long busy leave

my long absence from work is a blessing for Mak.
How timely. she has not been feeling well - body ache, headache, cramps and the symptoms of an aging lady.

being a stay at home mum for a while, Im taking over looking after Najmi (yeah boy! im so exhausted entertaining him!) and fetching Ezzaty from school. Time passes superly fast at home, i notice. wake up as usual that early (thought i could sleep abit longer) to do the marketing, feeding Najmi,putting him to bed, then its noon, his lunch time, and occasionally i will cook lunch if Mak not cooking, then time to fetch Ezzaty, and rush for class after that and its time to bed when i reach home....

Mak is worried if she may not be able to cope when im back to work (what more if shes not getting well fast enough),
she would also have to change her schedule. with me around, she is ever so busy, what more if im not around.

reality bites

i have realised too late that:

1. It never pays to sympathise with those who have not been getting what they want cos once their wishes are granted, their personalities would TOTALLY change.

2. Humble people are getting harder to find nowadays. each time they open their mouth, its full of airs and smell of shits.

3. office politics and office scandals exist and classified as open secrets. when you say it out, a sshhhh echoes. but somehow you know the whos, wheres and whens.

4. love and hate collide in any friendship. funny how a friendship remains and will never dies when one always has to listen and the other never.

5. blood is thicker than water. not extended to relatives, i suppose.

whats up BABE??

i dont believe in Revenge but i do believe in Retribution.
what goes around will comes around.
let The ONE Above deals with you.
coming from me may not justify what you had done.
i leave to ALMIGHTY HIM to give you the best what you will deserve for all these mess.
but i need to shout it out, cant stand your kaypohness!

i dont see whats the big fuss. its not my fault that i am invisible to the SS.
i was relocated to a very serene location-away from the hustle of noisy jerks like u.
i may not be supervised and no one monitors my movements anymore.

but im not idling away and certainly not shaking my legs doing nothing.
just because everytime you pass by my cubicle i may be doing my personal stuff.
it does not mean im doing that for 8 hours.
you must be crazy thinking i would waste my money talking on my mobile just because there is no phone on my desk.
i choose not to have the phone, i no longer deals with pple - internal & external. and i hate pple calling my extension for the wrong reason.

u never thought SP would inform me what you had asked her..if im doing anything being alone there.
thanks SP for your kindness.

hey u!! please mind your own business, i know you are so FREE (since in few days time you wld be officially transferred to new section) dats y the findling faults on others, digging all the historical records to improvise things around and doing voluntary checks! this explains the surprise email from SS - she never ask anything from me that way.

im capable to work on my own, with the least supervision, i have always been- no doubt about that..

if you think i have been missing in action these few days, have you been resourceful enough, go into the filing room?

i was there for 3 damn days helping the auditors - a task which all of you love to avoid.
should be thankful that i am still around, im not surprised it could be you sniffing around the shelf next time.

family Park day

we had been planning to have a family day in this not so sure the name park eversince it was opened to public about a month ago. and finally we made it happened. from far, it looked like a resort with pple fishing, but we realised it was like a kampung with small huts scattered across the plot of land.
it was such a hot sunny day that my face was turning dark and oily....
Najmi refused to put on his hat and so was frowning all the way in his pram.

while watching Ezzaty from far, we were eyeing for that wooden swing but some guy was faster than us. i had turned back to where i was sitting under the shade of coconut tree (we were lucky no coconut fell on us) - so malu!

but our disappointment was not long, as we strolled up to the far end towards the carpark, we saw 3 such swings...2 were occuppied and that one swing which was smaller than the other 2 was perfect 4 us.

yippee! it was quite sometime since i last sat on a swing and i was not alone...3 of us were together enjoying the ups and downs with the breeze of wind brushing across our oily faces..heheheh!!!

200107/1 Muharram-33rd NaNi

party wld be meaningless w/o them around

our beloved bro fai

girls power

cutting cake ceremony

birthday girls and that cake...

me and all the goodies

party gals!!

yummy Secret Recipe chocolate cake from Alia



2day I received many smses birthday wishes but d one which really took me by surprise was from Juff from far in Nogales. God! technology advances sure make the world seems so small...Thanks Juff, cant describe how touch i was :-) and to all my other fellow friends and cousins who went the trouble on d weekend to drop your wishes- thanks 2 d Sues from Tweerans, Kak Nia, Allysawati, Chris, Nicky, Juffrey and those who i have failed to mention but yes i received the mssges, SINCERE THANK YOU, thats the best birthday gift one could have-the thought that counts!! mak ai..cam menang grammy award bunyinya....hehehah!

not forgetting my sisters for their gifts and thoughts....thanks girls!!
this year is special cos i get to celebrate on the day itself and its more meaningful with d presence of all my extended family members!!! muacks!!

