia. She was never far from me eversince. She clung to me, asking me questions that i hardly have the answers. Accompanied me for my short nap. Making me comfortable with her hospitality, sitting next to me reading the magazines.

I melted each time she called me 'Ibu' affectionately.
She even urged me to come home early to keep her company...that sweet voice of hers is enough to make me forget that I was tired and needed rest upon reaching home.
In fact, I spent the night cuddling that fragile frame.

And last night when i dropped by her place to send over her puppy and carebear, she was all smiles waiting at the doorstep.
hmmmm....I cant forget her flying kiss "*muak* bye ibu!"

#475

I dont see the sparks anymore.
no butterflies in the stomach.
no chill down the spine.
nothing. its plain dull.

too comfortable or just too bored?
Im just drifting along.

#474

Office politics yet again!
im sick of it. enough is enough...

i've lost faith in the management.
i dont even feel and think like how an employee of an organisation should be.
i've lost that corporate feeling.
its an eerie feeling.........terrible!

#473

Colleagues are making fun of my obsession with K-E-A-N-U R.e.e.v.es.
I know Im not that young anymore to adore someone far but age aside, im still the same person now and then. I still like the stuff I was crazy about donkey years ago.
:-)

#472

Had a hearty lunch at Swensen with Kak S.
Been wanting to give her a treat :P

Accompanied her to shop for games stuff at CP.
People thought we were having the GSS mood, what not - bought 5 pairs of badminton rackets, table tennis rackets, soccer ball, basketball, a net, monopoly, baseball bat, soccer table game....yeah! it was handful...and heavy!

We were having a casual chat over lunch and I was so surprised to learn N, our former colleague, the one I replaced, actually thought that of me...hmmm...she sounded sour grape...well, it may be her poison, but it shall be my meat...so stop hoping for the worst for others but would be good to pray for the best instead.

I would be happy for someone who replaces me and pray that she/he shall not face the adversities and difficulties that i've been through. so it kinda hard to absorb that not everyone shares the same sentiment, especially to think it came from N.

I heard she IS NOT happy with the current job.
Im coping well here unlike what she had predicted.
Its been a year......i think im the one who is having the last laugh.

#471

Started a new routine since yesterday.
on alternate weeks, working from 8 to 6 to compensate with the saturdays off.
Going to the office this early reminds me of those days I was at Tanjong Pagar.
The only diff is the journey is much shorter now compared to 13 stations away from home. must be grateful hor :p

The rain poured suddenly on our way to the mosque last night. Went into the class wet and cold....
We are 2 pages away to complete Book 5.
In 2 weeks time to sit for the Tilawah test.
I hope to score better than the previous.
Mak was worried that she may not be able to cope going to the next level.
She needs to have more confidence in herself. Take it easy.
During class, could see her stress face looking down at every huruf and try to get it right...

I think I should make time to revise with Mak, Insya-Allah.