SIGH!
Jess pissed me off again today.
I thought I wont have to deal with THAT nonsensical attitude anymore.
called me to ask for help but as usual always end her conversation with sarcasm.
it's not her style, im sure about it, she just want others to share the blame...urgh!
as for today onwards, im not gonna pick any calls from her!
and poor Y has to bear with it....

well, summary of last week...
On saturday, I rushed home to pick up Ezzaty for Al-Irsyad's carnival.
such a letdown, very few stalls despite the many months of preparations.
I could not find anything to buy to utilise the coupons...
finally decided to purchase a Muslimah swimwear for Ezzaty and some brooches for myself.
we headed to BK @ Raffles Place, to spend time together like we used to have.
Sort of a compensation for her, i just could not hang around any longer at the carnival, with the rain, muddy soils, all the negativities....so i thought it would be great to treat her there, she loved it!

After Magrib, left to visit our aunt with Alia, Ani and the nephew and niece even Nurun, the maid came along.

Honestly, it was not the time to gather around to pick up the pieces and recollect all fond memories.
somehow, we had a heart to heart talk, my cousin EVEN confided in us of her trouble and her constant feud with her sis....if only we had been closer like before...if only we had that talk when my aunt was well, if only we were more forgiving. To forget and to move on....

Praises to HIM, my aunt is getting better, she could sleep longer,a s what Mak mentioned this afternoon.

Thanks to my other cousins who had painstakingly brought her for medication before her condition worsened,
Thank to Him, we stay united in time of pain and sorrow.

Sorry Nana for not turning up at your function,
your invitation came abit too late, we had other plans.
Next time maybe, hopefully the next time call us sooner....

Last night, I rushed to KT for the training session with Y.
Shall not go into details the things which made me mad before i left office.
Had some outstanding issues to solve, so far no call from Y, so everything is in order.

I reported to Mimi about the training and evaluate Y accordingly.
and also about J, should do something about her attitude.

Had an hour or so of meeting on the Mgt report and the housekeeping updates this morning.
I hope when I would be fully incharge of the accounts, S would be more helpful.
she could not accept excuses, no matter how reasonable they may be.
hmmm.....other than that, life has been a breeze at work - im still in honeymoon period....enjoy it while i can.
2 weeks time, back to business.

Had lunch with Leli, it was on me. no special occasion, i just felt like sharing. i was on cloud nine since morning, things had been great lately.

In return, a gathering with SY & SH @AMK Hub after work. Both paid for my meal.
and upon reaching home, Ani had ordered PIzzas to celebrate her increment! YUMMY!!!

Keberkahan hari Jumaat, a small deed being paid double, :-)

Me & Ani vsited kak nia last nite.
reached NUH almost to 8pm, lucky we took the cab.
Kak Nia looked well despite her swollen face - i guess she should be able to deliver soon.
I was so tired upon reaching home, almost to 11pm.
Affected my concentration in the office, I was having terrible headache.
Took a nap during lunch break so that I would have the energy for the rest of the remaining hours.

Called off my appointment with Y, sorry Gal, I was just too weak to conduct the training,
Could not wait to reach home to break fast - tomorrow shall be my 3rd day, Insya-ALLAH.

On monday, me, Kovy & Dolly went to Kaplan Cuppage to collect our transcripts.
both of them will be registering for the degree program in Oct.
I have to postpone due to my new jobscope.
need to settle down, at least till the probation period is over in Jan.

I would be 4 modules behind them when i enroll in April next year.
:-(

Sunday started early doing the norms - breakfast, reading BM, playing with Najmi and listening to Sandiwara Radio.
It has always been like these, only diff was then I had to play with Ezzaty, now that she's all grown up, she's on her own most of the time. Made plan to pick Ani to attend Cik Ram's wedding invitation @ Serangoon North. And fulfil Mak's wish to visit Cik Odah. Going back to our old flat brought back fond memories. Seeing our marble flooring and the pink gate-still the same....I miss those years.

Najmi was all excited to be out and met Azima, his other sister whom he adores greatly. should see how he hugged and kissed her like nobody business-lovely!He had not slept since morning, we wanted him to stay awake on way home so that he could have his dinner, sang to him and entertaining, all in vain. he could hardly open his eyes...

