#452

I cant get to sleep.
Neighbours opposite our flat are having domestic argument, yep, its almost one in the morning!
what the hell are they thinking?

Cant they wait or will it be less thrilling to be screaming at each other in the daylight!
Wanted to call the NPP but I had done that numerous time...can someone do it for me this time round? P-L-E-A-S-E!

We did 3 laps, better than last week, and I can feel the ache....and more rounds for weeks to come...
and L was earlier than me this time..I was at the junction waiting for the green light, and she was already at the park doing her warmups...heheh!

My scale is down by another 0.5kg....:-)

#451

Boy! am sleepy....!
Nice weather, no superior to boss around and the workload is slightly better compare to the past few days...im so tempted to have a short nap.

Didnt had a bite since morning, been busy executing the payable function that I had forgotten about breakfast. No wonder, I felt like throwing up whatever I had for lunch. Eee...i hate to have experienced that....urgh!

I've made up my mind to let go and now im kinda regret.
whats done cannot be undone...need to move on.
I'm really bad in making decision and making choices....:(

#450 - aftermath

Just came back from our routine jog, this time it seemed further but actually it was not as much as last week.
I was not really into it partly because I waited so long to do the step up exercise (a couple was at it for so long) that i had lost the momentum. We jogged for a while, walked a whole big round and sat to discuss about our future plan, err...individually.

Didnt know we were at the same frequency - we have the same interest to learn that language...it will be useful for the future especially me, to communicate with Ezzaty.

okay, im for it......I just need to complete my driving lessons, then I could safely plan for the day to attend class "-)

#449

I dont see why you have nothing good to say of your own race.
Blood is thicker than water.
Just because you THINK life has been good to you, that does not give you every right to condemn our sisters and brothers.

You think you ARE different from anyone of us but the fact is, you are very much the SAME.
Denial. Always.

#448

I didnt get to see H for the last time.
But was told by the Boss that he has to see me tomorrow to pass a cheque.
It's the short notice in lieu payment. I was assigned to ensure the acceptance. why me? told you i dont want to get involved.

Never thought it will end this way for him.

Im really disappointed with the way staff are being treated here.
You slogged so hard but when one tiny mistake happen, you becomes the biggest enemy.
How fair can it be? Dont the effort and sacrifice made mean a thing? well, I guess not.

I could well anticipate such treatment if Im leaving by giving short notice...hah!

oh yes, Edd is still trying to overcome his grief over the loss of his 2 colleagues.
The news of them passing on is on the NewPaper front page today.
It was too sudden and too tragic. Fatal mishap in the course of duty.
My condolences to both families, sharing your sorrows during this painful moment.

Like I've mentioned, life is a surprise as it is. One moment you are here, the next, you will be gone forever.

Treasure those around you while you can, before it's too late.

#447

Things are getting from bad to worse in the office.
Blame it on M's headwindness - he can be so MIScommunicated and MISunderstood.
And I was the latest 'victim' - what EXACTLY have i done?"

Whatever - Shall not waste my breath arguing. Just a waste of time and effort.
I shall not take any sides, it does not concern me in any way. I'll be a fool to join in.
Blame it on yourselves for being childish.
And why do i have to rant on this?

hmm...
i hope my first step to pursue my personal interest will be here soon.
That will be my only hope to fulfill Mak's wish.
I cant get on work on those dreams if I am not able to make time for the lessons.
I have tried and now its T-a-w-a-k-a-l that Allah s.w.t will smoothen my effort.

Im not sure how long my journey here,
Im just hoping i can get all done before my time is up.
Dont get me wrong, im not suffering from any chronic illness, we all know that life is a surprise as it is.
I hope to have prepared sufficiently for both worlds. I've got many tasks in life to be accomplised.
Time has always been the biggest issue.

oh yes, I've been thinking about MS again. give it a rest. about time.

#446

Photos of us during the "marathon"
We jogged all the way to Bottle Tree Park to have a short rest on the swing
That's her being so chubby
I could not possibly sit at the other end, the see-saw gonna break in no time.


Have stopped drinking coffee for almost 3 weeks now.
Replaced with non-fat powder milk.
It has been a smooth transition until now, right after lunch, my eyes just could not open. I cant find other alternative than caffeine intake...urgh!
I think I shall go for a power nap...

I think I have to drink lots of water - more than usual.
The heat is hitting me so bad, been drinking alot but have been going to the loo lesser these days.

Each time I reach office, im drenching with sweats.
The aircon temperature is already at its lowest, but of no help.

