Monday, June 30, 2008

#470

I procrastinated again.
Instead of going to the centre for enrolment, I headed home after meeting S with L
and her galz. The girls bought lots of makeup stuff, I only bought 2 lipsticks. Neutral, almost Nude in colour...cant seem to get the right tone.

Mun suffered indigestion on Saturday. She threw up almost everything she had. Her state was so bad that we could not afford to wait the morning to come to consult a GP. It was 4 in the morning, both me & Edd headed to the Central for the 24hrs clinic but it was no longer operating that hour. Thought of Sembawang but we found one in Chong Pang....just in time. (was told by the locum GP that this is the only clinic in Yishun that offers 24hrs service)

Mun was given a jab to stop that nauseanous and 2 types of medicines.
and I was still in disbelief.....Managed to weigh myself while waiting for the clinic assistant to dispense the medicines ( I didnt manage to do so the first time).
I was 5kg heavier than the usual scale I got from home...!!

something is wrong, is it me or the scale? oh gosh! now im the one feeling like throwing up...i think im gonna dispose that scale machine ..get a new one.
It will be my 3rd.

This weekend,we have 2 wedding invitations to attend. One is my ex-colleague and the other is Mak's former colleagues.

Both are getting sons in laws.
(yeah, my former colleague is that old)

Friday, June 27, 2008

#469

#469 - reminds me of our old place in AMK.
12 years. Life full of ups and downs. It was not easy yet not that hard either.
It was not so comfortable yet not that miserable either.
It was plain simple.

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A fellow colleague from another centre, K called to inform she had received a favourale reply and shall be leaving us in less than a month time. I guess its time of the year when new faces start coming in to fill in the gaps.

K is infact moving on to a much greener pasture.
Im sure she will be happier there...Im happy for her.
Both of us had been ranting over the phone the past weeks, encouraging one another to look into the brighter side of the situtation and shared our common views on the poor management...

Sigh...another kind soul is leaving :-(

Thursday, June 26, 2008

#468

Gosh! Enrichment course is so costly.
I've signed up for one time 4 hours session and I have to pay $155.
Equivalent to almost $39 per hour...more expensive than Ezzaty's tuition.
The response is so overwhelming that I have to reseve a place by sending a cheque for a class which will only commerce in August!

I want to acquire the skill.
4 hours seem short to master everything...hmmm, i dont really know what to expect.
But I hope it will lead me to something.....

Will be going for Aqua aerobic later, we are left with 2 more lessons.
Oh, I'll be jogging alone tomorrow. L cant make it.

I hope to watch a movie with Edd this weekend or at least a dinner just the 2 of us.
I dont seem to remember which shift he will be working...so many things on my mind.

#467

I think its time to change my profession.
Im not sure if I had enough of numbers, figures and digits.
But Im sure that my skill is getting from bad to worse.
Imagine, overlooking a simple task like bank recon..yeah, it's this bad.

If you were to tell me what I should be doing best at this age, I would appreciate if its not that home business or multi level marketing. I dont see where the revenue is coming...

I dont mind doing admin but for the many past attempts of applications, I've got rejections merely because I have more accounting experience.
I dont see the logic - its not as if I dont do admin at all. It will be a different thing if I were to be applying for Accounts when all the while I was doing admin. What a crap!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

#466

The day has finally came.
Masya' Allah, the place is so far and remote.
I followed what was written on the signboard, it seems as if i was walking down an endless road leading to nowhere!
All went well I supposed....*rolled eyes*

I was not familiar with the place, hardly been in the west, it was my first time.
Had i not been there, I would not have stepped into Muhajirin Mosque to perform solah.
Been passing the mosque since I was young but never had the chance to be in till today.
Alhamdulilah, syukran to Allah S.w.T for the opportunity.
Felt so down, after saying my prayer, I was not really into communicating to tell him what was bothering me.
All I care - if my effort will lead me to something....

I dont see going through all this for nothing, not to pass time, obviously.
HE knows best, shall leave it to HIM, im just being hopeful.