Received sms from Kak nia, could not believed what she had sent.
She was hospitalised since Friday night. Her waterbag had burst. She's due in October, that's way too early.
She has not delivered yet. I hope nothing serious and pray for both Mother & baby are well.
Should have informed earlier, we could have visited her then.....

ONE MOMENT IN TIME...sweetest :-)

Felt great after letting it out.
I may not make any sense, it seems like im getting it at nobody.
I guess I had endured too long to keep my sanity to the next level. WHATEVER!

Last night was great, spent time together with Ani watching our favourite videos and didnt realised it was already ONE in the morning. Time passed without you realising.

I shall miss doing this with her in time to come.
So for the time being, whatever limited time we have, shall prioritise on our favourite pastimes.

This time we were punctual for class. We took the train and bus 25. As suggested by our young makcik. I signed up for both me & Mak for the SATA health screen next week @9-10am. Mak should be for free since she will 55 this year but has not celebrated her BD yet so must pay $5...hehe...kak supiyah emphasized must adhere by the rules. I was surprised to see how "semangat" kak supiyah...happy nampak!

It was Tasauf today, my favourite lesson.

I HATE COPYCATS!
people dont seem to change.
Then, Now and it will be forever.huh!

Ani was right last night. both of us knew it instantly.

Technology advances arent helping to make people realise that they are not living in their own world. others know if you are making a mountain out of a hill.

If you think you are rich, millions are wealthier than you.
If you think you are smart, millions are cleverer than you.
If you think you are capable, million are better multi-tasker than you.
If you think you are lucky, millions are far more fortunate than you.

so whats the big fuss about deserving THAT great job?
its just a crap for all i care.

All i know people dont talk big when they have it all.
The higher they climb the corporate ladder the humble they become.

Hi-Tea end of this month.
*hmmm, not a good time....really. its end of the month, can we really afford the time?
I hope so. I think it should NOT be a problem. they know better, yah.
ALHAMDULILAH-makan free, banyak songeh plak aku nie.*overconcern over nothing*

Eddris came to fetch me from work. SURPRISED*
I thought I heard someone called my name. *blur2 searched franticly for the source*
Or I might be hearing things since that dizzy spell came again. *Not Again*
Turned to my right and saw him standing there smiling.*priceless-though that slender figure had long vanished*
Reached home earlier than usual (yahoo!)

its being quite sometime I had a ride home.(i hope this could be a permanent arrangement-*wink*)

funny though how i spent the entire day figuring out which digits had gone wrong-out of places.
always wonder how the reporting task would be. the final product for the Management team to review.
so here I am doing the housekeeping on the data that had been updated by the finance staff.

its a tedious process, need to focus and challenge my analytical skill.
getting the numbers right is only the tip of the iceberg.
to report on your analysis and findings is mouthful and must always makes sense.
its not the yes or no, more to why, how and if its reasonable for the variance.

more to come, i dont expect the worst. i have seen it but from a different angle.

after lunch, we had our monthly brief meeting, on our achievement, future target, bla bla bla...
and our annual D & D end of august....everyone seems to look forward to that event. its my first year so i have no anticipation for the fun...i hope im gonna have a rolling good time. and best still, i hope to have someone to go with me...

The day started and ended unbelievably slow.
Orientation was fast.
Having to travel to and fro under the scorching sun, I was sleepy way before lunch time.

I was treated to a hearty meal at Pizza Hut.
Good chance to get to know my new superior better. (*really hope she would not be like ED*)
But the moment we reached office, its platonicly the subordinate-superior thingy.
Back to business. Learnt abit of here and there. had to start somewhere since the reporting for last month account was half way through.

Many things to be handed down these coming weeks. N was super busy. I was left on my own most of the time after a briefing - real brief. not too bad though, I was not lost. S had me prepared for the transition period in Oct07-shall not worry for that yet.

My good friend came in at the 'right' time.
I could not fast to celebrate 1st Rejab.

Still, it was a memorable Rejab for me. I hope it was a good omen.

Dear Friends,

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN REJAB

Thanks to Mirna for uploading this photo.
Me & my other colleagues from Indonesia & Malaysia who came for the congress in March this year.