I've yet to upload photos of me and Ezzaty on Vesak Day.
We jogged, exercised and briskwalked for 3 solid hours...bravo!
She's loving it...

#445

It was an emotional day to start the week.
H confided in me of what was happening between him & M, somehow i could understand why he took it this bad.
Worse, he had decided to leave soon - giving notice of 24 hours!

Im gonna lose another good pal.
He should not be here in the first place.
His efforts go unappreciated and with his qualification and experience, this company does not deserve a good employee like him.

HE DESERVES better...all the best, friend!

#444 -lift me up

HI!
Just came back from GV after watching Made of Honor, the one that I've been looking forward to watch.
It was a good show, I must say.
Thanks Mun for the company and the treat *wink*

It was a lovely day well-spent and my spirit was lifted a level higher with the selawats, qasidahs and doas.
I felt at peace.

Started as early after the morning prayer. Left home @ 7am to attend the mass Maulidur Rasul celebration at Hougang Stadium. I thought we've been to the wrong place, it was almost empty when we reached. There were even joggers....
But as soon as we were seated, the crowd started to come in, thousands were expected to turn up and they did.

Im glad to be early, we've got good seats.
I could see clearly the Ulamas from here- PRICELESS.
Its not always that we get to see them, not one but 7 of them.
Wow! I went not knowing what to expect, this is an experience to be remembered in life.

2 ulamas are from Spore while the rest are from our neighbouring country-Indonesia.
Their speeches were amazingly awesome. Their voices were firm yet soothing.
There is nothing to complain about though it took 5 hours of our time. Subhanallah.

Alhamdulilah to HIM for opening my heart to attend though it was such a waste for not bringing the kids along especially Najmi, or else Im sure to get him to the stage to meet the Ulamas like some lucky kids did. Next time, Insya-Allah.

We went home NOT empty-handed - souvenirs and nasi beriyani were generously distributed:-)
The organiser did a GREAT job - all smooth, well-organised and tertib.

p/s: Didnt get to take pics with my uncle D, though we met. It was quite a rush outside the stadium, with loads of them waiting for the buses.


The crowd, more were at the gate waiting to be ushered in
The honorable Ulamas - Subhallah.
I was smitten by his well-delivered speech and qasidah
Upclose - the rest of the Ulamas
The annoucement for the donation collected to be shared between Masjid An-Nur and Masjid En-Naeem.

#443

Im kinda being influenced by Ani on posting some poem...
this one is truly reflecting what I'm feeling at this very moment

"Inspirational Love Poem ~ Just Be Yourself
by Donna Newman "

Just Be Yourself

To be who you are
is to be enough
To share who you are
is to share enough
To do what you love
is to do enough

There is no race to win
and nothing to be proven
only dreams to be nurtured
a self to be expressed
and love to be shared

Never doubt your worth
and always know
without any doubt
that you are truly valued

#442 - at last

with L @ 10.20pm, having a chat below my flat..

At last, ive found a jogging partner and that we shall meet every Friday for that mission!
As I have anticipated, I had so much fun meeting her. she is such a jovial person..

We miscommunicated on our meeting point - we werent thinking about the same temple. hahah...
so i had a brief warm up of briskwalking for about 15 minutes getting to the right temple, i was already sweating before meeting L.

And the park was crowded, there was some kinda event going on....too much noise!
Changed venue, and went to another park further....and no regrets!
I certainly loved doing the rowing exercise on one of the machine available.
better than the one we had tried in the gym....

I LAUGHED MORE.....cant stop giggling when im with her....
L, was clowning in front of me, imitating some old folks doing line dance...how to focus lah Meena!

All in all, we didnt really jog, but mostly briskwalked around the neighbourhood, it took us one and half hour to complete the route before reaching my place...well, at least we were perspiring :-)

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yeah right! I had a date with Eddris to Simpang Bedok after that..heheh!
It's hard to reject cos lately we had little time spent alone...
I was not to suppose to have anything after 8.30pm...it was already 1 in the morning...
cant possibly admiring what he was having.

SO I had to choose a healthy menu...yeah - roti john and Milo dinosaur...keh keh keh!
hmmmm.....sinful *bluek*!