SUEweet surprise

me & ani in our younger years...splitting image - right????


Yay! I am flattered by Sue4ever's reply on my comment. n Also eee..so malu, pple reading my blog, the ever routine crappy entries, nothing amazing and always complaining. but thats what blog is for, to vent your frustrations and share the happy moments. i hope i dont hurt anyone's feelings when at times i wld be too vocal in expressing my thoughts. i do get carried away with emotions that pple might think im talking bad about them.

I cant resist to let Sue4ever know how i admire the special bonding she has with her siblings and how caring and thoughtful of her brother for the things he did. prioritise his siblings' needs more than anything else. thats what a brother should be - protective, caring and someone whom you can rely on. when i was younger i always dreamt of having an elder brother to protect me when i was being bullied :-(

I was in the filing room the whole day, retrieving documents for the auditors. my!! this company need to do alot of filtering and cleaning up on maintenance of good records. getting many temp staff to clear up all the mess is not a good solution. must have a good system and staff should be taught the right and clear way of doing things here, not by passing down asal boleh and then clear your hands off totally. i have made myself clear on this with the Director. it seems to fall on deaf ears.

after work, i rushed for an appointment which had to be cancelled on my way there. He promised to meet up tomorrow - i hope he will keep his words. hello..my time is precious too okay..not only yours, just because you have to fly around most of the time.

i could not alight half way through the journey, and so decided to alight where i was supposed to meet him and thought of calling mun. great! she was in Bugis and we decided to meet at Citylink. we passed Breeks and decided to have our dinner there since the waitress was so into promoting the valentines special grill set. i had seafood mar..sumthing like dat sphagetti and mun ordered Beef lasagne and we shared a moctail of the day which came with a cup of ice cream...totally forgotten bout that when i was about to pay the bill...had to return to our seat cos we were not allowed to take away...heheh!

aimlessly walking, i came across something for my twinny's birthday. i know my other sisters didnt but this for her,..so i thought it wld be a perfect gift for her,,,shall not say much in case she wld be reading this,

..happy 33rd birthday to Nooraini and myself.
we were born in the wee hours - almost subuh,
me -0435hrs and Ani at 0515hrs...half an hour diff..wow!! mak must be screaming like hell then.....

ABBA

Two down and one more to go. Assignment, submission date is on Thursday.
I have never done my work that late. Eversince I got my grade for that killer paper Economics, I don’t really put enough effort to do my assignment. Thank you so much for demotivating and demoralising my self esteem. Lame excuse??

Well, I have spent so much time to draft, reprint, redesign and I could say the most time consuming assignment of all that I had done so far. What do I get in return? B+ to A??!! Why cant she give me that A? Because I didn’t bind my copy, its black & white ?? I doubted so much that she had gone through the contents. Her comments : good data, substantial evidence, interesting attachment but no cover and no reference page?? Blind or what??
What is that enormous logo and index that I had thought out of the box so that it could value-added my report???

Urgh..like Kovy said, its a mistake that she came to our life. This is so unfair. If presentation meant so much to her, I would have just spend MORE time and extra cash (getting a graphic designer I suppose) to enhance the report rather spending my precious hours slogging in the library , google searching through the website and reading through all newspaper articles and reports pertaining to MARKET STRUCTURE in order that I could get that desirable A.

For the final year, its better got to be another lecturer to conduct Economics. (but then, why must we learn that again)
There is a possibility to switch to another institution . I dont want my grade to suffer AGAIN.

i should be so lucky

these images have nothing to do with this entry.
just love to upload pics to enhance my blog!!


Mun is so fortunate - for 2006-she had been winning numerous tickets entrances - movies, theatre, musical, tv shows, meet your idol face to face- what have you even for the most expensive VIP ticket which cost $250 per seat!
and to kick off 2007, yesterday when attending the TP's open house, she had won the 2nd prize- a Samsung MP3 player.

i guess all the computation on her monthly budget to buy the iPod will not come handy now. congrats - you do live up to your name. the light that shine so brightly..i am so flattered as well since i gave her that name. all of us were clueless to think of a girl's name since we thought we will be getting a brother. (boy or girl does not matter to us except you know who - sis!
enough said..it will not change anything by elaborating the past.) its funny to recall of how i got that name..from an entertainment magazine!! hehehe.....