We were late again for kelas agama.
This time it was purely unforeseen circumstances.
There was an unbearable road jam towards Lentor Avenue.
The driver even asked me if I was going there when boarded the bus.
It stopped every minute and made a detour towards Upper Thomson, avoiding Lentor Avenue altogether. totally a different route!

I am still clueless to what actually had happened there.

Though we had missed the first half of the class, it seemed we had not missed much.
Half an hour of remaining preaching was priceless.
Ustazah reminded us to perform sujud syukur whenever our prayers are answered or each time good things happened, expect ot unexpectedly. Thanks for the reminder, I just did that. I thought after accomplishing my nazar is good enough....I owe alot of good things in life to HIM.

May Allah bless me through my remaining journey in this life. Whatever it happened, may it be for the best of dunia & akhirat.

We headed straight to Compass Point to redeem the Popular Vouchers which Ezzaty had earned for that published drawing in Berita Harian early June. I thought being published was good enough to boost her confidence, getthing the vouchers was even BETTER.

Yeah, you can expect she draws even more and harder eversince.

Alhamdulilah
Im promoted to AM-Finance.
Im surprised but very pleased.
Never thought it will be this soon.
Effectively on Monday, I hope my colleagues will give their full support and assistance.

Probation period for the new role is 6 months
My performance shall be reviewed and appraised each month.
I will be learning the rope from sifu for the next 2 months.
I will be meeting other AM/GM/SM, what have you from the other branches for orientation in months to come.

Everything changes in days, im still in daze.

Thank you for the opportunity.
I guess the advertisities and difficulities that I had been facing are indeed helping me to prepare for this new challenge.

Im no longer have report to ED who is constantly making my life miserable.(Yes5x, hands up in the air)*
I hope the new SM would be a much better superior to report to.(*prays hard*)

One positive note - I dont have to chase for collection. someone else will be doing that.
Peace at last.(*wink*)

ALHAMDULILAH!

Allah had answered my prayers. I was not confident of getting it.
Had been praying that I shall leave it in HIS good hands.
If it brings the best for both worlds, help me to get it fast and easy.
And hope that I will know soon, dont even have to wait till Friday
And was so glad, it happened.

As expected She made things so hard for me, too hot to handle, harder than usual.
I didnt show my displeasure (who am I to do that to the Director),
tried to put on a nonchalant expression but deep inside cant wait for the day to end!

Y is smarter than I thought. Help to ease the burden. At least, she made me smile today, apart from the other good news.

HELPPPPP!

SHE SHOWED HER TRUE COLOURS TODAY!

Now i understand what Celeste had been trying to tell me.
and V & C were telling that it was not something new.
she did that to all and im no exceptional.

Another day tomorrow and she will not even spare me the agony, GOD!

it must be PMS. usually i dont get annoyed easily especially to strangers. good thing i could control my temper.
or maybe she called a the wrong time. just got back from work and was tutoring Ezzaty on her Arabic homework. Need to be fast on the coaching since she was dozing off to sleep and she called, trying hard to persuade me. Definitely not a person who can take no for an answer.

I dont blame you, Ina for giving her my number, its business after all.
im not interested, no matter how lucrative it would be.
i know myself too well, im not into that kind of business and i dont see i would be in the near future.
like many before, i would end up being the buyer rather the seller..sigh.

this week shall be a busy one, i have to complete all the important tasks in 4 days!
been coming home late, cant finish those during office hour and worst, Boss had been instructing via sms from her luxury home since she was not that well to be in the office these days. pestering me to expedite on overdues, way back before i joined, harrassing with her words of "MUST DO IT TODAY BECAUSE ITS LAST DAY TO SUBMIT" .

then why cant you be resourceful to do it ages ago, you know very well when and what you have submitted in your claims. must you wait till it was the last day.

Not to mention, auditor being bugging me for documents and queries, all thanks to the previous Shirley. SO unethical of her to discard all the infos that I had been consolidating and collating for her and then she left nothing to the successor. I cant blame Joey, she's in these mess because of shirley, i have to get the things for her. by doing so, im doing repetition task- what a waste of time!

okay, enough of the outpour and outburst. hope all goes fine for the rest of the days.

After long absence from the spiritual needs, I finally attended first lesson at Istiqamah with beloved Mak.
854 had just passed, waiting for the next, we were sure to be late.
I suggested we took the train to AMK and boarded any bus which passed the route. Took 73 and oops..had to alight way further, sorry Mak, she was out of breath the moment we reached.