Was so glad that there is a direct bus to home.
I abandoned the thought to have lunch (yeah @ 4pm, I still had nothing since morning).
It felt so weird to be eating out alone..so i headed home, bought pancakes along the way and it felt so good to be home early.

yup! I have cancelled my lesson on Sunday.
I have a date with L. Jalan jalan cari barang....

#465

I've decided to terminate my registration and register at the other centre.
Thanks R for your encouragement and support.
Friend like you makes life worth living.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

#464

Ezzaty joined the kids at the centre yesterday for the 'flight' - yes, the S'pore Flyer.

I missed my chance last Saturday for the company's retreat. Just came back from the getaway, I was not that keen and quite unwell. Didnt miss much really, from Ezzaty and some of my colleagues, it was quite slow and b-o-r-i-ng....half an hour sitting in the capsule waiting to make one full round....okay, im being whiny...im not being a wet blanket. try for urself..u may Like it.

On a better note, im looking forward to Wednesday to get it done and over with.
Its been a month..so im quite surprised to have it coming, the excitement almost died down after a long wait.

Another dreadful lesson tomorrow...i dont know what to expect, but i know im expected the best...SIGH!

Friday, June 20, 2008

#463

Im feeling insecure. Each day.
I have no confidence executing the task.
Changes been made every now and then.
Journal entries and reversal are getting norm eversince.
Worst, the one giving instruction is not sure herself.

Im sure someone is getting the blame.
Let's pray it's not me.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

#462

Oh great! Mun has uploaded our short getaway photos..








Tuesday, June 17, 2008

#461

When it was A's turn to be appraised, i reminded him to ask on my behalf about the Saturday's duty.
He did and I was called in - yeah!!! as from July, I will be working 5 days a week ( trading in with additional 4 hours on the week I was supposed to work or to reduce my Annual Leave by 5 days)

I chose the first, as it is now, I come to work early and left later, so why not make it official. I dont see the need to sacrifice my leave.

oh well, SM mentioned about me skipping participating the company's events twice....hello! I was certified unfit, what's the fuss!? dont make a mountain out of a mole, dear!

Been contemplating to leave if I was not able to opt for the 5 days work. Was told the working hours here is flexible, so if things are getting rigid for me, I dont see why i should stay.

Yeah, i know im beginning to be a 'grasshopper' job hopping. Ya see, supplementing the household's income should not be a stressful one, I want to be happily employed and enjoy the 8 hours away from home, so I have to work in a 'friendly' environment. so that's explains why i dont mind Not staying in a job if it does not fit my need in one way or another.....

My CV is getting longer with the list of various employments,
Im sure those experiences will come handy someday. No pain no gain.

Other than not having THE confident with the management (have voiced it out with SM), its okay so far here. (its quite an issue, really)

Only time will tell for how long.....for now, just looking forward to every payday :-)

#460

I chose to let it out, instead of acknowleding what had been said.
It was quite demoralizing to be listening to all the craps right in the face.
And even told to buck up.

Waited for her last say before I rebuked.
It was not true that I have been taking longer time to complete the report.
She did not realised that I have been receiving orders from the superior, the one above her. I have been given additional days for months, okay....!
As far as I know, I have been adhering to the dateline...so it was so lame to take the blame for nothing.

so much for working in small office. superiors not communicating and i was getting the crap! It was THE appraisal thingy again...Guess what, I highlighted to her that she's been insensitive and rude at times. well, its an open appraisal afterall....

I was so mad that I had forgotten to ask about the Saturday off....

Monday, June 16, 2008

#459

Yesterday's driving lesson was one of my worst.
(yeah, cant recall how many times I feel like giving up).
If not for Ed paying for the lessons, I would have stopped long time ago.

I hate every one of it, no fun and it is so tiring.
I still prefer to be driven around, which is almost impossible now.
No way to turn back now, I have spent so much time on this, sacrificing my morning Sunday for an early lesson. Sigh sigh sigh... I shall not elaborate the blunders I did, it was just too exhausting as it was.

Move on until the TP, which was less than 2 months...yeah yeah yeah!
Im so bochap, I think on the test day, I will not feel nervous at all but full of anger!