#441

Weekend is finally here.
How I wish the weekday is shorter each week.
I have skipped my practical lesson for this week.
It will be a busy weekend, I just could not accomodate the time to learn. Saturday is just too short for anything.
What am I up to? Lets see -

Saturday morning - with the children, afternoon with Mum to class and evening, time for myself.
Sunday - half of the day I will be @ Hougang stadium with Mum for the Maulidur Rasul. It will be the first after so many years of missing it. I'll get to meet my Uncle D and family there. I'll try to snap some pics.
MOnday - its HHHOOOLIDDDDDDDDAY peeps! Eddris has promised to spend the time out with us..lets see where he would be bring us out....I shall not hope for anything EXTRAordinary...knowing him for so long.

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I'll be meeting L tonight, a friend of a friend who becomes one of my dear friends.
We could click instantly and chatting nonsensically is quite a norm between us.
Its her good nature that makes me feel so comfortable to pour it out, if not all but the ones I find it hard to say it out to others.
Funny how, I could confide in her, someone whom i know in a short time but yet i will be so reserve to a friend of ours whom I had known for more than a decade.

It shows that friendsip built is not based on number of years but the understanding that ones can offers.

I read in her Multiply how she wants to shed some fats and me being a health freak recently offered to accompany her to jog...isnt it great???

I can anticipate a joyous jogging session....haahahhaa!

#440

My dear friend @ work was admitted to the hospital.
She is at her 33rd weeks (to be due in mid July) BUT the baby has stopped moving and the contraction could be felt.
Its too early to let the baby see the world, what's more when there is a complication with the heartbeat.
Was told the only next best thing doctor could do is to stop the contraction and placed her under observation.

We thought of visiting her tomorrow but time does not permit.
And I was so sure that she will be discharged soon when she smsed asking me to bring the book to name her child.
so she will be delivering soon after all. how soon, we are not certain.

Hope all goes well for both Mum & baby - im gonna miss N for 3 months!
and i hope to visit her soon.

#439

what's wrong with me?
Been feeling lethargic since morning, and what i did was keying some data and procrastinate till lunch time was over.
I even had lunch an hour earlier, joining the guys when no other female counterparts were around.

I guess the Friday meetup did some wonders.
I just dont feel like working....im looking forward to the weekend and the upcoming holiday on Monday.

#438

Im so not in the mood to work.
Been google searching aimlessly.
I tried many times to find details of that person, about time to move on..hah!
Not in facebook, not in friendster, where else to look for.

Yep, I've got a companion to jog with.
I cant wait for Su, she's been busy with her exams.
Kovy had agreed to jog with me on Wednesday nite next week, yeah, I've asked the right person. lets hope we can make it.

Im sure he has alot to say about the course and i have lots to ask.
I miss those times when were taking the FM course. 10 months of struggling with work, exams, lectures, tutorial and results. and 10 good months of friendship....glad that we are still in contact.

I have just had my lunch. Smaller portion each day. and with consistent exercise, I hope to reach my ideal weight...6 more kilo to shed off. must not give up!

Endure. Persevere. Maintain.

#437 overdue pics on backdated posts

my colleague S-H-A-F in one of her mischievous mood
One of the bus ride around Sentosa
One of our many JB visits, this one was taken in the hair salon, waiting for Mun to have her haircut done
I was getting ready to visit Raz, and he was busy having fun with the stuff in our storeroom
our skyride pose....

the kids were NOT supposed to be running around the musollah! but look at them,having so much fun playing hide & seek in Al-mukminin mosque's prayer hall, sigh!
I was reading by the river, and Ezzaty was busy snapping photos..
In one of our bonding time outing, had lunch at Pizza Hut. She was eager to finish this up while I had to take my time to finish up the rest for her....no wonder Im gaining weight!
Getting ready for one of our late shoppings at Mustaffa's..look at those eyes, trying hard not to doze off

#436

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL MOTHERS!

Received wishes via sms since Monday, thanks pals!

Ayah brought all of us to IMM.
He was on 2 shifts the day before, I was surprised that he wanted to bring us out, all unplanned.
Thank you so much for spending the time with us.
He should be catching up on his sleep since he will be on night shift again, but I guess once a while sacrificing for your loved ones is just worth it...right? no?

anyway, dont care lah, as long we were able to be together though it was for a while.
Ezzaty had fun driving on that bear..her skill is getting better


Najmi refused to have the ride with Sis, but was all excited seeing the playground at the Garden..poor Nenek had to entertain him.

#435

So many things happen in a week that I didnt have the time to blog about it.

We didnt have Aqua Aerobic on May Day, so last Thursday after a week rest, most of us found the water level to be deeper than usual and the regime to be extremely difficult. hahhah! The instructress was wondering if we were angry at her because all of us were frowning...heheh! we were in fact focusing to get the steps right.