Ustazah had not arrived and I was so glad we had not missed anything.
Lesson of the first week for each month would be Tauhid - a subject to get to know HIM, Almighty - the most important aspect of Islamic Studies.

Terkedu sebentar, benar2 insaf bila Ustazah keluarkan kenyaataan yang kita tidak harus habiskan waktu dgn benda2 yg remeh-temeh, melayan perasaan dan emosi pada stress kehidupan kerana usia kita di dunia yg fana ini sangat singkat.
Tahu2 dah di alam lain...yeah, lalai sungguh aku...:-(

Masaalah demi masaalah akan senantiasa menghantui kita kerana mereka yg beriman akan senantiasa diuji.

Tersentak seketika dgn kata hikmat itu bila fikirkan apabila segala ikhtiar dan usaha kita kadang kala berakhir dgn kegagalan dan apa yg kita ingini tidak kesampaian. Bukan bererti ALLAH tidak sayang malah dgn segala usaha disertakan tawakal dan keredhaan itu sebenarnya mendapat perhatianNYA. Yg selalu diuji itu selalu dalam pengetahuaannya. HE is with us and those adversities draw us closer spiritually.Eternity.

Tidak hairanlah kalau kita lihat mereka yang taat dengan perintahnya menghadapi byk cabaran - ada sahaja masalah.
tetapi sebalik kesukaran itu ada hikmahnya, there is a lesson behind and paling penting kasihsayangNYA untuk jaminan di akhirat.

sebaliknya mereka yg ingkar dgn perintahnya akan bertambah kesenangannya kerana usahanya itu tanpa Rahmatnya - esok lusa apabila kesenangan itu ditarik balik - dunia akhirat musnah. Nauzubillah. tidak mahu pertikaikan. Lindungilah kita semua daripada kemurkaan.

its been a hectic week. updating the sales was a drag!
Mimi came on Wednesday to conduct interviews, its the 2nd round and the response was not much different from the first. only 2 turned up. People dont seem interested to join us. Market must be good outside, jobs are abundance and so being a SMEs does not really interest them compared to MNCs.

we were keen to employ this lady, having few years experience working in UK and ACCA qualified But the salary she demanded was way too high (asking too much I must say...)AND she has to give 2 months notice to her current employer...just too bad.

So far only 3 were shortlisted, at last minute Joe wanted to advertise the position in Sat's paper. Cannot spend more than $500 and at such a short notice, I was glad Ras was the one who attend to my queries. Had to do it by noon, after compromising on the layouts and quotes, I had to decide on behalf of Joe (who really took his time to give the grren light)to have agreed to the cost and the layout....or else we will never make it on time.

Oh yes! while Mimi was here, Me & Ani took time off to spend half a day with her to shop. Mimi suggested Bugis around the place she stayed. It was supposed to be Mimi to shop giler, but i was the one buying liked some kinda tourist...heheh...cant help it, they were cheap and I really needed them. so it was a good bargain!

on a much happier note, WIPL called ten minutes before I knocked off. ( i thought i was invisible to them since I had submitted twice since last year)
She will call again on Monday to confirm the timing. I hope it will be once and for all - AMIN!!!

First day of the month AGAIN

Its the beginning of the month AND its the 2nd qtr.
I dread for these - it will be rush rush rush......
I thought I could complete at least half of the accounting entries, but due to the GST hike, some invoices had to be back dated and my June accounts could not be finalised...urgh. told Mervin tomorrow shall be the last day for the last minute changes. No further requests to be entertained after that. Or else there will be no end...

Ezzaty had gone next door for mengaji - Quran reading,
What she had learnt from school is insufficient, and since my neighbour is a qualified Asatizah at one of the madrasahs here and she does teaches children after school, it would be a waste not to send her there to brush up her reading.

I reached home later than usual, Mak was rushing to mosque for her Iqra lesson and in the midst of helping me to carry my grocery, she was fast to mention that Ezzaty was getting ready to start her lesson. Unlike her, she's the type who would wait for me to accompany her....a good change.

While waiting for Isyak, i am typing this entry and after prayer, I shall sit with Ezzaty for her spellings...Najmi was fast asleep, thankfully.

And then off for an early dream zzzzz....