Just pray on that day I will not be a murderer..

Friday, June 13, 2008

#458 - it was over

We were back last night. The jam was manageable Except for one inconsiderate driver, as if you owned the road!

I was supposed to update for Day3 to Day5 but was too occupied. Too exhausted, been going around the whole KL, the first thing reaching our hotel room, it would be sleep and more sleep..yep!

3rd day - Sunway lagoon was a far cry from the last time we went. Improved in many ways but certainly more costly. We were not allowed to bring our own foodstuff, sigh!

We left for Jalan Masjid India after that, looking for decent place to eat.
We spent almost 3 hours at Sunway Lagoon, certainly needed to fill our stomachs.
As much as we loved fast food, I guess we had enough, it was only our 3rd day, we were already looking for plain rice and dishes!

There was a bazaar nearby,(Mun was delighted) I was lucky that the sales girl was nice to me and even offered a tissue paper after i spilled the powder! Offered to pay her but she declined, thanks, so sweet of you.

Jalan Masjid India was surrounded with many shops selling Muslimah outfits and headscarves, yeah, I could not decide which ones. I bought 3 blouses and didn't realize that I had paid more than Mun for the same outfit. So much for the bargaining skill....

We celebrated Ezzatty's 8th birthday with cake from Secret Recipe (just a slice since a whole cake will be too much for all of us here) and pizzas!

On our 4th day, it was sightseeing around the town and neighborhood. Getting lost is no big deal for us, and I'm still not getting better at reading the map. Petaling Street was heaven to those who love to bargain.. Mun & Mak were enjoying themselves getting the right stuff at the right price.

At night, we were packing for our Melaka stopover. Luggages were getting heavier with the soiled laundry and some stuff we purchased. Checking out was a breeze, didn't take us even 5 minutes, I was feeling rather sad leaving the hotel, service was excellent, really made us feel at home. and we were entertained with good shows via their inhouse channels and star movies.

Our last destination was at Mahkota Hotel - I had reserved a unit of the service apartment.
Only for a day, so this will do but for longer stay, i dont think i shall consider staying here again...I'll book for a hotel room instead.

We've been going to the shopping complex opposite, so this time we tried the one further and it was so huge we didn't manage to cover all. Most of the time it was at the Historical Gallery where Me & Mun bought some key chains and souvenirs and Mak bought keropoks and some snacks.

I think for our Raya preparation, I shall shop here instead of JB.
The quality is better and there is more range to choose from - cushions, clothes, homeware, etc.

After breakfast, we left for Ayer Hitam to have our Zuhur and lunch at MarryBrown.
Went into the rural areas to have a look at kampung life before heading to JB for our early dinner and magazines!

It was an enjoyable trip for all of us especially Mak.
I'm sure to plan for a longer stay like this, maybe at other state.
But by the look of it, everyone is not getting enough of KL - me too!

Monday, June 9, 2008

#457 - DAY2

Time definitely moves slower here.
I slept at around 12+, woke at 3 in the morning all fresh as if i had slept for ages.
Cant get back to sleep, it was cold here and found myself watching the star movie channel.
Im not sure the title of this movie but definitely it was worth watching.

I never expected to actually enjoy watching 'ancient' movie. the story plot was way back in the 30's era...such a moving show. a magician found his lost love, reunited in the most unexpected way..im not into romantic movie but yeah, it melted my heart.

We will be going down to Sunway Lagoon later, its been like so long since the last time we've been there. when Ez was only one and now she's 8. oh yes, today is her BIRTHDAY....! Happy birthday dear! No party like the year before, but im sure being here will be much a delight!

We didnt go anywhere last night except to the mall downstair, we were so much worried about Najmi not having the appetite and we were not sure what to feed him. Fortunately our hotel is conveniently located - whipped potato saved the day. Food court and convenient stores were just round the corner, have your pick but then i have to be mindful and wise...im not gonna put on weight! i will still choose a healthy diet....speaking of which, i ate too much junk food the moment we arrived here....ummmh!