Exams period is officially over for Ezzaty by Friday. I took half day leave to have our bonding time on the weekday for a change. Headed to CityHall and spent most of the time at Esplanade - watching the moon, looking at the stationery Ferris Wheel and gazing aimlessly at the Merlion...She was busy snapping photos after that while I listened to some music and reading my Ann Rule by the river...wonderful!

Earlier on of the day, I met up with BC.
I was the first on the list by referral. It was very informal. This is so unexpected :-)

I had kept my promise to bring the kids to the pool.
Mun tagged along, thanks! Or else It will be very handfull.
The baby pool (wadding pool) was closed for some kind of maintenance.
The 1m depth pool was not that bad, (except for it was abit crowded with kids learning how to swim)
I managed to keep Najmi afloat and taught Ezzaty what I had learnt in the Aqua Aerobic. Fun!

Was back from the weekly class. I didnt have much for lunch but was so sleepy during class.
Fortunately ustazah diverted the topic, she went on to explain about the Haj journey which was interesting or else Im sure to have slept through the whole lesson.

Tomorrow lesson shall be from 9.30-11am. I guess my favourite time slot caused inconvenience to the instructor, i was immediately given this time before had the chance to book for one.

I hope im getting better. must learn to anticipate fast..hmm....its tiring at times.

#434

Still cannot decide.
Still contemplating between these 2.
BB or CD....both have their pros & cons.

This is one of the many I wish that life would be simpler.
I called Edd on his mobile to seek for his opinion.
As usual he wants me to decide for myself.
Duh! if i can, I would not have called you.

Haiya! this is so frustrating...
That's why its better to turn to HIM for guidance.
Cant depend on human being, always a letdown...well, its a bit of exaggerating...
okay, at least most of the times...

I think i would just go ahead, but then I have ALREADY cancelled the date.
huh!

silly me! always kancheong!

#433

Worked till 7pm so that I could go back with M.
Its not always that we are able to be together.
She is a part-timer, who reports to work at odd hours.
I like having chat with her.
she's straight-forward, very bubbly and understanding. (i know its kinda unmatch to mention all these)

I learn alot about life as a civil engineer.
She is one of the many in the centres who gave up lucrative pays and dynamic careers for their families.

It was during the economic downturn that most of them turn to teaching to earn the extra bucks while being homemakers.
M had been tutoring for the past 7 years, she would have joined the competitive market recently if not for her 3 sons.

And she is one of the few who have been shedding some lights on how the market is coping outside.
She's been very protective of me. Knowing what SM is like, she's been very positive about me exploring.
Thanks but I can still manage and endure.
Lets see for how long......gee....im be a year here in 2 months time. wow, so sssssslowwww!

I've swop with A on our alternate days,
I'll be back to office tomorrow, yet again.

I still have 6 more months of reports to dig....it shall be a horrible day in the office!

#432 - me, myself & i

I have been having silly thoughts lately.
so silly that i think its better to keep it to myself.

BUT Keeping things to myself isnt doing me any good.
I tend to blow my top at the wrong time, wrong place and wrong person...urgh!

How I wish things would be simpler.
That there are things I dont have to encounter.
Like making decisions and choices.

I need the space to be alone.
But impossible with 2 kids and a BIG baby who cry for my attention.
I cant be selfish. oh well, at times i am.

Im the daughter, the sister, the mother, the wife, the employee but at the end of the day Im still a person who needs all the time in the world to be and for herself. im not good at multi-tasking!

Ask me what i want, i wont tell you.
Because you will not be able to make it happen.

#431

Im still in the office, its housekeeping AGAIN!
Cant get the figure right, so I had to re-do as far as July 2007.
What to do? Someone has to clean up the mess, yeah im the lucky one.

May Day was great, went shopping with Mak alone.
Only when I was done, then she proceeded to source for the groceries.
She's a great companion, if only we share the love for watching movies, Im sure to ask her along...(i cant wait to watch Made of Honor - Mun, be free!)

Been going around, I wasnt too sure if i should be buying those blouses but she reassured that I will be needing them. Thanks Mak, I can be such a fickle minded.
Yeah, Im a happy customer - I have accomplished the mission to replace most of my office wear...cant do it at one shot, I shop for them gradually...heheh!

We were done after almost 3 hours...under the heat and carrying those bulky items, no
wonder i was so sleepy throughout the journey.

I had to issue yet another P n C Cheque...
Im not sure if anyone would feel the jitters..
getting orders to prepare such cheques enough to make me lose faith in the organisation.

someone ought to take up HR course..at times i felt it was unfair.