my star is not as bright or should i say, not at all bright when it comes to lucky draws, participating in contests, quizzes and the list goes on. hmmm...getting an alarm cum radio more than 10 years ago for the xmas celebration and a $100 voucher for the RC members 5 years ago..and that's about it.
even for the scratch to win thingy, i had only won for myself a pen and ironically i was in my lower primary, didnt get to use that pen since we were writing in pencil....hahaha!

so pathethic..thats why i dont see myself going for company D & D.
to participate for the lucky draws like my other colleagues. it would be yet another anticipation- from the 100 to the 50..to the first 10..zzzzz

shower me with Arabic

it has been raining heavily again in january.
getting a cold shower is a drag BUT Najmi seems to enjoy it!!
Mak no longer put him in the tub for his evening bath. too active to handle.

Ezzaty's honeymoon period is over, On monday she had a list of Malay words for spelling.
10 words per week. and today another long list for her English. had been practising her Arabic - and she has been communicating in it since Monday. I had no clue what she was talking about - when Ezzaty starts to coach me word by word, it gets a bit annoying cos I dont seem to pick them fast enough...my memory is failing.

this weekend i have to brush up on that - systematically...
i guess i had to ask my friend Aishah for help, IF SHE IS FREE TO DO SO :-0

summary of late entries

31st dec - we had a simple celebration at home, twinny came with azi, poor adib had to work on that day. we had our usual Raya delicacies and then with our usual hangout activity in the balcony, reading the magazines, watching shows and looking after the kids who were having so much fun. Eddris went for Eid solat alone at Masjid Ahmad Ibrahim. after Asar, we left w/o twinny n mun to alya's place. cant wait to meet up with Aisy & farisha. and from there, we left to Effa's new place. she invited us for her housewarming and the Eid celebration. nice home!

01st Jan - Azi spent the night here and Ezzy was so overwhelmed to have her sleeping on the same bed! Twinny came in the early morning and joined me, Edd & Ezz to S'pore Expo for the Metro sale. we bought most of Ezz's stuff for school. worth waiting since the prices for the bags, stationery were down by half. around seven, the whole family gathered for pizzas and we watched Romi & Mitchel's school reunion, so hilarious!! and how true, when your pal would always stressed that she has a happy family, it really meant the opposite. i learned too that not being successful in your school years does not mean that you will stay that way forever.

02nd Jan - I left home around 8.15am for class- its MA and met up with the new intakes. as usual class owould be very quiet since we have not get to know each other yet . i came with Kovan and was surprised that Dian had joined me for the entire programme. she realised that she loved to learn more on digits for the financial mgt rather than the theorical concept of marketing. our lecturer Kader, looked so much like my cousin Mamat! met up with Edd n Ezz at AMK after class - i bought my school stuff for the next 3 modules since i couldnot get them at the Expo.

03rd Jan - school started early for Ezz. the bus picked her up at 6.40am and i left to join the assembly an hour later. i didnt have to worry about ezz's well-being since the school had adopted the BUDDY SYSTEM for a week. I watched from far, the buddy assigned from P5 did her task very well. making sure ezz had her lunch, keeping her company to the ladies and stayed by her all the time. even when she would be in her class, ezz is welcome to get her for assistance any time for a week.
parents were invited for a talk by the CEO for almost 2 hours at the Musolla area- valuable tips were given on handling the children on stress, time management and target setting for the year...all went well. most parent didnt turn up for the 2nd day in school. i was one of the few who did. did get to watch the cheering competition among the secondary students..they were very creative n witty. sad though, didnt bring my camera to capture ezz's first day in school.....i had so much things on my mind that i totally didnt think abt phototaking.....sorry ezz!

05th Jan - i was back to work after 9 days of holidays, hmm...no more rushing as for now-its the new beginning :-)

crappy entry

its the beginning of a new year.
its been almost a decade that i have stopped making new year's resolutions.
its meaningless for me cos i dont seem to be able to achieve them.
but neverthess i have never stopped to wish/pray/hope for the best - for myself and my loved ones.
everyone does.

this year i will be 7 years away from hitting the big 4 O..gosh! time travels super fast after hitting 21.
its kinda scary too. 20 years ago, i was ONLY 13 and it was a whole new experience in secondary school life in PHS!
20 years later, I will be 33, a mother to 2 young children, still pondering what are my next best steps and slogging mysef with the chores during the weekends....WAHWAHWAH...i wanna go back to those Retro years!

can never turn back the time. memories are meant to stay. always...

actually im running out of ideas on what to blog...so that explains all these craps!