My! the things here are quite expensive...dinner alone cost us close to 100 bucks!

im looking forward to have that bargaining power at the pasar malam and im not gonna miss going to Jln Masjid India...!

Sunday, June 8, 2008

#456 - reached - DAY1

Ani,

we have safely reached KL @1130hrs. (yeah i know, im crazy about KL)
It wasnt hard finding the hotel, it just that im really bad at reading map!
been going round the same route, what do you know, the hotel was just next to us...

We didnt let the chance to slip...yes A & W! had that chance at Yer Keroh , Melaka.
Didnt get the chance for the past trips, im not gonna let it slip this time.
KFC was already opened but we waited patiently for the outlet to open...exactly 0900.
at last A & W float and cheeseburger....(yeah, i know it was abbit too early to indulge on those cold drinks)

gone were the anxiety to lose weight and being a health conscience freak. it's not easy to have a bite of that much yearned junk food..though the burger tasted slightly different.

Cant seemed to upload photos here though the internet is rather fast....
we are resting first, the 5 hours ride was too much for Mak....she wanted to have a nap and Najmi is really cranky!

Friday, June 6, 2008

#455

Im blogging here, waiting to cool down before having my shower.

I was very early, reached the park @ 7.40pm when L smsed to inform that she would be late and wanted to meet @ 8.30pm instead. Told her to take her time since i was already there, no worry i could utilised the time to warm up with the facilities available. she was worried i will be bored waiting....but nope, i really was enjoying the moment exercising alone...

I had a blast time doing my favourite - swung from side to side...it was fun and rewarding!

I stopped to read the notice that those facilities were actually set up for the S-E-N-I-O-R citizens! kah kah kah!
I find this quite amusing..how about us?
I guess we were supposed to only jog there....

Had 2 laps of run. Wanted to catch a movie, with all the sweats, it will be good to cool down in the aircon watching a show.
BUt the queue was just impossible...and there wasnt any show that I would love to watch...next time maybe, eh.

So we went back to the park to have a drink and chat....like usual!
L called this a weekly social event..for working mums.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

#454

Still have not recovered fully.
Headaches come and go.
Was on MC yesterday, I was feeling feverish on Monday after visiting N.

Didnt thought that N was this serious.
I smsed her on Sunday, asking about her well-being and updating her on my latest progress.
She replied to inform that she was at KKH, she was bleeding and I THOUGHT it was a normal discharge. Didnt even cross to inform the rest of the colleagues about her condition - thinking it was just a normal C-Section problem.

In the middle of the night, Kak S called to inform that N was admitted into ICU, her condition was critical....
I was speechless, I should have sensed earlier...what kind of friend am I?

I could not wait till end of the day to visit her, so told SM about N (i know N would not be happy to see her) and told her that I wanted to visit her during lunch time, I asked her to tag along for obvious reason. She could drive us there...
Soon the rest of the staff at other centres knew about it and managed to get one of the principal to join me. It will be awkward to have only me & SM visiting N, ONLY me and her in the car...urgh!...

I was so glad to be the first to have visited her. She was still very weak. She had lost lots of blood and was still recuperating after the blood tranfusion. I know that her mind was elsewhere. She was not really into having any conversation...but at least we were not kept in the dark of what was happpening....slowly but surely she managed to inform us the reason she was being admitted. It must've been hard on her.....

She's been transferred out from ICU and now in the High Depency Unit for further observation, really hope she is getting better, I have not had any latest news.

But staff are taking turn to visit her...and i hope our presence in one way or another will cheer her up.

N, get well soon.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

#453

Did springcleaning. Im happier with MY room now.
yeah, its mine since most of the time Edd will be on night shift.
Will find a day when both of us are free to clear some of the 'treasure' in the wadrobe.
Keeping the room as minimal as possible, as simple as it can be and hassle free.
I want to have more space to do my routine aerobic..getting a dvd player for myself is next on my list.

Its been almost 6 years, about time this room for a makeover...i need new colour!

I'm currently reading 'Plain Truth' by Jodi Picoult.
She will be my favourite author after Ann Rule.

Im looking forward to nex tweek.
I'm taking a week leave to be with the family and away from home....at last!